Run, run, run, faster, hurry! It's closer, closer, it's coming, it's near, can I escape it? I hear it breathing! It's here it's here. Run!
I duck fast behind a nearby tree. It's dark and all I can hear is the sound of my heart pounding in my ears. Could it be gone? I don't understand what that thing was. How did I get here? There aren't any forests near my home. There isn't much of anything near my home. Was I kidnapped? What was that thing!? Why is it chasing me? It's not human. It's not an animal. I feel my heart slow a bit, still catching my breath. "I think it's gone..." big mistake. I hear a loud growl in my ear. I turn my head and meet eye to eye with this thing. It's too dark to make out much of its features. All I can focus on is it's deep crimson red eyes. So much anger behind them. I hadn't noticed how much this monster towarded over me. It's at least 10 feet tall. I can't run. I can't move! Is this the end? Is this how Izaya Orihara goes out? I feel it's teeth puncture my shoulder. It's deep and painful. My vision is going blurry. It grips me with its sharp claws and pulls me up to its face. It has a face like a werewolf but the body of a mummy. How could something so frail hurt me so much? I feel it's hot breath on my face. This is the end, isn't it? I feel tears begin to prick at my eyes. I feel so helpless. I try to take a deep breath, but it lunges it's massive claws right into my chest. I watch it pull out my heart and begin to laugh. I can't focus anymore. I can't comprehend anything. This is it.
I nearly jump out of bed when I wake up. I can't stop shaking. "Fuck.. not another one.." I mumble to myself. This is the fourth nightmare this week. What has been happening to me? Why am I having so many nightmares? I mean I normally have them, but this is now getting bad. These are monsters hurting me. I try my best to keep the tears in, but I know I'm failing. "Izaya? You're up?" Fuck. I woke Shizu-chan. I swallow hard, trying to get the lump out of my throat. I will not cry in front of Shizu-chan. "Yeah.. I'm up. Sorry Shizu-Chan. I didn't mean to wake you." I say softly. Just go back to sleep please. But of course that isn't like him. I know it isn't. He sits up and rubs his sleepy eyes. "Tell me what's up. Why are you up?" I feel his head rest on my shoulder. I know he's more than half asleep, but he still won't stop asking me until I tell him something. I have to think quick. "I uh I had to go to the bathroom." I say fast. He chuckles. "Then go, idiot." I stand up and stretch. While Shizuo lays his head back on his pillow I check my body to make sure I have all my flesh and limbs. I'm good. But I can still feel the horrible feeling of it's hands plunging through my chest.
I start walking to the bathroom. I can feel the nightmare heavily. They're getting worse. This is the first time I've died in my dream. Does that mean I will really die? I have no idea and I don't think I want to know. I splash my face with water. "Come on, Izaya. You're tougher than this!" I'm not though. I know I'm not. And I just let the tears start pouring out now. I can't keep it in anymore. I don't want to die. I don't want to leave Shizuo behind. How do I make this stop? I'll do anything to get these to stop happening. I won't sleep anymore, yeah that's it. If I don't sleep, then I can't have nightmares. But Shizu-Chan will be so upset.. "I just won't tell him. I'll wait until he falls asleep every night and then I'll just do something to distract myself." I hurry up in here and head back to bed. Shizuo is probably already dead asleep by now. He's impossible to wake up sometimes.
I was right. He's already dead asleep.
He looks so precious when he sleeps. Maybe I could sit next to him for a bit. It makes me so sad that I can't tell him what is happening in my head. Would he be scared? Would he think I'm crazy? Hell, I think I'm crazy. This really isn't something I'm good with talking about either. I wouldn't know how to explain it. And what if he is upset I haven't been telling him? This is too much. My head feels heavy. I'm tired. I won't fall asleep though, I can't. I don't want to stop looking at his precious face. The way his mouth is slightly a gap when he sleeps. "You'll drool on yourself, silly..." I whisper as I wipe the drool from the side of his mouth. He grabs my hand in his sleep and snuggles into it. Ugh, oh boy. I can't help but smile. I kiss his forehead and lay down next to him. He cuddles into my chest almost instantly. "My sweet boy. I wish I could tell you what's been happening in my head." I don't even know what I would do if I found out he was having nightmares like these. I would fall apart. I rather have these things happen to me than to him. I ruffle his hair. He has the most beautiful blond locks. I don't deserve someone as precious as him.
Time starts slowing down now. I feel my eyelids getting heavy. I don't want to sleep. I know what will happen... but Shizuo is so comfy. I can't help myself anymore. Maybe a minute or two of some shut eye won't hurt...
Or so I thought.