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Spike pov
"Hey Luv" I said strolling into my lovers office. I bloody well hate coming to his office lately. The poor boy is all kinds of stressed out and it rolls off of him in waves. "yea" angel said distantly. "Me and the gang been thinking." I stated. "yea... what about" angel asked distracted. He isn't even paying attention...stupid work. "Luv, pay attention" I say
Angels pov.
"Luv, pay attention" spike says. "Sorry I am just really busy" Why wont these people leave me alone I just need to get this work done. He is coming over either I am gonna be punched or yelled at for not listening. Wait he is sitting on my lap ok then. "So what were you and the gang thinking about?" I ask still not really caring. I hope he doesn't sense it. "We talked about sending you on a vacation" Spike tells me. "Will, you know I can't I am way to busy here." I say with a little sigh. I would love to leave with my boy and go on a vacation. I would take him to Ireland. I don't think he has ever been there. "Angel, luv, you need it. I know the stress is causing you to get sick. I am worried if you were human you would have had a heart attack already." Spike tells me with his big blue eyes sparkling with concern. "how did you find out about me getting sick?" I ask. Damn it he wasn't suppose to know about that. "Fred told me, she is worried about you. We all are. We want our beloved Angel back." spike tells me in a sad little voice. " also I miss our mind blowing sex. I mean it has gotten to just sex and not that great." spike tells me. Well it change to crappy sex cause I am just doing it to get him off of me at night. I come home so tired and he wants some so I just give it to him.. I give a little sigh "I will think about it, but right now I am really busy." He give me a sad little smile "alright luv"
Spike pov
"alright luv." I say sadly. Damn it.. Damn it ..Damn it. I lean up and give him a soft kiss then I walk out. I see the whole gang standing there. Fred playing with her hair looking up expecting. Poor girl misses Angel almost as much as I do. "well?" Gunn asked "it's a no go" I tell them sadly. Their faces drop. Fred looks like she might cry. I hug her "I miss him" Fred whisper into my ear. " so do I" I whisper back. I missed when it happen but one day Angel and Fred became like brother and sister. Poor girl just wants the guy who seem like a brother to come back. Months passed since that conversation and we all watch our beloved angel become a shell of what he used to be. He was so white and tired looking. The sex that wasn't good became non-existent. He snapped at anyone for any old reason. I gave a little cough one night and he just lost his marbles and yelled at me for an hour. Fred has come to see me on more then one occasion bawling. The basterd scared the hell out of the chit. If I didn't know it was work making him like this and if I didn't love the basterd so damn much I would of dumped him... Damn emotions. But tonight I am gonna sit his sweet little arse down and have a little discussion with him. Ok so everything is in place. His blood is next to his chair waiting for him and I am just sittin on me bum on the couch waitin for him.
Angels pov.
I walk into my penthouse and see spike staring out to space looks like he is thinking. Which is a shocker altogether. I see the mug next to my chair. I sit down and feel him staring at me. What the hell is he looking at. "what?" I ground out. I am no mood to talk. "we need to talk." spike says calmly "cant we talk later. I am tired and have a headache." I say with a sigh. "No. We cant" he says. He sounds a little pissy. I am in no mood for his shit. I just want to crawl into bed and sleep forever. "fine what's up?" I ask harshly. "well, frankly angel, we need to get you the hell out of here." spike says "you know I cant leave. I have clients to meet and I am trying to get this million dollar account. We are in the middle of negations." I try to say calmly but I can hear my voice raising "Angel, I am worried about you. Your really stressed out. It may not kill you but it is gonna hurt you." He trying to convince me to go on vacation again damn it. "God damn it Spike, I have things to do I don't have time to take off and have a fucking vacation!" I scream. "Damn it Angel! You need to get out of here. Do you realize how your treating your friends and me?! Just today you made Fred bawl her pretty little eyes out yet again!" Spike yelled. Oh god I made little Fred cry... again? She trusted me like a big brother and I yelled and made her cry. "I made Fred cry? How?" I ask lowering my voice to barley a whisper I hear spike sigh. "today she went into your office to ask you something. You turn around in game face snarled then told her you don't fuckin care and to get the hell out of your office. I was about to go in when she ran into me crying she was shaking with fear." Spike said angrily. "Then the other day, while trying to be the good little spikey and stay out of your way, which like all my other plans didn't work, and well you snapped and...and" spike voice quiver trying to hold back tears "and told me I was a waste of space, a nobody, that I was beneath you, and couldn't ever amount to anything." Spike lost all his strength and cried. Oh god my poor boy could never deal with people telling him that stuff because he always believed it though it was never true. Before I knew what I was doing I had him in my arms holding him. "God I am so sorry Will, so so sorry. I didn't mean a word of it I swear. Your everything. Your not beneath anyone. I love you so much I am so sorry I have been an ass. You should of thrown me through a wall or something." I said softly. I hear a soft chuckle. "I know you didn't mean it but it still hurt." spike said softly
Spike Pov
"I know you didn't mean it but it still hurt." I say softly nuzzling my face into angels chest. I am such a pansy when it comes to angel. I hope he knows if it was anyone else I bloody well would of left... not crying into their chest. "I know it did Will." I hear him sigh "I can't do this anymore Will, I am hurting the ones I love. I am just so tired anymore. I want to feel like me again." Angel mumbles into my hair. I hug him tighter and nuzzle my face into his chest some more. "why don't we go on a holiday?" I mumble into his chest. I am such a pansy with this man. "When can we leave?" Angel mumbles into my hair. "Tomorrow. Where do you wanna go? luv" "Ireland?" "let me make a phone call to get everything set up." I say while pulling away. He pulls me closer and kisses me softly. "thanks will, for everything." I just smile at him and pull away. I see his mug of blood untouched. "I am going to bed" angel says
Angel pov
"I am going to bed" I say starting to head to our bedroom. "Finish your blood, pet" Spike tells me. I am not hungry and I know one in the morning I am gonna be up in the bathroom throwing it up but I take it any way and knock it down in one shot. "night" I say walking into the bed room. I take everything except my boxers off and crawl into bed. I cant believe what an ass I have been for the last few months. I really have to make it up to Fred some how. I don't think I was made to be a big brother. My real sister, Kathy, I killed when I was turned and laughed at her when she thought I was her angel when I knocked at the door. Then Fred, my surrogate sister, I make cry more then once apparently. I just suck as a vampire or man-pire or whatever. I just suck. I mean I am suppose to be all soul having and treat everyone nice but no I make them cry. I am such a basterd.
Spike pov.
Bloody hell, what a stupid git I had to deal with on the phone. She was almost has bad has Harmony. I don't know what the hell I saw in that girl. I walk into the bedroom and see angel layin there with the covers up to his waist brooding. Always the hot brooding sire. I don't think he even realizes I am here. I get undress just with my boxers on. I crawl into my side of the bed. Roll onto my side and start to fall asleep. Now me and peaches over there haven't cuddle or actually touch each other in bed for a while. I feel the bed shift signaling he is rolling over. Then I feel his arm wrapping around me and pulling me closer. Which is a big shocker since of late he doesn't want anything to do with me. Well I am not gonna complain so I get comfortable and fall asleep.
Hey guys this is my first slash fic and my first fic that I am gonna finish. I hope it all depends on you guys! So please review. If you guys hate it tell me k?