Have you ever hated yourself? I mean really hated yourself to the point where even looking in the mirror is a huge task, when for other people it's all they have ever known. I walk around with such an empty heart until the day I met Damon Salvatore and Bonnie McCullough. It was an unfortunate and fortunate type of situation. Damon was coming to hunt me when I turned around and hunted him right back. He had no idea that I was a vampyre, different from his type of vampire.
We fed off of each other...
What he didn't know is that with me being the vampyre I am we bonded. So now Damon's soul is connected with mine. I feel everything he does, I know where he is at all times, and I can telepathically communicate with him and vice versa. I have only ever bonded like this with two people but they both were murdered because of me. One was human and the other was a vampyre like me. I loved them with my whole life but, that doesn't matter anymore. I think that's the reason why my heart is so empty. My soul shattered when they died.
When breaking a bond it's the most painful thing in the world, the rumor is... It's worse than dying. For 7 days you will do anything to see that person but it is important not to because the bond was broken for a reason.
Anyways, I don't really know why I did… what I did. I hurt Damon and his girlfriend Bonnie at the time (now they are engaged). They forgave me after a while, we had to learn how to work with each other and respect one another with this bond. It was so hard in the beginning but eventually it became a part of us and until this day, we are as close as ever. Damon and I casually feed off of each other once a week to get our fix, since he and I share the same morals in not feeding off of humans anymore. He feeds from Bonnie as well and I actually have a few times myself.
The thing is I want more from them; I want to be with them both. I actually fell in love with Damon and Bonnie and I have this huge feeling they did with me as well. I don't know how to tell them I want to be in a relationship, with them both. How do you tell your friends you want to have an emotional and physical relationship with them both? Well it's time I open up to them both. I just hope I don't get rejected. I don't think I could handle hating myself even more than I already do.