Note: Alright, this is my first "My So-Called Life" fic so be nice! Um, I don't own any of the characters, blah blah blah, you know the drill... Um, I guess they're a bit AU so don't go mad on me... and that's it pretty much... questions, comments and critiques are appreciated (just don't be too harsh :) )!

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Okay, so this is it… I'm finally in senior year. It's kind of funny actually – how two years have passed by without even thinking about them… Everyone's changed completely…

Brian finally cut that awful bush of hair and he actually looks half decent… now if he could only stop being so nerdy he'd get the girls. But, I've forgotten again. He's dating Sharon now... They got together last year – weirdest thing I've seen. I still catch him watching me sometimes but I don't think it's a big deal. Not something I should worry about, really.

Ricky's grown so much it's crazy! He doesn't even look the same anymore… but he's still dependable and fun and fantastic and I still love him to pieces.

Rayanne and I finally made up and she's gotten help with her problems and she's almost a normal person. Who am I kidding though? She'll never be normal… she's still crazy when she wants to be but mostly tones it down… she says it's too exhausting to be the crazy one all the time…

Jordan graduated with the help of both me and Brian and he's now playing with his band out in California – they got signed and I hear his songs on the radio. I love them and pretend that they're about me sometimes, like, when I'm feeling nostalgic about him and me… which is pretty much every time I hear one of their songs…We left on friendly terms but I still dream about him sometimes. They're nicer dreams than that one I kept having about him with the yelling and the screaming…

Prom's in a week and a half and I have no idea what I'm going to do…

Rayanne's already got a date – well, she has to choose between two guys who are fighting over her. They're decent guys, at least different from the ones that she used to go for…

I, on the other hand, don't have a date and I don't think I want one. I don't want to have to deal with the whole awkward asking phase and then end up with someone I don't even like or is boring or something equally as horrible…

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"Angela, you coming?"

I look up at Ricky and Rayanne. They're wearing identical patient looks on their faces. They're really good with the whole daydreaming thing, unlike Mom. She says that if I don't get my head out of the clouds and into my books, I'll never make it into college. I want to yell back at her when she blows up like that but she's had a rough year. Dad was seeing Hallie for a year before he decided that he wanted a divorce and it hit Mom hard because, like, she knew all along but didn't want to admit it to herself… Sometimes I just go hug her for no reason because I feel so bad. It makes me not want to get into relationships…

"Angela?"

They're getting the exasperated look so I nod and jump up after them. "Yeah, I'm coming, let's go…"

"So, get any prospects for Prom yet?" Rayanne asks, grinning at me.

I shake my head. "I don't really want to go with anyone. I think it's too much pressure and I don't really like anyone at school and I don't want to get stuck with someone that I don't even like and turns out to be a bore and I can't get away…" I take a breath. "And besides, it's overrated anyway. I'm thinking of not even going…"

She laughs. "Leave it to you to overanalyze even Prom. So what, you could go stag or something."

I shrug. "Ricky, do you have a date?"

He shakes his head. "You think there are any guys here worth dating? Guys that like guys on top of that? No. So, no, I'm stag as well. Or maybe I won't go either…"

Rayanne tugs his sleeve. "No way you two are ditching me. Just go together or something…"

He looks at me. I nod. "Sure, I'd love to." And I would. It would be so much easier…

"Great. It's settled them. See you two in Bio." And she skips off down the hall towards the bathrooms. Smoking was one habit Rayanne was unable to shake. But that's okay. Everyone has their flaws.

"See you in class, Angela. Katimski asked me to help with something." Ricky pecks me on the cheek and takes off. Mr. Katimski has been good to Ricky in the past two years. After my dad moved out, Ricky moved in. He was really good with my mom but he didn't forget Mr. Katimski. It's like they have shared custody of Ricky – he's back and forth a lot.

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"Hey Angela…"

I turn and jump. Brian's standing right behind me. "Oh, hi, hello. What do you want?" I didn't mean for it to sound so harsh but he scared me.

"Find a date for Prom yet?" he asks. I don't know why he does this. Like, before, when I was with Jordan, he'd ask all sorts of questions as if living vicariously through Jordan would make life easier, or maybe he could hurt his love for me out of his heart by the use of jealousy and anger.

"No, I don't want one. Ricky and I are going together… it's too much to deal with the whole asking bit… but you're going with Sharon, right?"

He nods. "Yeah, we're back together for the time being…" I could tell that he wasn't too sure about the whole being with Sharon thing.

I don't think he'll ever be sure of it. I mean, it is kinda weird… but I think they're good for each other though, really… "I'm glad… I mean, you guys are awesome for each other. I just wish that I had someone that I could connect with like you guys do." Which totally is and isn't true but I have to say something to him…

He nods. "Yeah, I guess." But he wasn't convinced, I could tell.

"Well, see you." I get out of there before I have to come up with something else to say to him. He's not a bad guy, really, it's just hard because he still sort of likes me and I'm friends with Sharon. I don't want to get between them. And, well, I don't like him like that anyway…

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To Be Continued...

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