Once in a while there are these looks between the two of them.
They each imagine what could have been had they gotten together, Had they shared everything in all ways.
If only she hadn't run away to Mexico with Faber. If only he followed and demanded that she listen to him.
If only Abigail hadn't been in the picture.
If only Mark hadn't shown up.
If only she hadn't gotten pregnant If only he hadn't gotten Abigail pregnant.
If only she hadn't married Mark.
If only he hadn't married Abigail.
If only they had told each other 3 simple yet life changing words.
I Love You.
The look between them says it all while they stare at one another and then their attention is demanded elsewhere.
His kids and her kids.
His wife and her husband.
Bringing them crashing back into reality.
If? If? If?
This is their life now there are no If's only what is right now.
Right now they are as happy as they can be.
Still partners and best friends.
Still together and eternally thankful for it.
Just not in the way they would have chosen.
If only just one of them had been a little bit braver.
A little more dominating.
A little more willing to take a risk.
But hey they can't complain.
Life has been good to them these days.
They each live a life most people would die for and for that they are thankful.
Just once in a while there is a look between the two them of what might have been and they wonder until their attention is Demanded somewhere else.
His Grand-kids and her Grand-kids.
Their family's, Their life's.
Together yet Separate.
Not our Family, Not our life.
The word If plays in there minds.
The word If is dragged out of there minds.
As their reality brings them crashing back to the present and away from If.
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It's been a while since I've updated on here. Hope you like it. I'm still going to write Community and Trauma stories in the future for those who still want to read them.
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