Hey everyone!
This is my first fan-fic and it kind of just came to me! Please read&review, it would mean so much to me!
&if any of you have any fan-fics you would like me to read send me a quick message!
This entry is also kind of inspired by Pixie Lott's song 'broken arrow'. It is great and I think it is basically what Bella is going through so if you haven't heard it you must check it out!
Enjoy!
-Cassy
"You can be my hero, if only I could let go. But your love is still in me, like a broken arrow."
They say time heals everything but what if 'they' are wrong. What if time doesn't heal everything? What then? Back in the Ancient Greek and Persian times, there was a King named Darius. He was the most powerful ruler and conquered so much land, that I wouldn't even know what to do with it...let alone know how to rule it. Some of the city-states weren't to happy about this. Especially the little, tiny city-state of Athens. Athens got so mad that they attacked and burned to the ground one of Persia's cities. Darius was not happy about this. He decided he would build up an army to take down Athens. For ten years he built a strong navy force to conquer them. You would think that after ten years, he would have just forgiven the Greeks about what had happened. That his anger would have gone away.
Forgotten.
Gone.
A distant memory.
He probably would have forgiven them...moved on, got on with his life. But he didn't. The reason he didn't move on was because he had reminders. Everyday someone reminded him of what the Athens did to him how this little city-state burned one of his powerful cities to the ground. How they crushed him. How they were defeated by a group of Greeks. How they ruined one of his cities and made him look like a bad ruler.
He stayed mad.
He didn't forgive.
He didn't forget.
I can't seem to forget. To forgive. To move on. To not be mad at what he did to me. How he ripped out my heart and left me to lay here.
By myself.
To fade.
In the darkness.
Somehow I am surviving. Somehow I am living. Somehow I am continuing to breath. I don't know how but I am. Just like Darius I have reminders everywhere. I can't get on with my life. People still talk about them. I see their empty lunch table. I can remember what his lips felt like on mine. I can even hear his voice. His voice helps for a moment and then when that moment is over I feel even worse. I have a bigger whole inside of me. I have nightmares night after night after night. They never stop. Never end. He is always 'the star' of these horrible nightmares. These reminders, they keep me from forgetting. I don't have someone telling me everyday but I might as well. When I see people give me those 'looks' I don't have to be a mind reader like...him, to know what they are thinking. They think I am crazy. That there is something wrong with me. And there is something wrong with me and I am crazy. I am still trying to live in a word of mythical creatures, but the creatures are gone...it is just me. By myself. I am alone in my world of make believe. I am crazy for not just moving on...they aren't coming back, why can't I seem to move on and live my life? I can't move on. I can't forget. I wont let myself. To forget would be more painful then to remember. I am by myself...no friends, no life, no Cullen's. I am not the new girl who everyone wants, like I was on the first day of school...I am Bella. I am broken and empty and dead. I am Bella.
-Bella Swan.
So how was it? Good, bad? Let me know! Maybe i'll write more...