A/N: This takes place after the book of MockingJay. Warning, 'Spoiler Alert' don't read if you haven't finished the Hunger Games Trilogy. The Epilogue of the book does not exactly happen in my story. There is a flashblack in this chapter and it will be in italics just to let you guys know.
I stood in the door frame of my house in the Victor's Village. Looking at the emptiness of my house. Yes, there was funiture, appliances, and TV but the lack of people made my stomach uneasy and my mind wonder.
"How did I get here, why did this happen...to me ? Why did I become the reason ? Let alone how did I make this happen ? It was just a handful of berries me and Peeta decided to eat before we were crowned the 74th annual Hunger Games victors !" I said in a whisper, raising my voice as I kept talking to myself. Shaking my arms in front of me in pure anger.
Peeta was still in the capitol and Gale had gone to District 2. Haymitch came back with me to 12 while my mother stayed in 8 to open some major hospital. While Prim...my 13 year old sister got killed in the capitol by falling explosive silver parachutes.
"Dearie ! I'm here ready to cook some breakfast for you." Greasy Sae called as she entered the house carrying bags of ingredients.
"I'm in the kitchen." I replied looking up to her, staring into her gray eyes.
"Oh, I know. You haven't bothered to even leave the kitchen since you've came back from the capitol. Still in the same clothes too."
I shrugged off her comment, knowing she didn't intend to say it in a hostile manner. Only finding myslef to say, "I don't think I have any reason to live, considering the current stage everthing is in."
"Katniss, don't talk like that. Of course you do and if you don't think that you have a reason to live, then think of who's lives you are filling gaps in."
"But who would need me in their lives. It's not like I'm important anymore." I said to her in complete honesty.
"To me, if you weren't around I wouldn't be coming over here twice a day to cook for you. Since the Hob burned down I have nothing left to do. To Delly, who is on her own since her family died while 12 was under attack..."
Greasy Sae stopped when she noticed my face coming to reality and realization for the first time in months.
"Katniss, everyone else is either dead or gone and the ones that need you need as many people to be around from before this happened. It's not easy for me or anyone else trying to get used to this."
After a while I answered, "Yes, I'm sorry. I shouldn't be thinking like that for my own selfish feelings when I know there are people I need to be thinking of."
"Well, now that you've come to your senses why don't you go take a nice warm bath while I prepare the food ?"
"Thanks Sae, you always know what to say and guide me back on track."
After she gave me a simple nod I walked up the stairs and into my room to find some clothes in the drawers. I drew the bath and waited it to fill so I could finally relax and forget everything that has impacted me negatively since I got pulled out 'During' the Games.
The confusion of everything from Johanna helping me with Beetee's plan then all of a sudden attacking me to try to kill me. But then again she took out the tracer that was in my arm. Then there was when I attacked Haymitch on the hoverplane going to 13 when Gale aftewards told me there was no 12.
I turned the faucet off when the water was high enough to slowly get in to not try to spill any water out of the tub.
Continuing my thoughts I thought about how my new life was in 13 with my 'Mentally Disoriented' bracelet and me not attending the schedule on my arm.
Leading up to the full out war with the propos and the bombings to us actually attending and being a part of the army.
All the way to when I shot Coin with my bow Beetee made for me. I bet that was her plan, 13's plan all along since the uprising against the Capitol for 13's president to be the new leader of Panem. Well, atleast that's what Snow told me and I still don't know whether to trust him or not about that. Although it seems true with all the pieces fitting into the puzzle exactly how it was meant to be. I just don't know if I can still trust him.
Look at me, I'm supposed to be relaxing when instead I'm thinking of all this and starting to get anxiety. I shake my head to clear it of my thoughts and actually start to relax for the first time in what seems like years.
It felt like a relaxing couple of hours when Greasy Sae called that breakfast was ready, except for you know the flashback I was having. It was about a quater after one so I don't think it's considered breakfast. But sure was the food she made breakfast alright. Scrambled eggs, with 4 thick slices of bacon and 2 sausages with a crispy golden hashbrown. I felt like the feeling of heaven was never going to end.
Eating everything down to almost even the plate, I waved good-bye as she left after washing the dishes.
"I'll be back in a couple of hours to make you some dinner !" She yelled as she walked out the door.
"Ok! Thanks, the food was delicious !" I yelled back in her direction hoping she heard me, then looking down at the washed dishes.
I needed a really nice nap in the soft cushion of my bed with feather-filled pillows. "Ahh the advantages of being a victor." I happily sighed as I walked once again up the stairs to master bedroom. Falling into a deep sleep simply from my head coming into contact with my pillow.
A/N: This is chapter 1 and I hope you guys liked it, remember it's my first fanfic so please review and I'll keep on writing depending if you guys like it or not. I have the next 4 chapters already written, just need to edit it and next chapter will have a HUGE suprise so stay tuned...