-I don't own Gravitation. This is my 4th fanfic of the series. I decided to go in a new route. I hope you like it!-

Giving up on Love…

Chapter 1- The Breakup

"Suguru-kun" Hiro-san says to me softly, "I don't think I could do this anymore."

I blinked. What exactly was he talking about?

"I don't think we could work anymore." He says.

I blink for a second time. What the hell is he saying? Does he want to quit the band?

Hiro-san gets out of bed, and puts his pants back on. I sit in bed, with the blankets over my naked body.

Hiro-san pulls an arm in his shirt. "Us. I don't think it's going to work anymore…" he says softly.

I still sit in the bed, trying to comprehend what is going on. Then I realize…

"You're dumping me?" I say as softly as he was talking.

Hiro-san looks back at me and he is frowning. "Yes." He says still softly…

I blink for a third time. I can't believe it!

"I hope this doesn't make things awkward between us. You know the band." He remarks.

I blink for the fourth time. "Oh no." I lie, "Nothing's going to change. It'll be like when before, when we were band mates and nothing more." That was when I was madly in love with him and he didn't even pay attention to me. Just to Shindo-san.

Hiro-san puts on a fake smile and says, "That's good." He picks up his bag and leaves the apartment. He leaves his key on the counter. I just sit there and think of what just happened.

It just happened so fast that I didn't have a chance for it to sink in. Hiro-san just dumped me. He just dumped me! I lie down on the bed and look up on the ceiling.

It finally sinks in after a while. It hits me like a truck. I start to cry. I curl up in my blankets in my bed and cry.

Then I realize I have work today. So I just call in sick. There's no way that I could ever look at him the same way again, without making things awkward. I just can't look at him again today, the day that he dumped me!

Sakano-san says that it's too bad that I'll be missing out today. He isn't mad because this is my first time being out. He asks me what is wrong.

"I have a cold." I lie with my stuffy nose, "And it's really bad." I sniff to keep my nose from running. I couldn't tell him the truth.

"I hope you get better." He replies, "Do you need anything?"

"No." I lie again, I really needed a hug, "and I just need some time to rest."

"How long do you think you're going to be out?" he asks. You never know how long you're going to be out with a cold, so why is he asking?

"I don't know." I say to him, "Maybe a whole week, maybe just for today. I should just go to bed now and rest. I need to get better…"

"Oh right." He says apologetically, "Get better soon." Then he hangs up.

I hang up too. Then I crawl into bed. I just remember that I'm still naked, from the fun I had last night. The fun we had, before he dumped me.

I go into the bathroom and take shower. The hot water wakes me up more than I was before. I get some soap in my eye, because I wasn't looking at what I was doing. I'm too preoccupied thinking of him.

When he and I first got together, I couldn't help myself from singing in the shower. He thought it was cute, when he either walked in when I took one, or when he came on in to join me.

I catch a tear falling from my eye. Damn soap. It hurts. I flush my eye out with the water that is coming down from the nozzle. Then I try to get the soap out by blinking. I just can't believe I got soap in my eye. I can't believe he dumped me.

I get out of the shower and put a towel around myself. Then I go to the sink to brush my teeth. My eye still looks red in the mirror. The other one looks red too. Before I realize it I start crying again. Damn soap. Damn love.

I look at my phone to see if I have any messages after I come out of the bathroom all dressed.

None. I knew it. If it was Shindo-san staying home maybe he'd have 100 messages on the phone. Sakano-san would call to see if he was ok. K-san would call him to haul his ass into work or he's going to get his head blown off. Or Hiro-san would call…

I put the phone down on the table. Of course no one would call; Sakano-san must have told them that I was sick. Then they probably would have taken it true. Except Hiro-san would take it as false. He knows that I'm not sick. He's the one that dumped me this morning after all.

I need to watch TV or something. I need to get my mind of that guy.

I go to my computer and play my RPG. That's the way to get my mind of him, killing whatever monster comes my way viciously.

I slice the head off of a couple ogres. Then stab three trolls in the heart. My phone rings.

I pick it up. It's Shindo-san. I'm surprised.

"Fujisaki," He says to me, "Are you ok?"

The lead singer is asking the lowly keyboardist how he is doing? I'm shocked!

"I feel better than I did this morning." I say to him. Well, I won about 1000 points in the last hour, so that cheered me up.

"That's good." He says back, "Call me if you need anything."

"Sure." I say hesitantly, "I'll call." What the hell is up with today? I wonder if he knows what happened.

"Ok." He says softly. The same soft tone Hiro-san was using today. I'm guessing he knows.

How come when someone is talking about something bad or something bad just happened, why is it always in a soft voice? Why? Well at least we didn't end in a big fight or anything like that. We hardly fought, actually.

Shindo-san and Yuki-san always fight. It's more like Yuki-san yells and Shindo-san cries. And they seem ok, at times…

I go back to my RPG. Then I give up then go to bed. I think I'm up for work tomorrow.

-That's the first chapter! I hope you liked it! I have a feeling I'm going to be hated for this fanfic, but I wanted to write it. Please review it! Next chapter will be up soon!-