"I'm still drawn to you like nicotine."
- Picture Me Broken, "Nerds and Cigarettes"
You can't control who you fall in love with.
If you could, Sirius Black would not be pinning after the one girl he couldn't have.
Lily Evans was claimed by his best friend, James, and Sirius would in no way get in the way of his friend's relationship with the beautiful redhead. James had made it very clear that Lily was his, the possessive bastard, and even if James hadn't stated that, the Black former heir knew that he would never go after his mate's love interest, that was against the Man Code.
Mates before dates.
Yet Sirius found himself lusting after the forbidden fruit, the one taboo object he could never have in his possession. He was still drawn to her, despite the world telling him he could not have her.
And to be frank, it hurt.
Even if he tried to convince himself that he did not like Lily Evans, he quickly figured out that he loved Lily Evans.
And he was not happy with that revelation.
However, he wasn't the only one struggling.
When Lily agreed to go on a date with James, her stomach was fluttering in the most delicate and bubbly way, her heart was warm and she couldn't help but burst into a large smile when she saw James standing nervously by the Common Room door, fiddling with his shirt's collar. She felt undeniable happiness, and Lily knew she had fallen in love with the messy haired Gryffindor.
But now, while she was sitting in her wedding dress, her best friend Alice curling her hair and Marlene fixing the bow around her waist, Lily began to question if she fell out of love.
James no longer made her heart beat fast, her palms sweaty. She no longer smiled brightly just at the thought of him, and although she cared deeply for him and loved him dearly, it felt more like a sibling's love. He was a little brother she had to protect.
But when she thought of black hair, she thought of straight black hair with shaggy ends, bright grey eyes with crinkles around the edges- laughter lines. She thought of pale skin and white teeth, and of a shining black dot in a blinding sea of white.
She fell out of love with James and in love with his best man.
And oh how it hurt.
For the Valentine's day drabble competition by Cheeky Slytherin Lass using the prompt: "I'm still drawn to you like nicotine."- Picture Me Broken, "Nerds and Cigarettes", and LilySirius.
I don't own Harry Potter.