Every day I look at myself and think to remember why I exist. People hate me and my so-called friends left me. What in this world continues to keep my alive and to keep on going? I repeat this every day that I wake up and look at myself inside the mirror. Still I can't find the answer that I am looking for. My existence in this world is a mystery.
They know that I am just a container that they think can destroy them if I would wish. There fear me and yet I don't know why I exist here. I try to say that it is to bring back my friend, to keep the promise that I made to Sakura to, at any costs bring back Sasuke. How would I Naruto be able to do that? I was the worst ninja in the entire village. Why do I exist? Why am I here? What is my purpose in life to accomplish? No one had the answer that I want, that I need. They can't fill the large hole in my chest.
Life has to go on and the mask that covers my feeling so put on with another day of acting like I am the idiot, that I don't know anything. In turn I know more about fighting then any of them but when people are around I can't bring myself to show the true me. Once in a while some of my power will come out and they will be amazed and think that it was a miracle that I made it out alive. They don't know that for me that was just the tip of the iceberg. That was just a little bit of the power that I possessed. Even while fighting Sasuke I couldn't show my true self and was beaten. Even that was the most I had ever showed anyone.
My life goes on though and I try to put of my mask again after it had been loosened that day. He had made me feel that I could show him the true me. He was fighting because he wanted to not because he had to. That's what I admire about him and the strength that he possesses. Maybe if he had stayed I would of helped him with his goal, but that didn't happen, he left with out any regret that I know of. Still there is one thing that might lead me to the answer of why I exist. That he had the chance to kill me but he hesitated and only knocked me out. I feel that my answer lies within him and I will find what it is.