I don't know what I was doing. I just laid in the darkness, letting it consume me. I didn't say nothing, I didn't feel nothing. And for the first time ever, I didn't care. I let the world pass me by as I floated in the darkness. I didn't see anything but the dark. I was lost. But it didn't feel that way. I t felt so comforting and welcoming. Finally I was where I belonged. Then I saw you. I say every thing. I felt lost. I felt the warmth go away as I realized I was loosing you. You were the first true thing I had to believe in, and the first thing I wanted, and I suppose the first thing I ….love. I try to get away. I had to get away, but in where I was it was impossible. The darkness was everywhere! Eating away at my flesh, my mind, my memories, and even my feelings. Trying to dispose of me, to consume me.
"Paine! Paine, over here!" you say flailing your arms wildly, waving me towards him. I get up out of the water from my haziness of Blitzball. "Riku!" I scream as I run twords you. "I cant believe its you! I haven't seen you in forever I miss-" a dark cloud falls over you as you stop smiling and puzzle my puzzlement. Its not you. Where's your light gone? Your warmth and comfort you at once gave me? Gone, all gone.
I snap out of the illusion, the instant I realize it's not you. The darkness, back to this dull dark world. I cant move, only fall, and fall some more. where are you?!? the question repeats over and over again. I cant find you! Riku, where are you?
"Don't forget me, o.k.?" you say as you hug me. "Ok, but why would I?" I questioned you so dully. I can see the fear in your eyes "Just don't." I give you a puzzled lookas you play with the locket you gave me. "Don't ever, ever let this go. Promise me ok?" before I can protest you place your hand over my lips, "ok?" I nod my head yes at you, not speaking.
The locket. The locket? Wait? What, where is it? What is the locket for? So many questions left unanswered. Riku, please come and save me. Where are you? I thought it would never end this way, never happen this way, never play out this way. I thougt- oh god. I thought it would be so different. So happier. This isn't right, your not right. But where? Where did you go?
"Riku! Riku where are you?" I scream running to find you, the night was growing darker and danger near. "Over here! Paine, over here!" you say as I race to you. I quickly leap into your open welcoming arms. Oh, so calming arms. "its ok. Its ok. I am here. don't worry. " you say quickly stopping the tears. "The heartless they-" I start but quickly get cut off "They can't get you now. I am here. I will always be here."
"I will always be here?" well where are you? Not here. So many questions left unanswered.