Once upon a time, there was a girl who questions herself a lot.

She doubts herself.

Who she is.

What she wants.

And who she really wants to be.

As time went by, she questions if she is who she shows herself to be to her friends and family, and if her decisions are right.

Oh, there are so many questions that she asked.

People often label her as philosopical due to her view to life.

But she disagrees. She's just questioning herself a lot.

So when she dies much later in life, she felt like a part of her own soul was split to half.

The first thing she realizes when she opens her eyes are the surroundings.

This doesn't look like heaven. But she doubts this is the world she had once lived in either.

It seemed like a hospital.

But which hospital?

She would later realize where she was when a rather familiar man comes over and carries her.

She looked back to where she was placed, seeing the fully familiar Sawada Nana and the baby that she supposed, was the young Sawada Tsunayoshi.

Her new father started speaking. (She is thankful that she learnt Japanese in her first life)

"Nana dear, I have a name in mind for our boy, but would you like to choose a name for our dear daughter?"

"Of course Iemitsu!" Nana gleefully complied. Looking at her with loving maternal eyes. Then she decided.

"Tsubasa. How about that, dear?"

Iemitsu was smiling at that. "As expected of you Nana! Such a fitting beautiful name!" Iemitsu looked over at the sleeping baby Tsuna. "Tsunayoshi."

And Nana looked over at her. "Tsubasa."

Iemitsu brought her over to where her brother was, bringing them close.

She could see her new brother opening his eyes and both stared at each other.

Hello.

She was halfway between freaking out and laughing mad in denial.

Why wouldn't she?

This was too unexpected, yet it's also a normal reaction to maybe most people who would be in her current position.

To be honest, her otaku and geeky side would be happy about this, but at the same time, she isn't too happy at the thought of being reborn with her previous memories intact because what she expected about rebirth is that you return to a clean slate and become a new person, or at least that's what she believed to be about rebirth.

After a long mulling over her new situation, she decided that she'll just accept the new situation she is in and move on her own pace.

Wallowing over the situation long doesn't bring much good either ways.

If she didn't have memories of a past life, Tsubasa would have enjoyed being a baby more.

But no, she had to have those memories.

Asides playing some toys, learning how to crawl and sleep, being a baby is boring.

She supposed it's true that time feels faster when you grow older.

Though on the fun side, she likes going on mock adventures with Nii-san when he learned to crawl.

(Yes, she's the younger one, because she hears her parents talking about Tsuna being the older twin once in her little adventures, so she refers to Tsuna as Nii-san.)

Sometimes, she dreams of being in her mind.

Her mindscape is a complete mess of colors, papers, and many things she had enjoyed before.

But sometimes, she see's another person who seem to resemble who she was before, but with a different appearance.

Like a reflection.

She remembers having black hair and brown eyes in the past, but she was from a Chinese family. The one in front of her has an air that seemed... Foreign. Dirty blond hair and a rather... Asian face. Somewhat.

The first time, she questions. "Are you me?"

The reflection answers. "Yes and no. Once upon a time, I think we were of one soul. But we do question a lot about ourselves so maybe our questionings is the reason why we are split apart and born as different people."

"Then who are you now?" She ask again.

There was silence. Before the other answers.

"I suppose my current name will be enough. I'm Quinn Lockhart. Supposedly from the Italian word of wing, Quinte. I'm currently the only child of Anise Lockhart and Brendan Lockhart. No, despite my namesake, I'm currently living in England. Father was a half Chinese apparently but I inherit mother's appearance despite having inherited father's complexions so I'm quarter Chinese hence my skin color... But really, who knows how genetics works? Lego?"

She couldn't help but snort. Yeah, genetics can be weird.

Then the other ask. "What about you? Just to be fair."

She supposed.

"I'm... Sawada Tsubasa. Child of Sawada Iemitsu and Sawada neè Nomura Nana, and the younger twin sister to Sawada Tsunayoshi."

She enjoys talking to Quinn.

Her reasoning is that being a baby can be boring and dreaming felt a lot better than boring reality as a baby. No wonder babies sleep a lot.

Even if she had Nii-san, she still felt bored.

So in the dreams, she and Quinn talked, regardless of the time zones.

Since they are apparently in the same world as of now since from all the shows they watch, and especially Katekyo Hitman Reborn, they assume that it's impossible to see the same mindscape when they are worlds apart.

Especially when Mukuro was incapable of contacting Chrome as she was sent to the future.

But for now, they're talking about their current lives as babies (2 year old on Quinn's case apparently, since the real Quinn is born 2 years before her) and how slow time seems to be.

Life goes on.

You know all those things about what a parents expect for a baby's first word?

Well, it does have a point that it shows the love the baby had to their family.

But no, Tsubasa didn't want to have her new father coddle over her needlessly by calling him Papa first.

Yet, as much as she loved Nana for being a saint and a loving mother, despite her airheadedness, she doesn't want to call Nana as Mama first either.

So her first word as Tsubasa was calling her brother.

Not by name.

But by the honorrific.

She attempted to call him "Nii-san". It was successful in a sense. But it came out as "Nii-Tan" due to her developing vocal cords.

Then Tsuna paid back the favor by calling her, though not her full name but by calling her "Sasa". Of all the names.

So that was how the nickname Sa-chan stick to her like a glue for her mom.

(She didn't mind. At least it's not as bad as Iemitsu's nickname of Nii-san as Tuna-fish.)

(On hindsight, she felt comforted that both her and Tsuna's first words are of their sibling.)

Her first reaction in her second life to a pencil is joy.

Finally she can actually draw something on paper!

She was an art student and she does enjoy drawing even if she got distracted by mobile games a lot.

But hey, gaming is her new passion and her dream is to become a character designer. So there's a connection to them.

All she could do at her current age is just a plain scribble because she's still a toddler but she'll get back to it, and she will make sure of it.

She was happy to see Nana smiling when she asked her mom to buy a tiny kiddie sketchbook.

She wasn't sure when her introversion started in her previous life.

Maybe when it's third grade when her parents moved her and her brother (The youngest was still two years old at the time) to a new school and the environment being very different.

She did grow up fine even as she start to grow introverted in time.

But even as time passed and she grow out of the thought process she held through her school years by the time she started college, she couldn't really figure out when did she get to be so introverted.

And cowardly.

(She disliked it but she couldn't find it in herself to change. She is growing out of it by her college years, but she couldn't shake out her often justified but irrational fears completely.)

Now, looking at her very innocent Nii-san, she decided that she's going to take the initiative this time and protect Nii-san from the scary future so he wouldn't end up being so insecure about himself.

Sometimes, she calls out to her brother simply as Nii-san. But often times, it's Tsuna.

She never called her brother by the latter except for her own personal internal monologues.

Like as she mentally thinks of this thought right now as if she's writing or typing something.

Tsuna, likewise, usually calls her by name but often times, call her "little sister".

Truthfully, she didn't believe in the twin telepathy idea because people can grow out differently with different mindsets.

(Reading lots of stories can be good for psychological study to be honest, there's such a plethora of characters that you can study and accept who they are for and- She should stop rambling now)

But lately, whenever she feels bored, Tsuna immediately comes over to her and ask her to play with him.

And when she wants to do something, but then contemplates it, Tsuna comes by and helps give some motivation.

It could be his Hyper Intuition, but she is starting to think that maybe twin telepathy is a thing with a select amount of many twin siblings in the world.

She hardly cared about appearance's as much.

Because she prefers comfort over looking good but she does have a good interest in fashion because some outfits are good when given some coordination and hey, she's a design student before, got to get some references while she could.

So for the first time in a while, she looked at her new apperance. As a four year old.

Apparently, she and Tsuna inherit far more from Nana than Iemitsu asides the blood. She wasn't sure about the flames but since sky flames are more often than not, hereditary, she considers that maybe she has sky flames despite lacking the personality traits of one.

But anyway, she had mom's hair color and facial features like Nii-san. She is thankful that her hair didn't go spiky like all those fics which had a girl Tsuna having spiky hair mullets because, what in the actual fuck, that hair style is too weird for a girl. Wild hair is a no, thank you very much.

But she can see that her hair is going to grow long in the future.

Maybe she should ask mom to cut her hair shorter.

Long hair is the bane of existence for her. She hated tying her hair up. (And the god damn fringe too)

But in the end, she decided to keep her hair on the length of her shoulder blades and simply plaited a small braid at one side of her hair when Nana says she think she'd look nice with longer hair.

Well, she can always cut her hair and keep the same hair style she decided for now.

(Speaking of age, Quinn is now enrolled to an England elementary school, now she get impatient at the thought of going to school just so she wouldn't be bored.)

Being in kindergarten is much better than being cooped up at home at least.

It was just plain boring play time and letter studying most of the time though.

By letters, she meant learning Hiragana and a Katakana. Japanese is pretty advanced. But she honestly missed reading English. She prefer it over her mother tongue.

But there's nothing much special going on in kindergarten asides the other kids in kindergarten know that her Nii-san can be clumsy.

So... self honorifics.

It's weird that most countries had it same when there's pretty much a range of it in Japanese. That wasn't even counting the European languages like German or the like.

Japanese is pretty vast but she likes the variety it brings.

She knows that Nii-san probably uses "Ore" than "Boku" but that's in the future. Since he refers to himself as "Tsu-kun" for now from time to time. He has yet to find what self honorific he would like to use for himself though she's sure it's "Ore".

She grew out of it fast and refer to herself as "Boku" while speaking Japanese, even though she's pretty much translating it to English for her own head.

What? She liked the sound of it than the usual "Watashi" or the informal form, "Atashi".

And there's real cases of girls referring to themselves as "Ore", courtesy of a conversation with a Japanese native in regards to the subject of self honorifics in her previous life, so she can call herself as justified.

It was only at five that Iemitsu visited again, this time, with a foreign old man with him (It's Timoteo, but she'd rather call him that instead).

They have been around for a few days and hung around and, in Iemitsu's words, having a family bonding time.

She accepts the rather neglecting man to be part of her family by blood, but refuse to see him as a father because he doesn't do the things that a father does.

She'd rather prefer her Papa from her old life than Iemitsu, he's jolly, a bit uptight and scary when angry, but a loving and awesome Papa no less. And for that, she refused to call Iemitsu as dad or Papa, just father, the polite and neutral form of the title.

Nana though, for her, deserves to be called mom because she was around with them and took care of them. Even if she can be pretty ditzy.

Back to the matter at hand though, she knows of the event that got Nii-san sealed back in the... well she should call it main timeline instead of canon.

It would happen. She wasn't sure if she should stop it, while it could have saved Nii-san from being sealed and likely ruining him spiritually and mentally in the process, she wasn't sure what effect of being unsealed would have on Nii-san.

Should she, or shouldn't she?

She mulled over her decision as she quietly scribbled on the paper at the table. Soon getting up and walked around the halls to find Nii-san who decided to play on the backyard, she stopped as she hear the two adults talking in a hushed tone.

She managed to catch on flames and young through her young ears.

She quietly stepped over to them. "What are you talking about Mister? Father?"

The two adults are startled at her presence. Iemitsu laughed in an attempt to keep his surprise. "Just adult talk Tsubasa! No need to worry!"

Tsubasa scrunched up her eye brows in doubt. Talking like a child. "If it's about Nii-san, I won't forgive you if you plan to do something bad to him. Nii-san is already afraid of dogs because you refuse to listen to him when he tells you to stop, he doesn't need to be any more scared than that."

At that, Iemitsu laughed further, as if trying to hide what he plans to do. "Hahaha! I'll note that my little princess!"

Liar.

She wanted to shout but chose not to. She decided to keep staring at Iemitsu instead.

At that moment, she heard Nii-san groan from the fall. She immediately reacted by running forward and stood in front of Nii-san, trying to shield him.

The two men looked at each other. She thought they would have likely stopped what they plan to do with Nii-san.

But she supposed it was futile though, as the old man came forward to her. She saw the flame at his finger and-

She felt sleepy.

When she landed in her mindscape after seeing the flame, the surroundings that are filled with her own and Quinn's mindscape are breaking apart. And she saw Quinn's image seems to be breaking to pieces. Like a broken mirror.

They both looked at each other and Quinn decided to ask. "It's the seal isn't it?"

She nodded.

Quinn can only sigh. "Troublesome neglecting asshole who decided that spiritually destroying a kid is the way to go. Joy."

"You can say that again." She let out a sigh as well.

"I guess... this would be the last time we'll see each other, I think the link we had on our souls are breaking." Quinn gestured around as their shared mindscape breaks off little by little in time.

"But we're still in the same world, aren't we? We can meet again, right?"

"Maybe."

"See you around?"

"See you around."

The mirror's broke.

Even as she smiled at Iemitsu's claim, Nana is not a fool.

She knew that Tsu-kun is outside, that, she could believe, but what got her to doubt his claim that both Tsu-kun and Sa-chan both fell asleep since they're so tired playing is that Sa-chan had been inside doodling on her paper moments before Iemitsu's claim.

Something is wrong. Her motherly instinct screamed.

Iemitsu must have done something to the twins for that to happen, but she doesn't know what it is.

She had an inkling it had to do with something beyond normal control. Something... super natural and too surreal.

She made a plan to call an old friend of hers who had an experience at this kind of thing. She may know and tell what Iemitsu did to her babies.

Once Iemitsu and the guest, Sir Timoteo left, that is.

A practice of sort.

I kind of want to try this format out.

I made a tumblr blog dedicated to fanfiction related things under the name torinokomachi so please go there either as an user or anonymous for any questions.

- torinokomachi