Bellas thoughts on Jacobs letter in eclipse
Bella POV
I read Jacob's letter over and over being engraved in my mind. I wished we could go back to where we were younger and when everything made sense. Life had become become very complicated since Edward came into my life. But I loved him and I want to spend eternity with him. Although Edward has other things to do first i.e getting married. I wasn't to keen on this whole marriage thing. It is off the subject for now, but im sure it will come up again. Sometimes I wondered if Edward could read my mind. I would absolutely do any thing for him, but I was still skeptical. I would marry him if that's what it took to become a vampire. But what if I was a vampire, I would never be able to see Jacob again. My best friend, he helped me through my depression……. when …….. Edward left. I hate thinking about it. But since Edward is back, my life is really complete. I still could be able to see Jacob again, about after a year or so, after my newborn phase. I doubt he would want to see me again. He'd be disgusted with me that I was "one of them" Jacob didn't get the fact that I would still be me when I was changed, I hope. I didn't want to think about the fact that I will be a blood crazed vampire craving human blood. I hope Edward, and everybody else would control me. My best friend would become my mortal enemy in just a matter of months. I signed, he wants cut me deep, I chocked back a set of tears. Edward will be here soon and he shouldn't see me like this. I placed the letter away in my pocket. My first and only love. The thought of Edward arriving soon made me feel warm inside and I was happy. I shoved all the thoughts about Jacob to the back of my mind, he was not important right now.
A/n: Hey guys, sorry about the end Jacob lovers, but I am team Edward alllllllllllllllllllllllll the way. I absolutely love him. I also love Jacob without his shirt