Both the time I don't have
And the time you will live
Wouldn't it be wonderful
If they walked the same path?
.
But you will never fade
While I'm already vanishing away
Slowly, little by little
Until there is nothing left
.
Do you want me to pretend I hate you?
In return, you could love me, too
The glances you give me
And the fights we get into
Will they disappear as well?
.
Now I see:
There is no way back,
And there is no way forward.
I do not wish to stand still,
for it's too painful.
.
"It will be like falling asleep",
I hear them say.
"It will seem like a dream"
And I hope it all just melts away
.
I know I've lost this fight,
But I only wish some instants
I wish you to come near me
Before becoming beautiful light
.
"And you did come!",
I think in surprise
And as you lean closer
I think I saw a tear, rolling through your eye
.
You always know
And you always have
The things that people want to hear
Thank you for staying with me
.
These are the lies I need
When this is all over
You will go home
And you will be able to fall asleep
.
Without me, but still
Thank you;
Thank you.
And sorry.
.
Your head is next to mine
Fallen on the ground
I feel your breath on the crook of my neck
I hear you sob
.
I say it's ok
And caress your head
Just now I realize
I taste the salt of my tears
.
But I don't want you to
Get soaked with my blood
So don't come too close
Stop apologizing in my ear
.
As I hear the sound of your voice
The tears come faster
Just get away from me
Just keep on hating me!
.
But I don't want you to
Leave me here alone
Please don't let me go
I'm still too scarred
.
I don't want to follow that light
If you can't go with me
Even if it's selfish
Or if you're just pretending
.
But pretend it to the last second
Because I know you can burn me
To the last bone
And throw the ashes away.
.
If what you say is true
Then let me stay,
I will comfort you at all times
And you will embrace me tightly
.
I will move to your home
And we will dance
To the end of the world
Until we can stand no more
.
But your voice is already fading
My head becomes numb
I recognize you screaming
And feel your tears falling on me
.
My hand goes towards your face
And I feel your warm skin on mine
I would stay like this forever
And I will
.
Because my forever is now different from yours
And will only last some seconds more
I take these to look at you
While you look at me
.
Everything we would do
If they would just let me stay
I don't think I can anymore;
We'll have to leave for next time
.
My arm fell, before I realized
Your body fell on mine
Everything fell silent
Then I fell asleep