Angel Tears

Hi! My first fan fic about Harvest Moon disappointed me a bit so I thought why not write another! You may start reading this and think what does this have to do with harvest moon? Don't worry just keep reading it will soon explain it all! I will work a little harder on this one and keep in mind I am working on 2 projects this time! (Timber is my other one) I will still be updating regularly though! I hope you enjoy it!

Chapter 1: Drowning the Pain

"Why did it have to end like that." I thought to myself as I sat in bed as the rain pored down on the window. Hot tears feel down my cheeks as I thought of the horrible thing that I had just saw. The moment still flew through my mind and I could still hear the screaming, the gun shots, the people, why did it have to happen when we were there? Why did he have to die? I thought as I buried my face in the cold pillow on my bed. I had bin crying for a long time now. I felt like my heart was going to break. I felt like someone had dumped me in an icy sea and left me there to die. My mother was outside my bedroom trying to get me to come out I knew she was concerned I knew she was also upset but how did she know? She wasn't there when he was shot! She wasn't there to see all those poor people suffer… but I was. Why my father? I loved him so much! He was my world and the picture in my mind that played over and over haunted me. It was him getting shot and me standing there helpless. The boys that did it were in jail but that meant nothing to me! They couldn't bring my father back… no one could. They couldn't get ride of the pictures of the people I saw hurt… It wasn't right but… I couldn't stay in my lonely room forever. I wiped the tears from my eyes I had to talk about this… I couldn't stay here… not in the apartment were it all happened.

"Mom?" I said opening the door and looking around. Mom was sitting next to the door crying a little. I knew that she was mad at herself.

"Nellie! Thank goodness you finally came out… everyone had bin so worried about you." Mom said rubbing the tears away from her face. I knew she didn't want me to see her cry.

"I'm fine don't worry about me so much I'm 25 doesn't that make me a adult?" I asked not looking at her. I shouldn't have bin so harsh but I seamed to hate the world right now! I had moved in after collage for a few moths after getting my degree and I was going to move out in a few days and dad and me were going to celebrate and enjoy the party down stairs tell the desaster happened.

"Nellie, I know your hurt… I am to but you saw it happen and… that just tares me apart! I should have made you stay home instead of going to that party down stairs. You and your father just looked so… happy I just had to let you guys have fun… I'm sorry Nellie."

"It's not your fault! Stop saying you're sorry! There was nothing you could have done! The police wouldn't let anyone in to help and I knew you rushed down stairs to see what had made that sound. I don't blame you and I don't blame dad… stop blaming yourself mom!" I knew I had hurt her feelings because she started to cry again. I had made her cry a lot today and it made me feel so awful that I was being so vicious.

What happened was dad and me had just gone down for the annually Starry Night Festival party in are apartment building even though mom was agents it at first she let us go after a little begging.

"Come on sweetie are little girl is leaving the nest in a few days can we go?" I could here dad say with his warm smile.

"Fine but be careful I have a bad feeling." Mom had said and she was right all along.

"Nothing can happen don't worry about it I'll watch her!" We then headed down stairs. The boys had started the shooting about 5 minutes after we got there. No one else died but a lot were injured.

"Mom I can't stay here anymore this place will only make me think of the shooting." I said still looking out the window at the poring rain. I felt like I was right in the middle of the storm that was going on outside. I felt cold and helpless and there was nothing I could do about it. I felt more heavy hot tears trial down my cheeks.

"Nellie don't be silly! Therese no were you can go… I know your old enough to leave but were would you go off to? At least here you have me." Mom said smiling and trying to look happy as she grabbed my hands.

"The farm." I said still looking out the window I knew mom would say no… I knew she would tell me that was just a dumb idea.

"Nellie that farm is so old now… I haven't bin there in ages… It's probably so messy… you don't want to go to Forget Me Not Valley sweetie." She said shaking her head and trying to look me in the eye still. She looked so tired… that was not the mom I knew… but the shooting had made everyone a little tense and I knew mom was on the verge of just wanting to hide away but she knew if she did that then all hope would be lost for me… I didn't deserve a mom like that.

"I don't care mom that's the only place I can go to get away form this horror… you have to understand… I need to start over… please don't make this hard for me… please I have to get out of this nightmare! That farm is the closeted thing to dad right now." I said finally looking her in the eye. My eyes were filled with more tears that just had to pore. I couldn't hold the thoughts in and I had to drown the pain.

"Ok Nellie." Mom said softly giving me a hug. "I will call and see if your fathers friend is still there tomorrow. If things work out you can maybe even leave in a few days." I didn't want to wait a few days but I knew that was the best I was going to get. I sat in my room pretending to sleep but really I was crying, the rain on the window seemed to mach my mood perfect. I felt alone and no one could change that and at this moment I had pretty much dug an imaginary ditch that I couldn't get out of no matter how hard I cried and no mater how hard I screamed. I was a lost sole and for now no one could find me…