It's Not Over.
Meredith sighed as she drove away from Christina's. After getting her out of her wedding dress she had lay in bed with her until she was sure she had fallen asleep and then she headed out of the apartment. She still couldn't believe what Burke had done twenty four hours ago she had had hope she had hope that people like her and Christina could do the happily ever after thing and now…..
She sighed again now it had all been pulled out from under her. At first she thought about going home but then she thought about what really was home and it occurred to her it was Derek. I need him she thought I love him Oh god what the hell have I done.
She did a sharp U-turn and headed towards the trailer.
When she pulled up in front of it he was sitting on the deck he looked broken and she realized that the last few weeks had taken its toll on him as well.
He looked up surprised to see Meredith. She looked exhausted her eyes were bloodshot from unshed tears but even with all that she still managed to take his breath away
"Hi" she said quietly
"Hey"
"I didn't mean it" she blurted out
"What?" he asked confused
"At the church today I didn't mean it was over" she sighed and took a long sip of his
Beer.
"I got scared Burke left Christina and I'd convinced myself that if Christina could do the whole happy ever after thing then I could as well. But he left and you told me that you couldn't breathe for me any more and flirting with that girl was the highlight of your week" he cringed when she said this
"And I panicked" she said "I love you Derek and I don't want to lose you and I oh god" she gasped unable to hold back the sobs any longer.
He lept up and wrapped his arms around her shoulders "Ssh its okay it's okay" he whispered to her
"No … it's….. not" she gasped "I… shut you out"
"Meredith!" he said firmly cupping his hands around her cheeks and lifting her head up
"We both made mistakes okay both of us I was so wrapped up in chief I stopped trying I gave up"
She stepped back and wiped her eyes with the back of her hand "I forgot about chief did you get it?"
He shook his head never breaking eye contact "He offered me it but I didn't take it"
She gaped at him "Why?!" she asked incredously "It's your dream to be chief! That's the reason you came here!"
He shook his head "I came to Seattle because my life was falling apart, and it was my dream to be chief until the first time I saw you at Joe's you're it for me Mer you'll always be it for me" he said pulling her back into him and kissing her passionately
"You're it for me too" she said softly and extended her hand out which he took and led her into the trailer