Author's Note
Readers,
I was originally going to make this all my own, with no scenes from the actual show, as I hadn't seen them yet. But, I have seen them now, and the scenes between Mary and Lavinia are breathtaking, full of potential… stuff, and I'm going to use them to my advantage. The one thing Julian Fellowes has given me…
This has been swirling around in my mind for a long time, and has taken even longer to plan it all out and write it down. Surprisingly, I have actually never written a romance story between two women (save for 'Feel', the lead-up to this). And I say, I am very proud that this (and that) was it. 'Forbidden Kisses' is an alternate and extended (by a long shot) version of 'Feel'…but read it, if you like this, you'll love that one. And 'All We Have Is Now', but I haven't quite finished it, I am doing it bit by bit, bear with me…
I AM a fierce Mary and Matthew shipper; I just loved this idea and decided to share it with you guys. Don't make me regret it.
Don't anyone think I make Matthew out to be the bad guy; in this chapter or any following. He could never be that, not in any world. This is a story about Mary and Lavinia. Yes, a romance.
This is NOT an "I think I fancy her, maybe I'm a lesbian, let's kiss and find out" story. I don't write that shit. This is about Lavinia being in love with Mary, (and her feelings being reciprocated) but not realising it (of course she didn't, there wasn't even a word for it back then). I know I said this in my Author's note for 'Feel', I do hate repeating myself, but sometimes the situation calls for it.
And, a disclaimer for this entire fic.
I do not own Downton Abbey. I know what would be happening if I did, and that has not (and will never happen) thanks to Fellowes.
I hope you like Forbidden Kisses. I know I've worked hard on it, and I hope it shows.
Thank you,
x kissthespider26