*Disclaimer: I own nothing. Song lyrics belong to Taylor Swift and characters belong to Cassandra Clare. (No matter how much I wish I owned Alec & Magnus...)
Haunted
You and I walk a fragile line
I have known it all this time
but I never thought I'd live to see it break
I always knew you and I had a fragile relationship. We had so many unaswered questions and doubts about one another. But I always believed that our love could overpower any obstacle in our path...
It's getting dark and it's all too quiet
And I can't trust anything now
And it's coming over you like it's all a big mistake
Without you in my life, all I see is darkness. All I feel is pain. My heart has become stone. I don't trust anyone now. How can I when the only absolute truth I held on to, our love, was a lie?
Oh, I'm holding my breath
Won't lose you again
something's made your eyes go cold
I remember the way you used to look at me, Magnus. The way you green cat eyes would glow with love and understanding. I always thought your eyes were strangly beautiful. But now...those eyes aren't filled with the compassion I came to know. They're like gemstone; still beautiful, yet hard and cold.
Come on, come on, don't leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Something's gone terribly wrong
You're all I wanted
I thought I knew you inside and out, the way you knew me. I thought we'd be until my time on this earth was over. I don't know what went wrong. Magnus...why did you just up and leave? Please, don't leave me wondering like this. The uncertianty makes the hurt even more unbearable. Didn't you realize you were my everything...?
Come on, come on, don't leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Can't breathe whenever you're gone
Can't turn back now, I'm haunted
Living without you is like living in a world where there's no oxygen. . Everytime I think of you, of your smile, of your laugh...the feel of your lips against mine...My chest constricts and I can't breathe. I see you everywhere, Magnus. Every glance, every dream, everytime I close my eyes...you're there.
Stood there and watched you walk away
From everything we had
But I still mean every word I said to you
I remember every step you took away from me, from us. I remember crying, begging you to stay. I remember realizing it was finally over. Your eyes, cold and expressionless while mine were full of tears. I remember whispering to you, telling you that I would never move on. That I will love you and only you as long as I live. I meant every word, Magnus. You broke my heart, but I still and will always love you with each little piece of it.
He will try to take away my pain
And he just might make me smile
But the whole time I'm wishing he was you instead
I keep trying to find ways to get you out of my head. I've went out with different people, seeing if I can get to the point of loving again. But it never works. No matter how woderful he is, or how much he tries to help...I keep wishing it was you. That it's you wrapped in my arms, your lips I'm kissing, your voice whispering in my ear. I always wish for you, not him.
Oh, I'm holding my breath
Won't see you again
something keeps me holding on to nothing
Why do I keep hoping? Why do I keep wishing? I know you're gone forever. I know you're never coming back...but I keep holding on, thinking, maybe one day...
I know, I know, I just know
You're not gone. You can't be gone. No.
You can't be gone...You were everything to me. My entire life. You told me I mattered, you told me I wasn't trivial, you told me you loved me. That couldn't have been nothing. Every touch, every kiss...they couldn't of been lies. You have to be out there somewhere...
Come on, come on, don't leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Something's gone terribly wrong
Won't finish what you started
You made me fall so deeply in love with you...then you left... How, Magnus? How could you just lead me on, finally make me believe, then just drop me? How could you shatter my heart when you're the one who made it whole in the first place?
Can't go back, I'm haunted
I'll never be able to escape you. I'll always see you everywhere I look. The memory of you will forever haunt me.
You and I walk a fragile line
I have known it all this time
Never ever thought I'd see it break.
I never thought I'd lose you. I never thought I'd see the day you'd leave... We were the only thing I ever really believed in. I never thought we'd fall apart
Never thought I'd see it...