Hey guys, so I'm back with another songfic. My friend and I just sang this song at a karaoke night and I got to thinking that it sounds kind of like the perfect song for the Finn/Rachel story right now. Hope you enjoy and please read and review.

Disclaimer: Sadly nothing to do with Glee is mine, it all belongs to FOX and the genius that is Ryan Murphy. The song is Christmas When You Were Mine by Taylor Swift.

Author's Note: This is going off my wish that Finn and Rachel were together last Christmas. Who knows if they were or not...

Christmas When You Were Mine

Please take down the mistletoe
Cause I don't wanna think about that right now
Cause everything I want is miles away
In a snow covered little town

This was no way to spend a Christmas. Rachel thought to herself glumly as she stared out the window of the two bedroom hotel room she and her father's were staying in in New York City. Not that her family really celebrated Christmas anyway, being Jewish and all. This was the closest to celebrating Christmas they had ever come.

Her Dads knew she was going through a hard time so on the last night of Hannukah, instead of opening another present like the jewelry she usually received, she pulled out a plane ticket and a ticket to see Promises, Promises on Broadway over her Christmas holidays. So here she was spending 2 weeks in NYC with her Dads, and while she was excited to be in the city she cherished, she was as miserable as ever.

She looked down into the window of a small coffee shop on the corner across the street from her hotel and noticed that someone looked to be putting up mistletoe in the door. Tears sprung to her eyes as she willed herself to look away. That lone piece of mistletoe brought back too many memories, things she couldn't and wouldn't think about right now. She wouldn't let herself think about the only thing she wanted for Christmas. The thing she had asked Santa for time and time again. Her love, her Finn, who was thousands of miles away, probably sitting down around the fire with his family, not even thinking about her.

My momma's in the kitchen, worrying about me
Season's greetings, hope you're well
Well I'm doing alright
If you were wondering
Lately I can never tell

"You ok, Pumpkin?" She heard her Daddy, Leroy's, worried voice say as he stood in the doorway to her bedroom.

She nodded. "Yeah, don't worry, I'll be fine." She assured him yet again.

"Ok, your Dad and I are running across the street to the coffeeshop for some hot chocolate, do you want to come with us?" He asked.

"No thanks Daddy, I think I'm just going to stay here. It's A Wonderful Life is coming on." She explained, knowing he'd believe that was her reason to stay. She did watch the movie every year around this time.

"Ok sounds good." Leroy said as he kissed her forehead and walked out with a sigh.

Rachel went back to staring out her window, watching the people on the crowded street outside. She saw a tall man with dark hair that reminded her of Finn. Lately everything reminded her of him.

"Merry Christmas, Finn. I hope your doing well. I'm ok if your wondering, though I don't even know if you care." She said to herself, imagining that Finn could hear her.

I know this shouldn't be a lonely time
But there were Christmases when you were mine

I've been doing fine without you, really
Up until the nights got cold
And everybody's here, except you, baby
Seems like everyone's got someone to hold

Two days later it was Christmas Day. Rachel had been feeling a little better over the last few days. Her Dads had kept her distracted enough so that her mind wasn't completely occupied with thoughts about Finn. She had been to see Promises, Promises, Hair and her Dads had even surprised her with tickets to Wicked. She had been shopping, skating in Rockefeller Centre, she saw Times Square and even took a tour of Julliard where she imagined herself going in a few short years. Now that she was back to the hotel and sitting in the restaurant, her thoughts returned to her boyfriend..well ex-boyfriend.

She was surrounded by hundred of other people, happy couples like her fathers. She wiped a tear from her eye as she realized nearly everyone else in the restaurant was there with their significant other. Everyone had someone to hold, except her.

But for me it's just a lonely time
Cause there were Christmases when you were mine

Rachel remembered back to last year when her and Finn had gotten together for the first time as a real couple, after his break-up with Quinn and the whole Babygate scandal. Sure there first go at a relationship had been all to brief, ending after just over a month, but they had still managed to share a nice Christmas together where Finn had showed her how to celebrate the holiday, and where she realized that she did, indeed, love the holiday.

Merry Christmas everybody
That'll have to be something I just say this year

She hated knowing that a big part of the loneliness she was feeling was her fault. She hated that she had been so insecure about her relationship with Finn towards the end, that she had ended up making what could have been the biggest mistake of her life, by kissing Noah. Her and Finn had almost worked things out, until he reminded her that they needed to be honest with eachother from now on. Then she had opened her big mouth, and hurt Finn in one of the worst possible ways. She knew she was right in telling him, keeping it to herself would have eaten her alive eventually, but she still wished, with everything that she was, that she could go back in time and not kiss Noah. Yeah Finn's actions the week before their break-up had been a big part of the reason that she ended up in Puck's arms, but she still shouldn't have done it. They were both at fault for the terrible end to their relationship.

I'll bet you got your mom another sweater
And were your cousins late again
When you were putting up the lights this year
Did you notice one less pair of hands

Rachel had to smile and suppress a laugh as she thought about last Christmas when she had spent the day at Finn's house celebrating Christmas with him and his Mom. Carole had tried to act surprised when opening her present, but it was pretty obvious that she wasn't surprised in the slightest that she had gotten a sweater. Finn later explained to Rachel that he had gotten his Mom a sweater every year since he was 5. It was like a tradition, and his Mom would always act surprised.

She remembered when Finn had called her over one night and asked for her help. It turned out that his Mom had left him in charge of putting up the outside lights, because she had been working late shifts, and he had no idea what to do. They had spent hours untangling the hundreds of multi-colored lights and then proceeded to hang them up around the tree in Finn's front yard, as well as on the porch railing. With her help, Finn's clumsy hands had only managed to break 4 light bulbs, which he considered a record.

She wondered if he had any help this year? She figured that Burt and Kurt would probably be helping out this time and that with Kurt's help, the yard would look like a winter wonderland.

I know this shouldn't be a lonely time
But there were Christmases when I didn't wonder how you are tonight
Cause there were Christmases when you were mine

She rubbed her sore eyes that night before she went to sleep, wondering how Finn was doing. Was he hurting like she was? Did he regret his decision to break up with her? Was he happier without her? She hoped not, she hoped he missed her at least a little. She sure missed him. The way he smelled, the way his dark brown eyes lit up when he saw her in the halls at school, the way he held her when she was sad like she was right now. "You were mine." She sang softly into her pillow as she drifted off into a restless sleep.

Well there you guys go. I hope you enjoyed it, as sad as it was. :D I've got a multi-chapter Glee fic coming your way shortly, so stay tuned.