At night I cry.
I cry for a place divided into four.
I cry for a clear Northern Sky, a radiant Southern Sun.
I cry for a great Western Wood, a glistening Eastern Sea.
At night I read.
I read the poems, the stories.
I read of return to Narnia, and of Susan's redemption.
I read and I cry, for they can return, and I cannot.
At night I dream.
I dream of a land of rolling grass.
I dream of the Stone Table cracked in two.
I dream of my home from which I am held.
At night I hurt.
I hurt for my home, Narnia in her Golden Age.
I hurt for the want to be there.
I hurt to be torn from this cruel world, and given new life in Her.
And at night I pray.
I pray to Mighty Aslan, to the Gracious Lord, to Forgiving Jesus.
I pray that they have mercy upon me.
I pray that they give me a hope to cling to.
The hope that someday, I will rip free of this world, and I will be home.
