Kay Bennet sighed as she looked over just in time to see Miguel make another googily face at Charity

Kay Bennet sighed as she looked over just in time to see Miguel make another googily face at Charity. It wasn't fair she was here first. It had always been Kay and Miguel, Miguel and Kay. Now Miguel rarely said more that two words to her and one of those words was usually Charity.   "Why do I put myself through this?" Kay mumbled

"Because you are the most stubborn girl I know." Kay jumped at the voice and turned around.

"Simone you scared me!"

"Well if you weren't so busy stalking Miguel you would have noticed me."

"I wasn't stalking him. He's in my backyard!"

"Yes with Charity!"

"Well can I help it that she is his only reason for being. I mean it is so not fair not only are they together but they are always here together. Can't they go to his house just once?"

"I'm sorry Kay hey you want to get out of here?"

"With pleasure." Simone and Kay turned and walked out of the Bennet house.

"Let's go to the book café there is a new boy there and he is so cute."

"Sure Simone" The two traveled to the book café ordered a couple of lattes and sat down.

"Kay I've been meaning to ask you. The school is running a trip to New York in two weeks. You have time for shopping in the afternoon and at 8 we see a Broadway play."

"Sounds like fun what are we going to see?"

"Les Miserable"

"That's depressing."

"Oh come on Kay it's New York, Broadway and for one whole day you won't have to stare at Miguel and Charity."     

"All right count me in. I would go to Mexico to get a Charity free day."

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Two weeks later as Kay was sitting on the bus two seats behind Charity she was ready to kill Simone.

"I'm sorry!  How was I to know that they would sign up too?"   Kay turned to stare out of the window. "Come on Kay you can't not talk to me the whole night. Kay?"

"I can try. If you had not convinced me to come on this stupid trip I could be having a Charity-free night at home!" At the mention of her name Charity turned around.

"Did you call me Kay?"

"No." Simone said "We were talking about Celebrity Who wants to be a millionaire. They are playing for their favorite charities."

"Oh okay" Charity said as she went back to holding hands with Miguel.

"Be careful Kay don't talk so loud."

"Well I wouldn't have to worry if I wasn't here!"

"Kay I'm sorry." Simone said with a pleading look on her face. Kay sighed.

"I know it's not really your fault. This was a good idea. A nice outing and I'd get some time away from Harmony and all my problems. You couldn't have known she was going to come but this is just another thing in the line of millions that I should get to myself and I have to share with Charity. Just promise we one thing. That we ditch them when we get to New York. If I have to spend the whole day with them I will scream."

"Okay don't worry." The bus arrived at New York and Mr. Johnson, the  teacher in charge stood up.

"Okay get your tickets on the way out. The show starts at 8 but you should really be at the theater by 7:30. Okay have fun and stay in at least groups of two."

All the students filed out of the bus.

"Oh Charity I can't wait to show you central park." Miguel said

"oh gag me." Kay mumbled "Come on Simone."

Kay and Simone started to walk past Charity and Miguel when Charity started to speak.

"Hey where are you guys going? Do you want to walk around with us."

That was more than Kay could stand.  Grabbing Simone by the hand and pulling her faster, she said.  "We would love to but we can't go to Central Park. Simones allergic we'll see you guys at the theater."

"Kay that was kind of rude."

"Sorry but I told you there was no way that I was going to hang out with them."

"And what am I allergic to?"

"I don't know. It doesn't matter. The point is we're free of blondie. Come on let's go to Rockefeller center and then there are a couple stores that I want to go to." Kay and Simone spent the afternoon walking around laughing talking and shopping. Kay had almost forgotten her troubles till she got to the theater and realized that their seats were next to Charity and Miguel.

"Great 40 people on this trip and we get stuck sitting next to them!"

"We could trade seats."

"Yeah but Miguel and Charity would want to know why. Let's just deal but you sit closest to them."

"Alright."

The four of them sat in a row Kay, Simone, Miguel and Charity as the curtain went up.

Kay had never seen Les Miz before but as she watched she felt it had been a copy of her life. She was Eponine. When Eponine was young she was happy loved by her parents. But when she got older she was poor. Her room had been taken from her, But still she kept her spirit. Eponine was in love with a wonderful man named Marius. But in one chance meeting Marius saw and fell in love with Cosette and from that moment on poor Eponine did not stand a chance.  Kay felt  a tugging on her soul as she had never felt before as she heard Eponine sing "On my Own"

On my own

Pretending he's beside me

All alone

I walk with him 'til morning

Without him

I feel his arms around me

And when I lose my way I close my eyes

And he has found me

In the rain

The pavement shines like silver

All the lights

Are misty in the river

In the darkness

The trees are full of starlight

And all I see is him and me

Forever and forever

And I know

It's only in my mind

That I'm talking to myself and not to him

And although

I know that he is blind

Still I say, there's a way for us

I love him

But when the night is over

He is gone

The river's just a river

Without him

The world around me changes

The trees are bare

And everywhere the streets are full of strangers

I love him

But everyday I'm learning

All my life

I've only been pretending

Without me

His world would go on turning

A world that's full of happiness that I have never known

I love him

I love him

I love him

But only on my own

Kay did not even notice the tears that were falling down her face. That was her life she loved Miguel on her own. And he didn't know wouldn't know. His world would go on turning as long as he had Charity. Watching the rest of the play was pure torture. Even in her pain Eponine was willing to help Cosset because by helping her she helped her true love Marius. And what did she get in return? She lost Marius and her life. Kay was oblivious to her surroundings and did not even realize the lights had gone on until she heard Miguel's voice.

"Kay why are you crying what's wrong?" Simone had stood up to clap and Miguel had noticed the tears on Kay's face. It worried him because for as long as he had known Kay he rarely saw her cry.

"What?" Kay asked uncertainly, reaching up to touch her face to see if the tears where there. Charity looked over.

"Oh Miguel Kay is just crying over the play." Simone stopped clapping and noticed what was going on behind. She knew exactly why Kay was crying she sympathized with Eponine.

"Yeah Miguel Charity is right she crying cause the play was so sad."

Miguel smiled "Well it is called Les Miserable. Besides it wasn't all sad Marius and Cosset got together in the end." At those words a fresh set of tears  began to fall from her eyes. Oh course he would feel that way. Miguel felt a tremor run through him. Kay was looking at him with a torrid of emotions in her eyes. He could not read them all but he saw pain and pleading. More tears spilled from her eyes and Miguel became worried.

"Kay what's wrong?" Simone knew that it was time for her to intervene.

"She's fine Miguel. We're just going to go the bathroom and then we will see you on the bus." Simone took Kay's hand and pulled her away. Simone was worried. Kay almost never cried and to cry in front of both Miguel and Charity. They got in the bathroom and Simone handed Kay a tissue. "Are you okay?" Kay looked at herself in the mirror and nodded. "Yeah I'm fine."

"Okay well we have to get on the bus are you sure?"

"Yeah I just don't feel like talking about it right now."

"Okay."   Kay and Simone returned to the bus and Kay took the window seat. As they returned to Harmony Kay stared out the widow and thought about her life.

"What have I become? Day in and day out I eat, sleep, and drink Miguel. I would die for him! But he doesn't care. He is not even my friend anymore! He never calls or asks me to hang out. I used to be fun loving now I am bitter I spend most of my time hating Charity, hating myself for not being Charity, even hating Miguel for loving Charity. But no more tonight is the last night that I shed tears for Miguel Lopez-Fitzgerald. I love him. I know I do and I know I always will love him, but I have to let him go. Not just for his sake but for my own. I need to be proud of the person I see when I look in the mirror and I am so sick of seeing a lovesick schemer." Kay sighed and gave one last look at the couple in front of her. It was so hard to say goodbye, but she didn't want to be like Eponine, following her love around no matter how little he cared for her.  The Bus returned to Harmony. Simone went home leaving Kay to walk back with Charity and Miguel.

Miguel looked over at Kay. Something was wrong she wasn't usually this quite.

"Did you have a good time Kay?" Kay looked up in surprise Miguel had actually spoken to her a week ago she would have taken this as a sign that he was about to admit his undying love for her, but now she knew better.

"Yeah it was fun sorry if I am quite. I'm just tired."

Miguel nodded taking her answer at face value. They got to the Bennet house and Kay said goodnight. She walked up the stairs not staying to see their goodnight kiss, as was her usual habit.

Kay went upstairs she washed the makeup off her face, thinking "I don't even like wearing makeup. I won't any more. I just did it for Miguel starting tomorrow I am going to start living for me."  Kay lay down in her bed and the last thing she thought was "Goodbye Miguel"