Gone Forever
Written by: Adventure-Seeking-Juliet
When: Listening to Gone Forever by Three Days Grace.
Disclaimer: I don't own Star Wars, or characters that you recognize. I also don't own Gone Forever by Three Days Grace.
A/N POST ROTS. About a year or so after the events on Mustafar, Vader fights with his inner Ani about if he misses his beloved Padme, or is glad that she's gone forever. Not a song-fic. Based of song by the band Three Days Grace. Angst. Please review:) Short One-Shot.
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Anakin should have been dead long ago, but yet somehow from deep inside his cold, mechanical, heart the tiny voice of Vader's past begged to be listened to, and it was.
He wasn't sure where he'd gone wrong. Anakin was so sure that he was doing the right thing by trying to save the one he loved, but somewhere along the way he ceased being kind hearted Anakin and had become a monster in every meaning of the word.
It felt like a hundred years, and Anakin still couldn't beleive Padme was gone...forever. At first he was even to shocked to be in shock.
Anakin had become only a small umimportant part of Vader, but yet he still expected to see Padme's angelic face in the morning's...when he did finally realize that there was no way he'd see her again Anakin finally completely became part of the monster, almost.
No matter how much he tried Vader couldn't shake the tiny part of him that was Anakin, and no matter how hard Anakin tried he wouldn't allow himself to be utterly consumed by the dark side.
So he continued on:
Everywhere he turned walls seemed to surround him; incase him in unwanted memories. Memories he didn't deserve to have in his heart. Not only of his angel, but of his mother, his friends, his mentor...they filled his heart with both love and despair beyond even the dark side's sinister "repair."
It was just a myth to most. The story of the Jedi who went bad, and wiped out the entire galaxy...killing those he loved most in the process. No one knew that Anakin Skywalker was the one, they didn't know what had happened to the kind Jedi Knight...but he did.
The mistake was his. Always had been, and always would be. Even worse was that the pain he'd caused ate at what was left of the real him.
Nothing compared to what he had tusted though.
He had trusted the one person who he should have scorned. At the time he'd been so inconceivably fooled by Palpitine that he was suprised he wasn't blind.
Things were coming clear to Anakin now, the reason that Padme died was the Sith. If Anakin had just been there for her instead of off killing younglings she'd be alive.
So as Vader lied, screaming it out for the world to hear that he felt so much better now that she was gone forever...and fooling himself into half beleiving the lie, Anakin knew the truth.
No matter what his angel was still gone forever.
A/N Sad Sad Sad.