CHAPTER ONE
Baek Seung Jo stands before me in this pouring rain. The guy I've loved for 4 years and counting. The guy who didn't know I existed til I sent him a love letter. A love letter he edited. He is the only one who can make me cry in a second then smile a second later. Now after my heart breaking too many times because of him, he stands before me, seemingly taunting me, "You like me. You like only me." Confused but not surprised, I question his sudden arrogance. "You can't like anyone else but me." I'm tired of this. Why is he pointing out the obvious? "Yes! It's true! I can't like anyone but you! But you never see me. Someone like you could never look at someone like me.." His face is filled with emotion I can't read. He drops the umbrella oh so perfectly and starts to lean towards me for a kiss. He's too fast for me to react. I end up kissing him back. As he gasps for air, he smiles and playfully yet seriously warns, "Never say you like another man," and leans in for another kiss but I push him away. Hah, if our high school classmates could see the confused look on his face right now, they'd be surprised how dumb he looks.
I push him away and think of Bong Joon Gu. Joon Gu, the man who's attempted to be there to wipe every tear that's streamed down my face. The man who's willing to do anything to be my side. The man who would take a bullet for me. The man who claimed himself as my "home" that I can go to anytime. He asked me to marry him and I never gave him a straight answer. He knows my heart lays with Seung Jo but he's willing to wait. Tonight, I also pushed him away as he tried to kiss me. I'm too confused. I'm too hurt. But for the first time, I need to be smart and make a decision.
"Baek Seung Jo. Why now? Why do you like me now?"
"I don't know.. I guess I fell in love with your power. Your persistence. And you're adorably annoying side," he says with a wink only slightly aware that I'm not in the mood to joke around anymore.
"You show interest in me after I tell you that my answer to Joon Gu is none of your business. You show interest in me after I say I'm moving and probably won't see you often," I hope the suspicion is clear in my statement.
"You're slow to catch on. Even my mother sees through me," he chuckles.
"I'm tired." And clearly not amused.
"What's wrong? Isn't this what you wanted? I fell for you! I only see you!"
"Don't tell me you never looked at He Ra."
He wanted to interrupt but she wasn't going to let him.
"I was finally moving on with my life, accepting I'd never be the one you see and then you go and show interest in me. I've cried over you too many times to count. You've hurt me deliberately and on accident. I know I don't deserve a smart, handsome guy like you but what makes you think you deserve me?"
Seung Jo was speechless for the first time in his life. Did he really think it'd be this easy getting what his heart desired? And when did Ha Ni get so smart?
"I don't think I should be with you. I see that now. I don't know if you'll be hurt by me but if you are, that's merely a fraction of my pain crushing on you. I'm sorry." Ha Ni walked away and let the tears flow for Seung Jo one last time before meeting with Joon Gu to apologize and give him her answer.