I don't know why I wrote this. Just felt like it. And I wanted to write something about Thomas and Edward. Reviews are very appreciated! ;)

Why?

Sometimes I wonder

When I met you there

Why I fell in love with you,

With you of all people who were there.

But when I think of what you did to me

My heart breaks, I want to cry

It was so cruel

Why did you have to do this, why?

You were so sad when I saw you first

Thinking of the life you had before

I tried to help and wanted you to trust

In me 'cause I wanted to be there for you

Because I couldn't bear you suffering

I couldn't stand your pain

It's so hard to believe and it's scaring

That now it's only thoughts that remain.

I can't stop thinking about the time

We had together; it was just too short

If I only had had a bit more time

Maybe I could have been a better support.

This fateful night

I can't forget

You lied there in the pale moonlight

Blood dripping from your bed.

I wanted to do something

But I was too late

I could only watch this awful sight

How you lied there, quietly and sad.

All shattered inside

My heart torn into pieces

I tried not to think

Nor consider

What I could have done

If I had been there just minutes before.

It must have been hard for you to be

Trapped in your dark world so cold and alone

With only black shadows

To keep you company

And wholly left on your own.

I wanted to be there

Be your support

And more – your love

And still I cannot believe

That you left me.

Now I sit here all alone in the dark

Still blaming myself for what you did

The night outside extinguishes the last spark

And there's no more light to show me how to move on and live.

I tried to go on and not to blame the cruel world

But sometimes it is harder to forget than to forgive

From all the people in the world

You were the one who really deserved to live.

I think about you every single day

Remembering all the good times we had

I wish I could go back in time and stay

But the only thought of this impossibility makes my heart break.

When I sit here with your picture in my hands

I can't fight the tears

They are torturing me and telling me so merciless

That you're gone and will never return.

They stole you from me

Tore us apart

This thought of thee

Like knives in my heart.

I remember your smile

So rare shown but so beautiful

The twinkle of your blind eyes just once in a while

Your hand gently touching mine.

Lost in thought

But always so brave

Nothing will separate you from me I thought

But the future was in dark shape.

How you sat there

So shy and depressed

Refusing every care

But at the same time not wanting to be left.

Your eyes

Not able to see

But still they won't cry

I wish they could have seen me.

Your dark hair

Messed up by the wind;

Your unsteady steps

Always cautious and trying to find

A secure halt which I wanted to be.

It was love at first sight

I don't deny

And still I want to fight

The truth that you will never be mine.

I went through much in my life

Never thought it could get worse

The moonless dark sky above

Told me that this is my curse

Because actually the worst thing was yet to come.

I will always love you,

Hold you close to my heart

'Cause no matter what happened

You'll always be a part of me and have a place in my heart.

But there's still something that haunts my mind

Keeps me awake every night

A question for which no answer I can find

Just tell me one last thing:

Why?