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She had waited all week to share the news with him. The excitement had been building inside of her since early Monday morning when she herself found out and it finally reached it's boiling point a few minutes ago to the point where she could no longer contain herself. The only problem was she did not know how to tell him.
If the circumstances were different, she knew exactly what she would say and how she would say it. But then again under different circumstances, he would already know by now because they would have heard the news together.
She had come to term and accepted the circumstances they were under a long time ago. She understood that they had boundaries, certain rules they had to abide by to keep their secret - well a secret. Him not so much. But even with the boundaries and the rules, she wanted this moment to be special.
They were short on time so she had to come up with something and something quick. He would have to go very soon and while he tried his hardest to always make time to see her - even if it was only for an hour or two, they were never certain on when he would be able to come over…. Given the circumstances
"Why did I wait till now? I had all week to figure this out." She thought to herself
As she sat on the edge of her bed with her feet dangling, pondering all the different ways she could break the news to him she didn't know what she was more excited for, his reaction or finally being able to spill the beans. Not being able to tell anyone all week because she felt he should know first had practically ate a hole inside of her.
"Livvie" She heard him yell and it knocked her out of her thoughts and back into reality.
"Coming" she yelled back in response. Sliding forward on her bed so that her feet now touched the floor she paused and leaned forward looking down at her swollen feet before slipping them into her slippers. After a deep breath and a sigh she looked down, and rubbed her hands over her rapidly growing stomach.
"20 weeks down 20 more to go" she said in her head before lifting herself off her bed and pulling down the T-shirt she had on that use to have no problem covering all the right parts, but was now struggling to keep her ass from being expose.
Taking one more deep breath Olivia gathered herself together and exited her bedroom, walking down the long hallway that led to her living room. Peeking around the corner into the living room, she smiled at the image in front of her. There he sat, The President of the United States on her couch in nothing but a white T-shirt and his favorite pair of green boxers, eating cheese balls and popcorn while watching a Redskins game.
He was so into the game that he did not even notice she was standing there watching him, she did not mind though. It actually warmed her heart. She loved seeing him stress free and careless. Not a worry in the world as he stuffed his face with a hand full of cheese balls, his eyes never leaving the screen. It brought her happiness to know that her home gave him that, the ability to be free. She and the privacy of her home brought out this lighthearted Fitz and she loved every minute of it.
"Livvie" he yelled again still to into the game to notice that she was standing just a few feet away from him.
"Fitz, I'm right here." Olivia said with a chuckle as she leaned back against the wall.
"Oh. I didn't see you there." Fitz said surprised to see she had already made her way into the room. "I made you some popcorn." He lifted up the bowl of freshly popped popcorn.
"Why thank you." Olivia said smiling "How sweet of you." she walked over to the sofa and grabbed a small handful of popcorn before walking behind the couch to a small end table with a drawer. Opening the drawer Olivia took out an envelope and re-closed the drawer.
Taking a deep breath she looked down at the envelope in her hands. She still hadn't decided how she was going to tell him yet. Looking up towards the sofa her heart melted watching Fitz jumped up with excitement as the team he was rooting for had made a touch down.
Deciding that there was nothing special she could do so last minute, Olivia happily walked back to the couch to let Fitz in on her little secret. Setting both the bag of cheese balls and the bowl of popcorn on the table and out of her way Olivia sat down next to Fitz and saw that there was only a few more seconds until halftime so she would wait until then before she shared with Fitz the news.
As the seconds ticked away, Olivia went and made her self comfortable, cuddling up against Fitz's side. He immediately leaned back allowing her to lay her head in his chest.
"Hey, beautiful." Fitz smiled down at Olivia once the game went to commercial. His hands made their way down to her belly, and Fitz leaned in for a quick kiss. "What's that?" he asked noticing the envelope she was playing with in her hand.
"Oh just something I want to show you" she said still playfully turning the envelope back and forth between her fingers.
"Oh yeah- What is it?" Fitz asked with a curious grin on his face, his hands still rubbing her stomach.
"Open it and see" Olivia smiled and he took the envelope out of her hand and opened it
"It's an ultrasound picture." Fitz said stating the obvious causing Olivia to roll her eyes. "Is this one mines?" He asked hopeful
Leaning forward just enough so that she could see Fitz's face Olivia gave him one of her signature looks. "Fitz, I know it's an ultrasound picture and no I am not giving it to you. I'm telling you to look at the picture"
Fitz stared down at Olivia before turning his attention back to the ultrasound picture he held in his hand. "Okay, what am I looking at?"
"I don't know, Mr. President, tell me what do you see?" Olivia said sarcastically.
"Cute" Fitz responded before sitting up. Olivia also moved over and sat up, crossing her legs Indian style on the couch and looking directly at Fitz.
"Okay, I see your name at the top Olivia Gra- Oops I mean Pope." Fitz joked causing Olivia to smile. "I see that you had an appointment earlier this week, on Monday to be exact ,November the 15th. An appointment you didn't tell me about it."
"Fitz, for you to be such a smart educated man and the freaking leader of the free world you sure are taking forever to figure out the point to all this." Olivia complained
"Well why don't you tell me what the point to all of this is?" Fitz challenged her
"Oh my gosh, Fitzgerald Grant, what does the BIG BOLD letters right smack down in the middle of the picture say?" Olivia asked ready to snatch the picture out of his hand and show him herself.
"It says that I'm a girl." Fitz answered nonchalantly still not catching on.
At this point Olivia was ready to burst, but before she could get the words out Fitz caught on. "Wait it says that I'm a girl" Fitz repeated taking another look at the picture he held in his hand and looking at it with new eyes. He reread each word repeatedly to himself to make sure he had seen right.
"We're having a girl." Fitz said aloud after a moment or two, looking Olivia in her eyes. His voice was soft and tender. His brain could not process this information fast enough for him to form an actual sentence so he just kept repeating those four words. "We're having a girl" This time his face was full of joy as he leaned forward and pulled his Livvie towards him and into his arms. "We're having a girl."
"Yes , Fitz, we are having a girl" Olivia laughed the same joy and excitement that was on Fitz face was now reflecting on hers.
"I am going to have two Olivia's? Two Olivia Pope?" Fitz asked in amazement looking down at Olivia. "What else could a man ask for?" Fitz added happily. "Two Livvie's" his hands went back to their earlier position on her belly and an overwhelming happiness filled him.
"And you kept saying it was a boy." Olivia playfully reminded him.
"Boy, Girl. Either one, I would have been thrilled with both."
"Okay now, let's not get ahead of ourselves"
While it wasn't always easy, and even during those times when the good and the bad days seemed to be neck and neck. Given the circumstances, they made it work and this moment right here made it all worth it. "Oh, Fitz" Olivia smiled as he leaned down to place kisses on her stomach.
"May I?" He asked
"Yes go ahead" Olivia smiled as he climbed down on the floor and positioned himself in front of her. Lifting up her T-shirt his smile grew wide as he took in her bare belly. Slowly running over his hands over Olivia's growing belly to see if he could feel where his daughter was positioned.
Olivia catching on to what he was trying to do moved his hands to the right side of her abdomen. "I'm not sure what that is. I think it's her shoulder or something." Olivia said a little confused and moved his hand further up the side of her belly. "But this is her little head. I don't know if you can feel it or not." Olivia stated as she stopped moving and patiently waited to see if the baby was going to start moving. "I think she's sleeping." Olivia finally said after neither one of them felt any movements. "Can you feel her head at least?"
"No, not really." Fitz answered but still never moved his hand away from where Olivia had it positioned. "I can't feel her but just knowing she's there. Right here underneath my hand is enough." Fitz looked up at Olivia and smiled her hand on top of his and his on top of their daughter.
They stayed positioned, Fitz on the floor, Olivia on the couch with their hands connected resting over their daughter. Looking deep into each other eyes, allowing the intimate moment to have it's way with them.
They sat there letting time pass away. One minute, two minute, three minutes, four. Enjoying each other's presence. Their eyes locked together, dreaming of what their life could be. Imagining a world where they would be free to be together.
"Fitz, look at the time you have to get dress and go." Olivia said breaking the silence first. Fitz ignored her, hoping she would leave it alone and allow him to stay longer. He knew it was time for him to go. He knew it almost 10 minutes ago. But as long as she didn't say anything neither was he. The last thing he wanted to do was go back to the White house and leave Livvie and his unborn daughter.
"Fitz" Olivia repeated
"No" he replied wishing she would drop it.
"I'm serious, Fitz. Look at the time, its after five. You have been here since early this morning. And as much as I want you to stay it's time for you to get dress and go." Olivia told him breaking the contact his hand had with her belly as she got up, pulling her shirt back down.
And just like that, the moment was over.
Fitz slowly got up from the floor and sulked his way down the hall to Olivia's bedroom.
He hated this part. The part where he had to leave her and go back to his miniature hell wrapped in a white box. As much as he loved his job it was nothing compared to his love for Olivia. He would give it all up for her and this beautiful baby that they created, and she knew he would. But for some reason she wouldn't allow him to do it.
As much as he begged and pleaded, she would never budge with her decision. So they were left with this. Seeing each other once or twice every two to three weeks and it was starting to kill Fitz inside. Slowly but surely it was eating him alive.
He wanted nothing more then to be with her. To sleep with her, to wake up and eat with her. Everything was her. But until he could come up with a plan, he had to follow her rules.
Fitz walked over to the chair that sat in the corner of the bedroom. His clothes were folded neatly and sitting there waiting for him to put on. Fitz looked up to see Olivia on the other side of the room buttoning up her silk pajama top. For a pregnant woman she moved fast.
"Hurry up, Fitz." Olivia quickly made her way towards him her moves almost frantic as she checked the time. "I'm surprise Cyrus hasn't called yet." Once Fitz climbed his way into his pants Olivia moved to help him into his shirt.
Fitz stared down at her as she buttoned his shirt up. He was tempted to grab her and kiss her until he took her breath away. She was so beautiful as she concentrated on making sure his shirt was buttoned correctly. Her little hands smoothed out all the wrinkles and she finally looked up at him giving Fitz a small smile.
"Do I have to go?" Fitz asked even though he already knew the answer. The small grin he had on his face soon turned into a smile that he knew would send butterflies through her stomach as he waited for her answer
Olivia stared into his eyes. Trying to take in as much of this beautiful man that stood before her as she could, before he had to go. Finally returning a smile and giving him an answer "Yes you have to go." She said running her hands down his side and then dropping her arms.
"You're kicking me out." Fitz sighed refusing to break eye contact with Liv
Olivia chuckled a bit and looked away. She hated this part. Letting him go not knowing when he'll return. It was hard enough and every time right before he left Fitz made it no easier. But she had to play by the rules and send him home. "I am kicking you out."
"Well, Ms. Pope, until next time." Fitz followed behind Olivia as she led him to the front door. The two stopped once they reached it. Neither one of them moving to turn the knob. This time instead of looking down at her, he looked at her stomach and reached out and rubbed her belly.
"Daddy will be back soon, Princess. Don't give Mommy a hard time while I am gone." Fitz told their daughter as he knelt down in front of Olivia kissing and rubbing her belly one last time.
Closing his eyes with his hand over her belly Fitz took one more deep breath before he stood up to say good bye to Liv.
"Good bye, Livvie." he said not even trying to hold back the disappointment and sadness that came with those words.
Olivia leaned forward placing both of her hands on his chest and propped herself up on the tips of her toes. "Good bye, Fitz." she whispered before leaning in for a kiss. Fitz took a hold of the opportunity and deepened the kiss.
Kissing her profound amount of force and passion. His lips gripping hers tightly, reminding her of what she was sending away. Olivia hands traveled up and she ran her fingers through his hair as Fitz pulled her in closer.
Just as she was about to give in and forget about the task at hand her phone rang and she broke away from the kiss.
Walking over to where her phone rested on the table Liv checked the time. It was almost six O' Clock. She knew they were going to get an ear full from Cyrus about him getting back so late.
She could hear Fitz grunt out a deep breath and smack his teeth. "Tell Cy I am leaving now." Fitz said aggravated as he swung the front door open, startling his secret service agent Tom, who stood on the other side.
"Cyrus, he just left." Olivia said into the phone not even bothering to say hello.
Olivia smiled as Cyrus mumbled under his breath and hung up. "He doesn't sound happy."
"He's never happy." Fitz paused, his eyes piercing into Olivia's. He saw his whole future in her eyes. Damn it why couldn't he stay? "I should go"
"You should go" Olivia agreed.
"Good bye, my loves. I love you both."
"And we both love you too. Good bye, Fitz"
And with that, he was gone. Out of her doorway and out of her life for another week or so. Olivia looked down at her belly once she felt little kicks. "Yeah I know, baby. I'm sad Daddy left too." Olivia said rubbing her belly.
This is my very Scandal story and I really hope you all enjoyed this first chapter.
Thank for reading ;)
