Summary: It's like your screaming… and no one can hear. You all most feel ashamed… that someone could be that important to you, that without them you feel like nothing. No one will ever understand how much it hurts… you feel hopeless… like nothing can save you. But when it's over, and it's gone… you almost wish that you could have all that bad stuff back… so that you could have the good.

Anyway so apparently the description or summary thingy is actually the narration to Rihanna's song we found love? No clue how something that depressing could be related to such a happy song…oh well it seemed dark but still 'K' rated. You can watch a vid here if you want the narration (plus some amazing animation!): that isn't a frowny face watch?v=m5Cb5r66w6I

So…Hello! This is going to be a sad story (if you couldn't already tell from the description or summary…whatever). This is mainly going to be a NaLu story but there might [more like will] contain hints of RoWen, GrUvia, JeRza and GaLe, that's about all I think I'm going to include in this story but if you all want me to do more just tell me who you ship and I will see what I can do… enjoy the first chapter of the story! Hopefully ;)

But anyway FIRST CHAPTER MOTHERFUCKERS!LOVE IT OR DIE! (On a side note please don't actually die because I don't want to go to jail at such a young age…) :p

Italics = flash back (because we need to read this scaring material)

Bold= me or well…me

Normal= talking

Line Break of EPIC PROPORIONS! (I don't know how to line beak *teary face*)

CHAPTER 1: A New Day In Hell… Fuck

Lucy P.O.V. (flashback/dream thing…) {on a side not turn on the sad music}

A little girl around the age of seven dashes around in a pale orange sun dress decorated with a pattern of yellow flowers. Her short blonde hair flutters in the light breeze her large, bright brown doe eyes sparkle with joy. She lets out a shout of joy as she tumbles down into the meadow of flowers of nearly every color, all most like a pale rainbow. She turns over on to her back and looks up at the sun held high in a sky nearly clear of clouds. She feels the soft grass underneath her and lets out a sigh of content.

She sits up and sees a figure she instantly recognizes as her mother. She lets out a joyful shout and stands up and begins to run over to her mother. She suddenly feels herself falling forward, she crashes directly into her mother, which send them both tumbling onto the ground. She shakes her head to clear the dizziness and looks up into her mother's face expecting her to be angry. Her mother was laughing as if she had heard the funniest joke known to man. Lucy started giggling at her mother's reaction. Soon they were both lying out on the grass laughing so hard it hurt.

That was the last she saw her mother so alive….

The same little girl looks into the face of the woman she knows only as a mother. But that image that she holds as her mother has slowly began to wither away. Her mother had suddenly fallen ill with a serious illness that had no cure and the chance of survival was slim. Surprisingly Lucy had accepted what was happening and what was going to happen. She just didn't want to believe any of it.

She stayed in her room most of the time. She only really came out for the occasional meal and to see her dying mother. She would stay, heck even sleep in her mother's room but her father had been against it. Her father tried constantly to keep her as far away from her mother as he could, however, she was a clever girl for her age and the servants were against the idea of her being separated from her mother in her mother's final days. So they would help her sneak into her mother's room when her father wasn't looking.

…But when she had woken up that morning she felt that something was wrong…very wrong. She instantly ran to her mother's room, in her hurry she failed to notice that the halls were empty. Normally the halls were filled with servants going about their morning chores. She ran into the hallway that contained her mother's sick room and saw most of the servants crying or trying to hold back tears. She stood instantly knowing what was going on yet her seven year old mind refused to proses what was happening.

"Lucy…." Her father said slowly, coldly.

She walked past him into her mother's room. She looked at her mother, she seemed so…lifeless. She had shadows under her eyes her already pale skin had grown even lighter. The only thing that hadn't changed was her eyes. Her eyes still held their warmth, their love…her eyes still held their liveliness to them, as if they still refused to accept the fact that the rest of her was dying… right now.

She felt the tears surfacing, the tears she had been forcing back every time she had seen her mother. She ran to mother side tears in the corners of her eyes were now threating to spill over.

"Lucy… honey don't cry." Her mom said softly.

Lucy held her mother's hand and shook her head side to side, her eyes closed tightly as if in an effort to convince herself that this wasn't happening.

"No… mom… y-you can't… please…." Lucy sobbed into her mother's bed. This can't be happening. It can't be happening. She watched her mother's eyes slowly lose the light that she had seen only moments earlier.

"Lucy… always remember that…I-I love you s-so much." As her mother let out her dyeing breath. She felt her heart shatter into a million pieces.

"Lucy come on, you are going back to your room now." Her father stated coldly.

"No…" she replied her voice cracking. She wasn't about to leave her mother's side. E-even if she was dead.

"Lucy now." her father said harshly pulling her hair and dragging her away from her dead mother. Lucy felt the tears run down her face weather from her mother death that had occurred only moments earlier, or the fact that her own father had pulled her hair so hard that she wondered if her scalp was bleeding. But she didn't break down until she was shoved into her room roughly by her father. She heard the door lock behind her as she felt herself fall into an unpleasant sleep.

Still Lucy P.O.V.

I woke up to the beeping of my alarm clock and found myself falling and the floor seemed to be my destination. I put my hands up to protect my face as I hit the floor at full force. I laid there gathering what was going on and why my wretched alarm clock had woken me up at 5:10 A. MOTHERFUCKIN' M.

I heard a door open to see my little brother Romeo standing there rubbing the sleep from his eyes. I saw as he took one look at the scene in front of him and let out a laugh.

"Lucy did you forget that today is the first day of school?" he asked after he had stopped laughing. Oh…right, today was my first day of 10th grade and Romeo's first day of 8th. I let out a loud groan and buried my face in the pillow that had tumbled with me.

"I'll take that as a yes." Romeo stated, "I'm going to go get ready." He said walking out of the room. "Oh and don't forget that you have a morning baby-sitting job that starts at 5:30!" he called behind him to his still half asleep sister.

I let out an even louder groan into my pillow as my bother walked into his room chuckling. I sighed as I thought about the painful dream-like memory. I felt tears welling up but I quickly rubbed them away. My mother dead… and she wasn't ever coming back.

I got up and began to get ready I winced as I looked down at my left arm. A long painful looking gash stretched from my elbow nearly all the way to my shoulder. I sighed, I had nearly forgotten the fight that I had the previous night, now that they had become so common. But my father had been extra drunk and he had been armed with an empty beer bottle. I sighed again as I walked into the bathroom to get ready for school and dress her wound.

Later at the house that Lucy has her Baby-sitting job… STILL LUCY P.O.V.

I let out a yawn and rubbed my eyes. Romeo stood next me looking just as tired as I felt.

"Why did I have to come with you?!" Romeo wined clearly not enjoying being woken up before the sun had even risen.

"Because I would rather die than leave you alone with that man." I stated angrily clenching my fists. Romeo looked up at me, worry clearly showing on his face. I realized that he had seen my bandaged arm. I quickly murmured "Its nothing." forcing a smile on to her face. Now was not the time to talk about this. "Let's go in." I said dragging Romeo up to the door step and rang the doorbell.

Suddenly there was a loud crash and the sound of muffled voices. Then there was a click and the door opened. Standing there was a man with red hair and he was wearing a police uniform, he looked to be in his late forties.

"You're here for the baby-siting job right?" He asked. I gave a nod. "Great! Come on in!" he said with a large toothy grin as he ushered them both inside. "My name is Igneel, if the father of the two that you agreed to look after." He said as he offered for me and my brother to sit down on the sofa.

Suddenly a women barged in followed by a girl who looked to be around Romeo's age. The women looked at me and Romeo and gave a warm smile. "Hello! My name is Grandine, I can't thank you enough for taking this job at the last second!" she said merrily. "Oh! This is Wendy." She said gesturing to the little girl that had followed her in.

"Nice to meet you Wendy!" I said with a smile. She seemed like a nice girl.

"H-hi! N-nice to meet you to!" she said shyly. She was just too darn cute! I squealed in my head.

"Alright that's one kid down, one to go!" Igneel stated. "NATSU! GET YOUR ASS DOWN HERE NOW MISTER!" Igneel shouted at the top of his lungs. I think that I could speak for everyone when I say that, that man has one of the loudest voices I have ever heard. I mean God that voice was loud!

"I'M COMING DAD JESUS!" an equally loud voice responded. Like Father like son I though sweat dropping. There was the sound of foot-steps and I saw a boy around my age standing there in his PJ's (it didn't fail to reach my attention that his pants were covered in fire-breathing dragons), and he had obvious bed head. And did I mention that his hair was pink. He stood there rubbing the sleep from his eyes he then looked up and made direct eye contact with me… I lasted for about a few seconds before Igneel started to scold this kid for not getting up on time or something like that. I think that his name was Natsu.

As they yelled back and forth I began to wonder why I would need to look after a kid like Wendy if she had an older brother that was probably older than I was. Then it dawned on me… this job would probably involve me looking after Natsu more than Wendy. I sighed, of course.

"So let me get this straight." I interrupted the arguing father and son. "This job is most likely going to be me looking after this kid," I stated pointing at Natsu. "Considering the fact that his is most likely older than me. His sister also seems like she could probably handle herself fairly well without the help of her brother, but considering the display I just saw Natsu seems like he gets into trouble and needs someone to look after him." I finished with a slight gasp for air. That had taken longer than I thought it would.

All of the people in the room (except Romeo) stared at me like I had two heads or something.

Grandine let out a sigh. "Normally we have to explain that to the sitters but you seem to have figured it out rather quickly." She gave a small smile. "You'll still take the job right?"

"Of course!" I exclaimed with a smile. "I love a good challenge!" What had I gotten myself in to…

Natsu P.O.V. (Finally!)

I suddenly felt relieved. She took the job! YES! You have no idea how much trouble I have gotten in because a sitter quit because of my 'problems'. I'm just being me! I don't see what's so bad about it!

Mom and Dad made quick work of getting out the door and getting to work. Weird. I looked at the girl that had agreed to this job. She had blonde hair that went down and stopped a little way above her shoulders. She was wearing her hair up in pig tails (you know the hair style that she has in the series… I can describe sh*t, sorry) and I realized that she was wearing the Fairy Tail High uniform.

She goes to my school? I thought, after all I don't recall ever seeing her. Then again I was always goofing off with my friends and was known for not paying attention in class, so I suppose that it was possible I had seen her before and hadn't remembered.

"Natsu-nee!" Wendy said next to me, "Shouldn't you go and get dressed?" I groaned and made my way up stairs to get ready for school.

10 magically boring minutes later….

I walked down stairs to smell one of the most amazing smellsI could ever wish to smell on any occasion… BACON! I dashed into the kitchen to see that girl (he still doesn't know her name) cooking breakfast, but most importantly, BACON! I walked up to the counter on the other side of the stove and watched her cook the food. I have to admit she was doing this like a pro, I mean I had seen my mom make this meal countless times over. And I had been her son for 16 years.

But she was doing it so effortlessly that it was actually rather remarkable that she was able to out due a mother who had been doing things like this for about twice as long as she had. I was getting bored rather quickly so I asked the first thing that came to my head.

"How did you get so good at cooking?" I asked looking and feeling a little tired.

She looked up from what she was doing as if to clarify that I had even asked a question and then looked back down at the food she was cooking with a sad smile. "My mother taught me a little, mainly just the basics. The rest I just picked up on over time." She answered with a small smile. I nodded, that made sense… wait I still don't know this girl's name!

"What's your name anyway?!" I asked/shouted… maybe I was being a little too loud.

She giggled at my question and then gave an actual smile and replied with "Lucy."

Lucy… the name suited her well. I could tell already she had a bright personality but something in the back of my mind was telling me that there was going to be a little more than that. (In more ways than one Natsu… just you wait and see *evil smirk* NOW BACK TO THE STORY!)

As she started to bring the plates of food onto the table. I noticed her bandaged left arm. It concerned me, now I now that I had only known her for about 10 minutes but I'm known to be very protective when I comes to someone legitimately hurting someone I know. But this looked like a wound that would need to be looked at in a hospital.

She had set the plates on the table I acted on instinct and grabbed her and looked at the bandaged armed. She didn't say anything or even move get away from me. If I hadn't been concerned about her health I would have dubbed her just about as out of order as I was. I practically growled out the sentence "Just what the hell is this."

She looked up and made direct eye contact. I saw determination and that look that said 'I'm fine' but I could see that there was a trace of fear. Fear of what? She didn't break eye contact with me as she replied weakly "It's nothing, just me being clumsy." She replied with a painfully obviously forced smile.

She was lying. That wound was bandaged as if someone had to have stitched it closed. I sighed and just was about to let go of her arm when I heard a voice coming from the door way. "I'm sorry, are we interrupting something important?" the voice asked, his voice sounding sly and cocky. He turned to see the boy that had been with Lucy earlier.

"Shut up Romeo." Lucy said monotonously as she pulled her arm from my grasp. I was surprised to see a small smile come across her lips. I looked back at Romeo and noticed who he was with.

"Hey brat! What do you think you're doing with my sister!?" I shouted angrily as I lunged at him. Romeo let out a yelp and dogged me and ran as fast as he could to the other side of the room. I, of course, wasn't far behind. I barely heard Lucy laughing in the background now standing beside Wendy doing their best to not get in the way of me chasing, no more like me hunting, and Romeo running for his life.

"Natsu, Romeo enough!" Lucy shouted as she finally stopped laughing. I reluctantly stopped trying to hunt down this kid and looked up at Lucy clearly annoyed. She giggled and walked into the room with Wendy following close behind her. "I asked Wendy to show Romeo around the house. You don't have to kill him, well… not just yet anyway."

I sighed turned to Romeo and grabbed his shoulders and looked him dead in the eye. "You touch my sister, I will personally hunt you down and kill you." I said menacingly. He gulped and responded with a faint "y-yes s-sir." I heard Lucy giggle behind me and ushered both of us to the table where our food stat untouched. "Come on, let's eat before your food gets cold!"

And that was the start of a new, and most defiantly the most interesting chapter of my life… I just didn't know it yet.

Lucy P.O.V. At Fairy Tail High School (well more like in front of it…)

I sighed, that had been one of the most eventful mornings that I have had in a long time. I had tried to tell Natsu that he needed to fix his uniform. He had replaced the tie that boys were supposed to where with a white scarf. In the end I had given up on trying to get him to change it but I warned him about getting in trouble at school.

And then Natsu had eaten so much food (about twice as much as the rest of us) and the asked for seconds like he hadn't eaten anything. At that point in time Wendy had giggled, I had gawked at him and Romeo called him a beast, which resulted with Natsu chasing him around the house until I had finished cooking Natsu seconds.

After we had made sure that Romeo and Wendy had gotten to school we had made our way to the high school. Normally it would have been awkward to be walking alone with a boy to school but no one seemed to notice us and Natsu just had a way of making things less awkward between us. We just talked about random subjects and I'll admit Natsu could be really funny when he puts his mind to it. He also made no mention of the fact that I was working for his parents, no more like being his own personal nanny or the whole thing about my arm. I had made a promise only to tell people if it was necessary. I mean I like it would life threatening for them not to know.

I hate to admit that I don't even tell the whole truth to Romeo. I mean he is my little brother, but there are some things that people are better off not knowing. I don't want him to get hurt and I don't want to worry him. After all that would be a horrible weight to put on a 14 year old shoulder's. And telling Natsu was a whole other issue, I mean it would be kind of over whelming to tell someone you just met, that their father uses you as a human punching bag. Hell has used you as one for the past 7 years of your life!

So here I am standing in front of the gates of the school. Well in my mind it might as well be the gates of Hell. I DO NOT FUCKING LIKE SCHOOL! I only go for the literature class, and to set a good example for Romeo. And if someone found out that a 15 year old girl wasn't going to school it would start some suspicion. Of course that would end up ruining everything I had worked for in the last 7 years.

So here I am standing next to Natsu ready to start a new day in Hell. The world seems to be in balance… fuck. Natsu seems to notice my attitude and, of course, he thoughtlessly sates, "I never took you as the type of person to hate school with a fiery passion." Now most girls that I have met would probably blush and tell him other-wise. I was not one of those girls.

So I responded with "Just you wait and see Dragoneel, you haven't even scratched the surface." And proceed to walk off to get my class sheet. I managed to get through the crowd and got my sheet. Class 2-A homeroom, I thought as I walked down an unfamiliar hall. Seeing my class I made my way into the room. On the chalk board the teacher had written that you were free to pick what-ever seat we wanted. That was fine with me.

I sat down and pulled out a novel I had borrowed from the library and began to read. Until I was interrupted by a girl with short blue hair, a few shades lighter than Wendy's, asking me if the seat next to me was taken. Normally I would have snapped at the person something along the lines of 'How should I know?!' but this girl seemed to be so timid that I couldn't help but melt a little.

"No, I don't think so. Would you like to sit down?" I asked, I figured that if I wanted anyone to sit next to me this year I would rather it be her than some snob. She instantly perked up and gave a nod before sitting down. "W-what's your name?" the new girl (new to me anyway) asked.

"Lucy. What's your's?" I asked her with a smile on my face. This girl seemed shy but looked to be very nice. "Levy." She said seeming to lose her shyness bit by bit. "Oh my god! You're reading the Percy Jackson series!" she chirped. And that started the whole conversation about books, our favorite authors, and exedra. Until the bell rang and it was time to start what apparently was my math class.

Well that's just fucking great. My first class of the day is going to math for the rest of the year. I REALLY fucking hate my life.

So there I was, sitting ready to start math class. The best way of course to kick off my new day in Hell. Until the class room door was pushed open with a bang. And in entered a boy with raven hair, his shirt slightly unbuttoned and his tie lose. The second was also a male, with pink hair. I sighed, of course Natsu was late to the first day of class.

The teacher looked up at the two boys that had barged into the class room and let out an annoyed sigh. "Dragoneel, Fullbuster find a seat." He said absentmindedly. Well great my math teacher had already given up on this class. I REALLY hate my life right now.

The raven haired kid walked over and sat in an empty seat in the third row on the other side of Levy, and Natsu walked over and sat in the empty behind me. This was bound to be interesting. I thought with a slight smirk. This was going to be interesting….

Continued in Chapter 2

So how was it? I thought that it was Ok. After all this is only the chapter that is supposed to give you an idea on what the story will be about. AND SO FAR IT HAS BEEN A SNOR FEST! FUCKING AMAZING JOB SO FAR ME! So….yeah… I'm really hopeless. Forgive me. I will try to update chapter 2 soon, your support would be welcome and I would be REALLY MOTHERFUCKIN' GREAT-FULL FOR ALL OF IT. Flip yes! Fare-well people!