Ana's P.O.V

I've had no sleep in the past few weeks and its killing me. Teddy is so fussy at bedtime. I can't believe that Nick did this to me... to us. I'm 17 years old and have a 1-month-old baby. I'm still in school and struggling with who looks after Teddy while I'm at school, daddy has been a big help but he still has to work. I go to as many classes as I can. My teachers and my principal are very understanding about my situation.

Ever since I got pregnant my life has been a mess, I am basically alone in this. My dad was so disappointed in me, I knew I had made a mistake but I couldn't change it. Nick promised he would be there, when I told him he seemed excited for a child but by the time I was 5 months pregnant things changed. He would not call to check in, he missed 3 ultrasounds and I had had enough of it and made him choose. He didn't choose me.

Flashback

"You promised me you were going to be there!" I screamed at Nick as soon as he walked through the door.

"I had somewhere else to be," Nick calmly said as I paced up and down the hallway.

"What is more important than your child's ultrasound!?" I scream with such furiousness. "I found out what he was today and you don't care… You need to leave and don't come back until you want to be there for this baby or me, I don't need the stress or the disappointment." I say with sincerity.

"You found out what it is?" Nick asks with a hint of sadness in his voice.

"Yes, I do know but until you are ready to be a dad for our blip, you don't deserve to know. You used to be there for me, but in the last few weeks… If you decided now that you don't want to be a part of his life than you won't get that privilege." I say as calmly as possible.

"I haven't been here? I am trying to get my life together. I am 17 nearly 18 and have a baby on the way. I didn't ask for this. I don't get a choice in this. I'm doing the best I can." Nick angrily says to me.

"You get a choice now. Be a part of blips life or not. It's your choice but once you make that choice there is no going back." I bit out angrily.

As I watched the wheels turn in Nick's head I saw his decision.

"Have fun with the baby."

End flashback

I have had my dads' help throughout all of it, he is my saviour.

When I first had Teddy I was confined to my house because he needed me, my time was spent feeding him and changing him, only sleeping when he was. About 2 weeks after I had him dad went to my school to get the course work I had missed. I spent every minute when I wasn't taking care of Teddy doing it so I didn't fall too far behind. Now 1 month after his birth I go to at least 4 classes a week.

My dad takes care of Teddy on Tuesday morning and Friday afternoon. I work with that to go to school and get work for my other classes that I can't attend. Nick has called once since Teddy was born.

Flashback

*Bring* *Bring**Bring* *Bring*

I answer the phone without looking at who it is, then I hear.

"Hey Ana,"

"What do you want, Nick?" I say in an aggravated tone.

"I wanted to see how you're doing." Nick calmly replies.

"I have a 5-day old baby how do you think I'm doing." I spit.

"I don't know… I went to the hospital but you weren't there." He claims.

"Really… I don't care. You left, now you have to live with your choice." I spit at him.

"You can't keep me from my child." He replies.

"I'm not, that was your choice. You have to live with it." I reply.

"I'm sorry. I wish I could take it back, but I'm trying now." He pleads.

"Too little, too late. You missed out." I grumble at him.

"Can I know its name?" He questions.

"My child is not an 'it', his name is Theodore," I say with venom.

"Will I ever meet him?" Nick asks.

"No… Never… Do you understand me, this is my child and he will have nothing to do with you." I say like a mamma bear protecting her cubs.

"I have rights." He says with confidence.

"You signed them over when my dad gave you that document," I say with honesty.

"I want to meet him!" He replies angrily.

"No. Don't try to contact me again or I will sue for harassment." I spit, before I hear a reply, I end the call and try to calm down.

10 minutes later I receive a text from Nick that says 'U won't win I will meet him.'

I turn my phone off and feed Teddy.

End Flashback

My life is so hard but I would never change it. I have my Theodore and Ray my step-dad. My mum hasn't talked to me since I was 14, so she doesn't know I have Teddy. I'm glad I don't have to deal with her judgment. My mum has always believed in romance and cared more about her boyfriend more than me. I'm pretty sure she is on husband number 6, but I really don't care.

She calls Ray once a year to get an update on me, and to brag about her new husband. They never last. The call date is coming up and I'm hoping dad won't tell her I have Teddy, or she will give him a lecture to tell me. She parents through Ray even though he technically is only my step dad. My birth dad died on his way to meet my mum at the hospital just after I was born so I never met him. Mum found Ray when I was 2, I liked him more than her so she divorced him when I was 5. I moved around a lot because she wanted to find love. By the time I was 13 she had found husband number 3. I left to live with Ray after that. My life has never been easy but I make the most of it with what I've got.

Authors Note

Hi if there is any spelling or grammar mistakes, go easy on me.

I am open to ideas from you guys, I would love your input.

Go easy on me, this is my first ever FanFiction and I'm really nervous.

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