a/n: At one of the basketball parties at Nathan's beach house, Brook has one to many drinks and she isn't the happiest person so she tries to find revenge when she finds a letter in Nathan's dresser from Haley, she reads it aloud Haley runs out in tears and Nathan is furious because its not like Haley isn't mad enough, Haley had just found out that in the beginning when Haley just started tutoring Nathan he was just using her to screw with Lucas and she was giving him a chance to explain, he also wanted everything to go perfect for what he had planned the next day.

Nathan knocks on Haley's door hoping she would understand that he had nothing to do with it.

"what do you want Nathan, haven't you done enough? Oh do you want to use me to screw with my best friend oh wait you have already done that!" Haley snickered

" Hales I thought you understood.." Nathan said before he got cut off by Haley's rage

" I understood what exactly? That you used me I mean our whole relationship was based on a lie and for you to do something like that to Lucas! I was going to give you the benefit of the doubt ya know for a few hours I was actually starting to thing you weren't a sun of a bitch and you just fooled me again!" Haley was shocked that she was actually saying this to Nathan Scott the guy she didn't even want to talk to, didn't even know a couple months ago but she didn't care her heart was aching and she was feeling deceived that he would do this again.

"Haley I didn't know Lucas then, I just wanted to be the best out there and I was threatened by him I'm sorry."

"I think I've heard you say that enough.. I keep giving you chances to make me believe you aren't such a jerk but there you go screwing it up every time!"

Tears started running down her face it was an expression he had never quite seen, like this at least face to face usually she was walking away when this expression appeared. Her red eyes were telling him how much she was hurting, the tension was so strong he had to look away and never completely connected eye contact he couldn't look at her the pain was to hard.

" I love you Nathan is that what you wanted to hear? There you go I love you but it never seems like enough, I cant tutor you anymore because its going to hurt to much. You have done this to much when you see me at school don't think about me im going to be just another girl, your old tutor and don't you once think about me your nothing to me it hurts to much if you aren't."

Nathan didn't know how to respond until the door was shutting and it finally closed in his face. Nathan knew that when she said that she loved him that it was hard and that it really meant something because she had never said that before. He didn't know what to do so he screamed at the top of his lungs.

"FINE! I MEAN YOU NEVER MEANT ANYTHING TO ME ANYWAY!" When he realized what he had done he regretted it more than anything and he wasn't sure she would forgive him this time.

Nathan was so confused that he just ran and didn't stop until he was at the river court where he saw Lucas and his other friends playing some ball. He wanted so badly to play with them and to have fun but he couldn't stop thinking of Haley and how today was supposed to be the best day of his life. He walked cautiously towards the bleachers where mouth was talking into something in his hand. When he got closer he could hear it

"and Lucas sprints to the other end of the court and is makes a lay.. when ohhh skills has just stolen the ball before he could make an awesome shot, Lucas I'm sorry but you just got owned!" mouth starts laughing

"you better shut your mouth...well..um..mouth haha! You wont be laughing after I do this!" as Lucas slurred his last word he grabs the ball from fergi and made a three pointer. "boom! Who are ya ganna make fun of now!"

"um.. hi" Nathan says uncomfortably feeling out of the group.

"Hey Nate!" Lucas comes over and leans to Nathan's ear and whispers " Haley called me and kind of told me, I was hoping you would come down, wanna talk about it?"

"Yea.. I'm just afraid she wont forgive me this, time man I'm in for it, what did she say."

"she's really hurt I wont get into details till you talk to me to get your side of the story." Lucas said not wanting to take sides

FLASHBACK

"Nathan are you even listening to me?" Haley said with a giggle

"huh what oh sorry I was to busy staring at your beauty. Have I ever told you how beautiful you are? I love who you are…I love you Haley." Nathan said hoping so badly that she would say the same thing but she never did never every time he said those words she never said them back he was just hoping soon she would open up and say something then just dodging it .Was just an uneasy couple of seconds until Haley tried to break the ice.

"Well umm.. thank you do you um.. know the answer to number two..?" even though deep inside she felt the same its just she didn't find the courage to say it. All she wanted to do is kiss him and tell him how she felt. Little did she know all he wanted was the same and that was what he was planning to do tomorrow, he was going to buy a dozen roses make a great dinner for them to enjoy and he would hopefully get to tell her how he felt and get the kiss he was craving so badly the one that would change his life.

END OF FLASH BACK

Now that he thought about it, it was all a blur only would that happen in his imagination after what had happened. He knew he loved her but he didn't know how to really let her know. He was dying inside to know that she loved him but he couldn't do anything like he was looking inside a glass container at himself drowning and he couldn't do a thing.

A/n: hope you liked the first chapter I will update soon! Please tell me how it was!