Let me go I cried to him in silence. I knew that if he held me any longer my tears would roll down my cheek, the same cheek he once kissed telling me it was all going to be okay. How could this love be a good thing? The kind of love where I was the one always getting hurt, where he could do whatever he wanted and still manage to get me back. He held me closer to his body now, thinking that his smell, his touch would ease my pain and make me forgive him, Well this time he was wrong. I gathered all my strength and pushed him off, He looked at me in shock. This time I wasn't going to go along with his forgive me speech and kisses, NO , he had hurt way to many times and I finally had enough.I couldn't even look at him in the eyes anymore, I knew what that would do to me, I know that in a blink of an eye I would find myself crying in his arms. I avoided his beautiful blue eyes that had so many times looked upon me with what I thought was Love. All I could get out was "Goodbye Michael" as I ran , yes I ran and ran not knowing where I was going, But I knew I had to leave and a start a new life, without looking back. I thought it would all be over, the risks,the fighting...but no. We were back where we started, back involving with the CIA. He knew I never wanted this and yet he accepted the offer to go back. He doesn't love me, he loves his freaking job.

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She left everything behind, all those she loved and those who had hurt her so much, sure she felt kinda like a coward who ran but she just couldn't take it anymore. . It was probably the hardest decision she had ever had to make, this time she couldn't follow her heart instead she went by what her mind thought, following your heart was suicidal, it had alway taken her in the wrong direction and she always got hurt. Walking away from his arms, his eyes, his touch was hard but her mind told her he didn't deserve anything from her.

She realised it wasn't Michael she should blame any longer ,but herself. She fell for him. An American spy. This was what could have been expected from him.

How could she have let someone play with her feelings like this. She was Fiona...Strong, Unmovable,Fiona.

She was always clear-headed on situations like this...but with Michael...She let love come first.

Love is blind she thought.

Michael's P.O.V.

She walked away well ran away, I wanted to go after but my feet wouldn't move. I had hurt her more than I had ever imagined. Her eyes, oh god her eyes, what I saw in them made me feel lower than dirt, How could I the guy who was supposed to protect and love her cause her so much pain. I'm an idiot, I let her go, I didn't even fight for what I had promised her. I was so used to her always being there and always coming back to me with me just saying there simple words that I thought it was the same in this case, but it wasn't. I was so sure of her love that I never even thought of losing her. She didn't even give me time to explain to her what had happened with the CIA. All i wanted was to protect her.I broke her heart again...like I did in Ireland. She was a huge part of my life now...living without her was un imaginable for me.

Cia or no CIA ...I will always love her. And I will not give up until she forgives me. I love you Fiona. You're the only one I have left.

With the Asscher diamond ring in my pocket...I watched her weeping...running away from where I stood.