Disclaimer : I don't own Sailor Moon.
A.N. This is just going to be a short
fic that I'm writing because I'm so
depressed right now ^_^;; *sigh*
This is also half based on some of the
lyrics I like from Utada Hikaru's
"Time Will Tell" ^_^ I love that song!
This fic is in Usagi's POV.
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Things Are Never Quite As They Seem
By Artemis
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"No tests today, Odango atama?" I heard that
familiar voice tease me.
"Leave me alone!" I frowned, turning around
and seeing Mamoru.
Did he have to try so hard to appear in front
of me? Why didn't he just leave me alone!
"Why do you always take your time to make my
day unpleasant?" I scowled at him. "I never
did anything to you!"
"Well, I have nothing better to do during
my visits to the arcade," he grinned.
"Talk to Motoki san! Isn't he your friend?"
"I get bored of him every now and then."
"I wish you'd get bored of me....." I muttered.
"That's an unlikely possibility," Mamoru told
me.
"Why?" I asked curiously.
"And that's for me to know and you to find
out," he smiled.
I frowned, completely confused. He liked to play
stupid mind games on me. I turned around and
walked away from him. I glanced back to see him
walk inside the arcade and I sighed in relief.
I wondered what he meant by "an unlikely possibility".
Maybe I could ask Motoki san....
I walked home thinking, then I gave up as I got home.
It was impossible to even guess what was on that
idiot's mind. He was just being mean and teasing a
poor young girl. As soon as I walked into the house,
I heard the phone ring. I picked it up and heard
Rei chan on the other line.
"Rei chan?" I asked, puzzled.
She sounded excited about something.
"Usagi, you go to the arcade don't you?" Rei chan asked
me.
"Yeah..."
"Do you know Motoki san's absolutely gorgeous friend?"
"Not that I know of..."
"You don't know him!? You've never ever seen him!?"
"I don't think so...? Why?"
"Well I just saw him and I was just thinking maybe
you could help me get to know him. Since you go to
the arcade so much, you know," Rei chan explained.
"Sure, okay," I agreed.
No harm in that was there?
"So did you find out his name?" I asked her.
"Yeah, Motoki san said his name was ummm... Chiba
Mamoru?"
"What!?!?" I shouted.
"Ow, watch the volume," Rei chan told me. "What's
the matter?"
"Nothing... Nothing! I'll introduce you to him
tomorrow. I just ummm realised I know who he is.."
"You don't like him do you?" Rei chan asked me
cautiously.
"No, no of course not! It's quite the opposite..
He's really annoying.. So I was just surprised
that um you like him," I explained.
"Well, I think I can forgive his personality for
his looks!" Rei chan giggled. "Anyway, I have to
go now, so bye Usagi!"
"Bye.."
I heard the dial tone beeping in my ear and I
was speechless.
The next day at the arcade, Rei chan practically
dragged me over there for the introductions.
I sighed deeply before I stepped in.
"Hi Usagi chan, Rei chan," Motoki san smiled.
"Is Mamoru san here?" I asked him.
"He was here and he left to do something, but
he should be back soon," he smiled.
"Thanks," I smiled back.
Rei chan and I took a seat and waited.
"So how do you know Mamoru san?" Rei chan asked
me.
"I threw my test paper at him by accident," I told
her, embarrassed.
Rei chan burst out laughing.
"That sounds just like you Usagi!" she giggled.
"Oh it's not funny!" I frowned.
"Sorry," Rei chan giggled. "You don't find him
attractive in any way?"
"Not really," I shrugged. "I've never looked at
him in that way before."
Rei chan nodded, satsified. We waited for about
ten minutes and we both saw the door opening.
I gulped and watched the door carefully. Sure
enough, Mamoru came walking in. I sighed.
"Let's go Usagi!" Rei chan whispered.
She pulled me from our seats, over to where
Mamoru was, talking to Motoki san.
"Hello Mamoru san!" Rei chan chirped happily.
Mamoru turned, saw her and looked confused.
Then he saw me. I looked away and hid behind
Rei chan.
"Don't you remember me from yesterday?" Rei chan
asked, sitting closer to Mamoru.
I squirmed and sat on the other side of Rei chan.
"Not really..." Mamoru murmured. "What's your name
again?"
"Hino Rei!" Rei chan told him enthusiastically.
"That's a nice name," Mamoru smiled politely.
Whoa... He smiled? Even out of politeness? Why was
he smiling to Rei chan? Well it was none of my
business. I kept looking away and decided to talk
to Motoki san.
"How are you today Motoki san?" I asked him quietly.
"I'm not too bad," he smiled, seeming to understand
my uncomfortable situation. "Would you like anything
to eat or drink?"
"Could I have a grape slushie?" I asked him.
"I'll make it on the house," he smiled.
"Thanks."
Motoki san walked away and I glanced at Rei chan and
Mamoru. They seemed to be getting a bit chummy.
"Usagi, he's great! He's not annoying at all!" Rei chan
turned and whispered to me.
I just nodded. Then why was Mamoru so annoying to me?
Didn't he like me or something? Was he born just to
make my life miserable? Well, if he liked Rei chan it
was a good thing. Maybe then at least he wouldn't pick
on me all the time. Motoki san broke my chain of thoughts
when he came back with my slushie. I slurped away at it
to pass time.
After we left the arcade, Rei chan was even more happy
and giddy about Mamoru.
"He's such a great guy!" Rei chan repeated over and over.
"He's not *that* great," I mumbled.
"He's so funny and so sweet," Rei chan sighed dreamily.
"He is?"
"Of course! And on top of that, he's so mature and so good
looking!"
"Uh-huh... Mature..." I nodded.
What happened to the irritating and immature Mamoru?
Why was he being so nice to Rei chan? It was annoying.
I felt a little jealous that he was so nice to Rei chan and
not to me.
"So can you come with me to the arcade when I want to see
Mamoru san?" Rei chan asked me.
"Um..." I mumbled, not sure what to say.
"Please?" Rei chan begged.
"Okay," I agreed reluctantly.
I wanted to be happy for Rei chan, but I just couldn't.
But the least I could do was help her get together with Mamoru.
Weeks passed and I was dragged along to the arcade every time
Rei chan wanted to see Mamoru. And every time, Motoki san
gave me a slushie on the house. I watched the two talking and
they seemed so perfect for each other. He smiled, laughed
and said all the nicest things. But of course, why wouldn't he?
Rei chan was pretty, smart and a fun girl to be with. I avoided
him at all costs and never ever went to the arcade by myself.
I only went when Rei went. There was no need for me to go to
the arcade and see Mamoru. He was just going to be as annoying
as ever. And I didn't want to see Motoki san that badly and the
video games weren't appealing enough.
"You know what Usagi?" Rei chan sighed as we left the arcade.
"What?"
"I know you get really bored at the arcade... You don't have
to come any more," Rei chan smiled.
"Well, okay," I nodded, relieved.
"I think I can talk one on one with Mamoru now. I'm getting to
know him really well," she sighed dreamily.
I nodded and kept quiet as I listened to Rei chan's stories.
When would I ever stop feeling this way? This sense of jealousy
and unhappiness. I just couldn't congratulate Rei chan with all
my heart. Why?
One day after school, I was feeling so rotten I didn't want to
go home.. I didn't want to talk to anyone either, so I just
wandered around and eventually sat down at a park, just watching
all the people. Seeing Rei chan and Mamoru together made my heart
sting each time. I didn't want to feel this way. Everyone else was
happy for her, why could I be? I didn't like Mamoru that much, but
I just always thought there was some reason he was picking on me.
Motoki san had said he didn't talk to other girls that much.
I sighed.
"Odango atama!" I heard a voice shout.
I looked up and saw Mamoru standing in front of me. I felt my heart
getting squeezed tighter and tighter by this invisible hand. It had
been a long time since I had been called odango atama.
"What do you want?" I asked bitterly.
"What are you doing out here? It's getting late," he told me.
"So?" I frowned. "You should be worrying about Rei chan, not me."
I didn't want to sound so mean, but the only words that came out
were unpleasant ones.
"Why are you so angry at me?" Mamoru asked, puzzled.
"I'm not angry at you!" I shouted. "Don't talk to me if you have
Rei chan!"
I couldn't look at him any more. Why did he take the time to
suddenly be nice to me? Didn't he have Rei chan to care about?
"Fine," Mamoru replied, then turned away.
I saw him walking away from me and felt something deep inside.
"Wait!" I shouted. "Ma.. Mamoru!"
I didn't want him to leave... I didn't want him to walk away.
The only reason I was jealous was because I felt him further
and further away, each time he saw Rei chan. I actually had
fun arguing with Mamoru. The same as when I used to argue a
lot with Rei chan... Mamoru turned around and looked at me.
"What is it Usagi?" he smiled.
His smile was so sweet. And then I finally knew why I had
been so miserable for the last few months. I was falling in
love with Mamoru. I was in love with him.
"I thought my name was odango atama," I murmured, smiling a
little.
"I thought my name was baka," Mamoru grinned.
He walked closer to me and patted me on the head.
"Finally called me by my real name," he smiled warmly. "I was
waiting all this time for you to do that."
I looked at him, surprised. My mouth fell open and I stood
there speechless. Then I suddenly felt a tear fall down my
cheek. And I couldn't stop crying. I wasn't supposed to be
in love with Mamoru. I shouldn't be. I didn't want to take
away Rei chan's happiness. I didn't deserve to be treated
so nicely by Mamoru. I rubbed my eyes with my sleeve and
looked at Mamoru.
"What's wrong?" he whispered.
"Don't you like Rei chan?" I sniffed.
"She's a great girl, but nothing compared to you," he smiled.
"Me? But all you did was call me odango atama!" I told him.
"I heard all these stories from Motoki about you. A sweet,
gentle, kind and caring girl who always came to the arcade.
And you look so cute when you're angry," Mamoru laughed.
"Am I dreaming?" I asked him. "This can't really be true
can it?"
"You're not dreaming Usagi..."
Then Mamoru leaned closer to kiss me. I closed my eyes slowly
as I felt his lips touch mine. I felt his arms slip around my
waist. Then I heard Rei chan's voice inside my head.
"He's such a great guy!"
I could just see her happy face and her dreamy voice was echoing
in my mind. I opened my eyes and pushed Mamoru away from me.
"No!" I shouted, stepping back.
"Usagi?" Mamoru murmured gently.
"I'm sorry...." I cried, my tears falling uncontrollably.
All I could do was apologise. I couldn't think of anything else
to say. Mamoru was looking at me, obviously hurt and also confused.
"Just tell me if you love me Usagi," he told me.
"It's not that simple," I murmured. "I'm not supposed to be in
love with you.... It's a mistake..."
Mamoru grabbed me suddenly and kissed me again. This time, he was
more forceful and I gave in. I let him kiss me. When he let go
of me, I couldn't believe what I had done...
"Why can't you just admit it Usagi?"
"I.. I was vulnerable just then.. I don't love you..."
"Then why did you let me kiss you?" he asked.
"You're not being fair!" I shouted.
Then I turned and ran away from him. I couldn't take it any more.
I didn't want to feel this way. This guilt, this feeling of
betrayal.... What would Rei chan think? She would never forgive
me for doing this to her. I ran faster and harder, the tears
blurring my vision. I heard Mamoru catching up to me. I blindly
ran across the road to get away from him.
"Usagi!!" I heard him shout.
Suddenly I heard a loud screeching of tyres and the smell of
burning rubber made me realise what as happening. Everything
felt slow.. I felt my body feeling light, as if it was flying.
I could feel Mamoru's arms around me, but I couldn't feel
anything else.
"Usagi, don't do this to me," he whispered. "I love you.
Don't leave me...."
Maybe Rei chan would forgive me... Maybe she could forgive
this selfish girl who stole Mamoru's heart....
"I... I love you too..." I whispered.
As I closed my eyes, I heard a voice from a distant place..
"... Serenity...." the voice murmured.
And I knew that everything was going to be okay.
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THE END
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*dum dum duuuuuuuuum* Did you like it? ^_^ Make sure you read
the epilogue if you want a happy ending!
E-mail me at emichan9@yahoo.com or moon_cat_9@yahoo.com =^*^=
A.N. This is just going to be a short
fic that I'm writing because I'm so
depressed right now ^_^;; *sigh*
This is also half based on some of the
lyrics I like from Utada Hikaru's
"Time Will Tell" ^_^ I love that song!
This fic is in Usagi's POV.
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Things Are Never Quite As They Seem
By Artemis
======
"No tests today, Odango atama?" I heard that
familiar voice tease me.
"Leave me alone!" I frowned, turning around
and seeing Mamoru.
Did he have to try so hard to appear in front
of me? Why didn't he just leave me alone!
"Why do you always take your time to make my
day unpleasant?" I scowled at him. "I never
did anything to you!"
"Well, I have nothing better to do during
my visits to the arcade," he grinned.
"Talk to Motoki san! Isn't he your friend?"
"I get bored of him every now and then."
"I wish you'd get bored of me....." I muttered.
"That's an unlikely possibility," Mamoru told
me.
"Why?" I asked curiously.
"And that's for me to know and you to find
out," he smiled.
I frowned, completely confused. He liked to play
stupid mind games on me. I turned around and
walked away from him. I glanced back to see him
walk inside the arcade and I sighed in relief.
I wondered what he meant by "an unlikely possibility".
Maybe I could ask Motoki san....
I walked home thinking, then I gave up as I got home.
It was impossible to even guess what was on that
idiot's mind. He was just being mean and teasing a
poor young girl. As soon as I walked into the house,
I heard the phone ring. I picked it up and heard
Rei chan on the other line.
"Rei chan?" I asked, puzzled.
She sounded excited about something.
"Usagi, you go to the arcade don't you?" Rei chan asked
me.
"Yeah..."
"Do you know Motoki san's absolutely gorgeous friend?"
"Not that I know of..."
"You don't know him!? You've never ever seen him!?"
"I don't think so...? Why?"
"Well I just saw him and I was just thinking maybe
you could help me get to know him. Since you go to
the arcade so much, you know," Rei chan explained.
"Sure, okay," I agreed.
No harm in that was there?
"So did you find out his name?" I asked her.
"Yeah, Motoki san said his name was ummm... Chiba
Mamoru?"
"What!?!?" I shouted.
"Ow, watch the volume," Rei chan told me. "What's
the matter?"
"Nothing... Nothing! I'll introduce you to him
tomorrow. I just ummm realised I know who he is.."
"You don't like him do you?" Rei chan asked me
cautiously.
"No, no of course not! It's quite the opposite..
He's really annoying.. So I was just surprised
that um you like him," I explained.
"Well, I think I can forgive his personality for
his looks!" Rei chan giggled. "Anyway, I have to
go now, so bye Usagi!"
"Bye.."
I heard the dial tone beeping in my ear and I
was speechless.
The next day at the arcade, Rei chan practically
dragged me over there for the introductions.
I sighed deeply before I stepped in.
"Hi Usagi chan, Rei chan," Motoki san smiled.
"Is Mamoru san here?" I asked him.
"He was here and he left to do something, but
he should be back soon," he smiled.
"Thanks," I smiled back.
Rei chan and I took a seat and waited.
"So how do you know Mamoru san?" Rei chan asked
me.
"I threw my test paper at him by accident," I told
her, embarrassed.
Rei chan burst out laughing.
"That sounds just like you Usagi!" she giggled.
"Oh it's not funny!" I frowned.
"Sorry," Rei chan giggled. "You don't find him
attractive in any way?"
"Not really," I shrugged. "I've never looked at
him in that way before."
Rei chan nodded, satsified. We waited for about
ten minutes and we both saw the door opening.
I gulped and watched the door carefully. Sure
enough, Mamoru came walking in. I sighed.
"Let's go Usagi!" Rei chan whispered.
She pulled me from our seats, over to where
Mamoru was, talking to Motoki san.
"Hello Mamoru san!" Rei chan chirped happily.
Mamoru turned, saw her and looked confused.
Then he saw me. I looked away and hid behind
Rei chan.
"Don't you remember me from yesterday?" Rei chan
asked, sitting closer to Mamoru.
I squirmed and sat on the other side of Rei chan.
"Not really..." Mamoru murmured. "What's your name
again?"
"Hino Rei!" Rei chan told him enthusiastically.
"That's a nice name," Mamoru smiled politely.
Whoa... He smiled? Even out of politeness? Why was
he smiling to Rei chan? Well it was none of my
business. I kept looking away and decided to talk
to Motoki san.
"How are you today Motoki san?" I asked him quietly.
"I'm not too bad," he smiled, seeming to understand
my uncomfortable situation. "Would you like anything
to eat or drink?"
"Could I have a grape slushie?" I asked him.
"I'll make it on the house," he smiled.
"Thanks."
Motoki san walked away and I glanced at Rei chan and
Mamoru. They seemed to be getting a bit chummy.
"Usagi, he's great! He's not annoying at all!" Rei chan
turned and whispered to me.
I just nodded. Then why was Mamoru so annoying to me?
Didn't he like me or something? Was he born just to
make my life miserable? Well, if he liked Rei chan it
was a good thing. Maybe then at least he wouldn't pick
on me all the time. Motoki san broke my chain of thoughts
when he came back with my slushie. I slurped away at it
to pass time.
After we left the arcade, Rei chan was even more happy
and giddy about Mamoru.
"He's such a great guy!" Rei chan repeated over and over.
"He's not *that* great," I mumbled.
"He's so funny and so sweet," Rei chan sighed dreamily.
"He is?"
"Of course! And on top of that, he's so mature and so good
looking!"
"Uh-huh... Mature..." I nodded.
What happened to the irritating and immature Mamoru?
Why was he being so nice to Rei chan? It was annoying.
I felt a little jealous that he was so nice to Rei chan and
not to me.
"So can you come with me to the arcade when I want to see
Mamoru san?" Rei chan asked me.
"Um..." I mumbled, not sure what to say.
"Please?" Rei chan begged.
"Okay," I agreed reluctantly.
I wanted to be happy for Rei chan, but I just couldn't.
But the least I could do was help her get together with Mamoru.
Weeks passed and I was dragged along to the arcade every time
Rei chan wanted to see Mamoru. And every time, Motoki san
gave me a slushie on the house. I watched the two talking and
they seemed so perfect for each other. He smiled, laughed
and said all the nicest things. But of course, why wouldn't he?
Rei chan was pretty, smart and a fun girl to be with. I avoided
him at all costs and never ever went to the arcade by myself.
I only went when Rei went. There was no need for me to go to
the arcade and see Mamoru. He was just going to be as annoying
as ever. And I didn't want to see Motoki san that badly and the
video games weren't appealing enough.
"You know what Usagi?" Rei chan sighed as we left the arcade.
"What?"
"I know you get really bored at the arcade... You don't have
to come any more," Rei chan smiled.
"Well, okay," I nodded, relieved.
"I think I can talk one on one with Mamoru now. I'm getting to
know him really well," she sighed dreamily.
I nodded and kept quiet as I listened to Rei chan's stories.
When would I ever stop feeling this way? This sense of jealousy
and unhappiness. I just couldn't congratulate Rei chan with all
my heart. Why?
One day after school, I was feeling so rotten I didn't want to
go home.. I didn't want to talk to anyone either, so I just
wandered around and eventually sat down at a park, just watching
all the people. Seeing Rei chan and Mamoru together made my heart
sting each time. I didn't want to feel this way. Everyone else was
happy for her, why could I be? I didn't like Mamoru that much, but
I just always thought there was some reason he was picking on me.
Motoki san had said he didn't talk to other girls that much.
I sighed.
"Odango atama!" I heard a voice shout.
I looked up and saw Mamoru standing in front of me. I felt my heart
getting squeezed tighter and tighter by this invisible hand. It had
been a long time since I had been called odango atama.
"What do you want?" I asked bitterly.
"What are you doing out here? It's getting late," he told me.
"So?" I frowned. "You should be worrying about Rei chan, not me."
I didn't want to sound so mean, but the only words that came out
were unpleasant ones.
"Why are you so angry at me?" Mamoru asked, puzzled.
"I'm not angry at you!" I shouted. "Don't talk to me if you have
Rei chan!"
I couldn't look at him any more. Why did he take the time to
suddenly be nice to me? Didn't he have Rei chan to care about?
"Fine," Mamoru replied, then turned away.
I saw him walking away from me and felt something deep inside.
"Wait!" I shouted. "Ma.. Mamoru!"
I didn't want him to leave... I didn't want him to walk away.
The only reason I was jealous was because I felt him further
and further away, each time he saw Rei chan. I actually had
fun arguing with Mamoru. The same as when I used to argue a
lot with Rei chan... Mamoru turned around and looked at me.
"What is it Usagi?" he smiled.
His smile was so sweet. And then I finally knew why I had
been so miserable for the last few months. I was falling in
love with Mamoru. I was in love with him.
"I thought my name was odango atama," I murmured, smiling a
little.
"I thought my name was baka," Mamoru grinned.
He walked closer to me and patted me on the head.
"Finally called me by my real name," he smiled warmly. "I was
waiting all this time for you to do that."
I looked at him, surprised. My mouth fell open and I stood
there speechless. Then I suddenly felt a tear fall down my
cheek. And I couldn't stop crying. I wasn't supposed to be
in love with Mamoru. I shouldn't be. I didn't want to take
away Rei chan's happiness. I didn't deserve to be treated
so nicely by Mamoru. I rubbed my eyes with my sleeve and
looked at Mamoru.
"What's wrong?" he whispered.
"Don't you like Rei chan?" I sniffed.
"She's a great girl, but nothing compared to you," he smiled.
"Me? But all you did was call me odango atama!" I told him.
"I heard all these stories from Motoki about you. A sweet,
gentle, kind and caring girl who always came to the arcade.
And you look so cute when you're angry," Mamoru laughed.
"Am I dreaming?" I asked him. "This can't really be true
can it?"
"You're not dreaming Usagi..."
Then Mamoru leaned closer to kiss me. I closed my eyes slowly
as I felt his lips touch mine. I felt his arms slip around my
waist. Then I heard Rei chan's voice inside my head.
"He's such a great guy!"
I could just see her happy face and her dreamy voice was echoing
in my mind. I opened my eyes and pushed Mamoru away from me.
"No!" I shouted, stepping back.
"Usagi?" Mamoru murmured gently.
"I'm sorry...." I cried, my tears falling uncontrollably.
All I could do was apologise. I couldn't think of anything else
to say. Mamoru was looking at me, obviously hurt and also confused.
"Just tell me if you love me Usagi," he told me.
"It's not that simple," I murmured. "I'm not supposed to be in
love with you.... It's a mistake..."
Mamoru grabbed me suddenly and kissed me again. This time, he was
more forceful and I gave in. I let him kiss me. When he let go
of me, I couldn't believe what I had done...
"Why can't you just admit it Usagi?"
"I.. I was vulnerable just then.. I don't love you..."
"Then why did you let me kiss you?" he asked.
"You're not being fair!" I shouted.
Then I turned and ran away from him. I couldn't take it any more.
I didn't want to feel this way. This guilt, this feeling of
betrayal.... What would Rei chan think? She would never forgive
me for doing this to her. I ran faster and harder, the tears
blurring my vision. I heard Mamoru catching up to me. I blindly
ran across the road to get away from him.
"Usagi!!" I heard him shout.
Suddenly I heard a loud screeching of tyres and the smell of
burning rubber made me realise what as happening. Everything
felt slow.. I felt my body feeling light, as if it was flying.
I could feel Mamoru's arms around me, but I couldn't feel
anything else.
"Usagi, don't do this to me," he whispered. "I love you.
Don't leave me...."
Maybe Rei chan would forgive me... Maybe she could forgive
this selfish girl who stole Mamoru's heart....
"I... I love you too..." I whispered.
As I closed my eyes, I heard a voice from a distant place..
"... Serenity...." the voice murmured.
And I knew that everything was going to be okay.
======
THE END
======
*dum dum duuuuuuuuum* Did you like it? ^_^ Make sure you read
the epilogue if you want a happy ending!
E-mail me at emichan9@yahoo.com or moon_cat_9@yahoo.com =^*^=