Disclaimer: I do not own Supernatural

Authors Note: Alright, so I know there was a bit of a break between this part and the previous one, and I'm sorry… but I figure I needed to at least work on some of my WIPs, hopefully by the end of spring I hope to have them all complete. Lets start off with some angst, shall we?

Warnings: Anal sex, anal fingering, rimming, please note there will be BDSM in this story.

Special Notice PLEASE READ: Please pay attention to the warnings at the beginning of each chapter. I will be mentioning anything that happens in the chapter to avoid triggers. If there is something in the warning for that chapter which throws you off, but you still want to read the other chapters, please leave me a message in a comment, or email me: crownoyami and I will tell you a summary, so you can avoid it. NO trigger/limit is silly/stupid/childish, I have ones that other people have considered 'stupid' I get it. Also, this is a work of fiction and not realistic.

Please kink responsibly.

Chapter 1

It had been over two months since the last time anyone had spoken to John Winchester. While both Sam and Dean kept in contact with Bobby, neither had heard from their father since his cryptic message. While he could understand the boys were worried, Gabriel couldn't help but be thankful at the space. If there was one hunter he didn't want to hang around, it was the stab-happy one who had influence over his lover. It had taken a couple weeks of Gabriel popping up whenever they were in a bind, or when the two were relaxing at the motel after a hunt before Sam felt comfortable with Gabriel again.

Thankfully, the two had decided to continue to use his credit card, it both kept them in nice rooms, and made certain they were fully stocked on whatever was needed. They no longer had to try and explain away pesky bloodstains which wouldn't go away on their clothing, or substitute cheap take-out instead of the more expensive diner food. While it wasn't much, Gabriel felt he was taking care of Sam as much as possible, giving Sam a safe place to sleep, and food in his stomach. While it wasn't all Gabriel wanted, it was enough.

For now.

While he didn't outright say anything with Dean around, and even remained silent the few times Dean left them alone for a few minutes, Gabriel was hopeful for more. Sam had been hesitant at first to ask anything of Gabriel, not wanting to push Gabriel away with his questions, but slowly the hunter was coming around. When they did manage to get a few hours to themselves they would lay down and talk, just lightly touching each other, nothing sexual in their movements while they tried to gather what the other wanted. It was a game that Gabriel typically didn't mind playing, waiting and trying to slowly win someone over. Sadly, Gabriel was getting impatient at having to wait for Sam to spell out what he wanted.

Gabriel was starting to wonder if they would ever get to where they once were. It wasn't that he needed sex, although he wouldn't say no to the idea, but it was the lack of assurance they were even together which made him nervous. While Sam was working; from time to time Sam had to flirt with a whiteness or officer to get what he wanted, and while Sam didn't know Gabriel was watching him, it caused Gabriel to be nervous. What if one of those times Sam decided to take it farther? What if Sam didn't consider them together any longer… what if he left? It wasn't like Gabriel had anything to assure himself that Sam was going to remain with him, they had been doing an excellent job of not talking about it. Watching as yet another girl didn't get a clue and started to hang herself over Sam at a bar the two hunters were relaxing in, Gabriel couldn't do this much longer.

Snapping his fingers, Gabriel flew himself to the hotel room the brothers were sharing and flopped onto Sam's bed. Burring his face into Sam's scent on his pillow, Gabriel wondered if maybe he was reading the signals wrong. When they were together it seemed like Sam wanted him, had even told Gabriel they would be able to work on them. What if it was too broken, what if Sam felt Gabriel's secret was just too much? What if Sam was just playing along until this all blew over, if he was using Gabriel's feelings until he wasn't needed anymore.

His last thought made Gabriel growl into the pillow he was currently holding. He would be damned if someone was going to use him like that. While he had promised to watch over Sam, to protect him, Gabriel wouldn't play along in some kind of sick game. He could watch Sam just as well from the shadows as anywhere else, but he would be damned if some human tried to string him along. Gabriel was so caught up in his thoughts he didn't hear the door open, though he did hear the unmistakable sound of someone calling his name. Lifting up on one arm, Gabriel turned his body so he was facing the intruder.

Looking at Sam now, standing there with a soft confused look on his face, Gabriel felt his anger disappear. It didn't matter, if Sam was just stringing him along he would take what he could from the hunter before he was alone. It would hurt, Father it would hurt, but he would manage.

He always did.

"Gabe? Why are you sitting out here?"

Opening his mouth to answer, Gabriel couldn't help the bitter question from leaving his lips. "What get tired of the bar? Thought you were having a good time."

Gabriel watched as the confusion seemed to morph into an expression he couldn't quite name. "What are you going on about Gabe? Yeah Dean and I had a couple drinks to celebrate finishing the case. Dean wanted to stay behind to find someone to celebrate with, why didn't you join us if you knew we were out? I know you can't get drunk, but you could have relaxed for a bit."

Shaking his head, Gabriel tried to hold onto the anger, to let it flow through him, but with the genuine curiosity being thrown at him he couldn't. "I didn't want to interrupt, looked like you had your own company, wouldn't want to cockblock you."

Gabriel had been expecting a wide range of things from Sam; from him feeling guilty at being caught, to outright denial. What Gabriel hadn't been expecting was for the hurt look Sam threw him. Not certain he knew what was going through Sam's head, Gabriel was startled when the taller man sat down on the edge of the bed, placing a hand on Gabriel's arm in a gesture that was both comforting and confusing.

"Gabe," started Sam, his eyes locked onto Gabriel's own. "I wasn't going to go home with anyone. I thought… I mean, we're still together aren't we? We haven't really labeled anything, but I thought that we were just easing our way back into things. Is that not… isn't that what you want?"

"I want…" Gabriel hesitated slightly, moving his hand to gently take Sam's in his own. "I want you to be honest with me. If you're just trying to keep me happy for protection, for the benefits, just tell me. Doesn't matter if we're together or not, Sam… I'm still going to look after you as much as I can, but I want you to be honest with me. Because this in-between isn't working."

Even though he was watching Sam, Gabriel was a bit surprised when a large hand cupped his cheek and pulled him into a soft kiss. Without hesitation, Gabriel pressed his own lips back against Sam's, letting go of Sam's hand to play with his hair. When Sam went to pull away, Gabriel tugged on his head again, this time putting a bit of heat into the kiss while pulling until Sam was laying on top of him. As he felt Sam's need to breathe, Gabriel let go of the taller man, licking his lips and the taste of Sam which lingered.

"Gabe… I'm not stringing you along… I thought maybe you needed a bit of time before… I mean you told me that you had no idea I was a hunter. I want… no I need you to be with me, Gabriel. I don't want anyone else, haven't since our first night together. Do you think we can go back? I trust you Gabriel… do you think you could trust me again?"

Smiling brightly, Gabriel spread his legs and moaned as Sam slipped between them. While he had taken Sam before it wasn't often the taller man was in control of their bedroom activities, that was something Gabriel had always wanted to control. Now however, now he needed to feel Sam prove he wasn't going anywhere. It seemed Sam felt the same as his next words were muffled against Gabriel's neck where he had started to kiss, a hand running along Gabriel's chest over his shirt.

"Will you… will you let me show you how much I need you Gabriel? We can do whatever you want… but I would really like to take you tonight if you'll let me…"

Adding a thrust down onto Gabriel so there was no confusion on what he was asking for, Sam bit his bottom lip for a moment before Gabriel surged forward and pulled him down for another kiss. Wrapping his arms around Sam's neck, Gabriel moaned as Sam sucked his tongue into the others mouth. While he wanted to savour what they had, Gabriel couldn't hold back any longer now that he didn't have to. Without so much as a snap the clothes separating them vanished, leaving both in nothing but their skin.

The feeling of his skin against Gabriel's was enough for Sam to jerk back slightly, leaning over Gabriel who was looking up at him with lust-filled golden eyes. "Gabe?" While he wanted to take their clothes vanishing as a green light, Sam knew how hesitant Gabriel had been previously at giving Sam this. Bracing himself on top of Gabriel with an arm on either side of his lover, Sam ground their cocks together, his own hardening from half-mast at the sensation.

"Please Sam… I need you to claim me tonight. We can switch it around later… but I need you in me, please."

Watching as Sam hesitated slightly, keeping his slow grinding, Gabriel shifted on the bed. It took a bit of maneuvering for Gabriel to position himself the way he wanted, but eventually he was holding both of his legs up and apart, exposing himself to Sam. For his part, Sam leaned back only slightly so he could take in the sight of Gabriel revealing his puckered entrance. Trailing a hand down Gabriel's thigh before gripping his cheeks, Sam spread Gabriel wide, watching as the ferrelled hole clenched for a moment. The second he saw Gabriel clench, Sam couldn't help himself any longer and shimmied down the bed so that his face was level with Gabriel's entrance.

"Just… stay like that?" at his last word, Sam darted forward, both hands gripping Gabriel's cheeks to hold him open as he speared his tongue inside his lover. Gabriel couldn't help the shout which tore through his throat at having Sam licking him, the human didn't pause for even a beat and began to lick and fuck Gabriel on his tongue, moaning while doing so to cause vibrations to go through the god. When Sam began to suck and nip along his rim, Gabriel threw his head back before he spoke, almost regretting as he did.

"Sam… baby… I need you to stop…. Wanna feel you in me… please Sam… need you to take me…"

Instead of stopping, Sam brought a finger into their play, lathering it with his saliva before slowly pushing it inside. Gabriel shook his head, unseen by Sam while the finger worked its way in. His passage was tight and too dry for it to be comfortable, but Sam didn't stop. Licking along where his finger was inside Gabriel, Sam tried to slick the digit to ease the way before he felt something off. In one moment he was trying to gather enough spit to help stretch Gabriel open, the next Sam found his finger sliding in with ease. There was a cool gel surrounding Gabriel's rim and with a twitch of his finger, Sam found the same substance inside his lover.

Repositioning himself so that he was on his knees, looking at Gabriel's flushed face, Sam quirked an eyebrow in question. Gabriel rocked his hips back against Sam's hand which was now thrusting his finger inside the god, the slick easing the way. Sam waited while Gabriel breathed for a moment before adding another finger into the mix. This time Sam didn't have to wait, Gabriel having created enough lubricant that he pushed took the finger inside.

"Gabe?"

Opening his eyes, Gabriel looked at Sam who was still working his fingers inside him, scissoring and stretching so he could take the others cock. With his arms holding his legs open, Gabriel couldn't reach forward to bring Sam into a kiss like he wanted, so instead he lifted his hips as much as possible, taking Sam's fingers even harder inside him.

"Can't… can't wait Sammy… please take me… I need to feel you in me…"

Without waiting to work a third finger, Sam leaned forward, removing his fingers from inside Gabriel and spreading lubricant over his erection. Leaning over Gabriel, Sam braced himself with both arms on either side his lover, waiting while Gabriel let go of his legs and reached forward to guide Sam to his entrance. Slowly Sam pushed inside the tight heat of Gabriel. Keeping close watch of Gabriel's facial expressions of pleasure, Sam moved in one long motion until he was pressed as deeply as he could inside his god.

Bending slightly with his high difference, Sam brought his mouth to Gabriel's swallowing a loud moan from the smaller man when Sam began to move. While he wanted nothing more than to let loose on his lover, Sam also wanted to prove how he felt for the other. It was a constant struggle, Sam placed kisses along Gabriel's lips and neck, alternating his thrusts from slow and loving to hard and almost aggressive, only to slow back down when he felt himself grow close to the edge. Sam kept the rhythm going for close to an hour before Gabriel couldn't handle it any longer. Having long ago hooked his legs around Sam's waist, Gabriel whimpered as Sam once again started to slow down from his rough treatment.

"No… want to come… want to feel you come inside me… we can go again later Sammy… but I need to feel you now."

It was the last word that did it. While he had taken the lead on their activities, Sam had been waiting for the command from Gabriel, the reminder of what they had. Leaning back slightly, Sam grabbed at Gabriel's ass and braced him while fucking into the willing body below him animalistically. His harsh thrusts caused Gabriel to cry out, his eyes shut tightly. Sam watched Gabriel lose control, could pinpoint the exact moment Gabriel let go, right before his release was coating his stomach. Having Gabriel clench down on his cock was enough to push Sam over the edge, his hips still frantically pumping as he milked his orgasm, not stopping his movements until his cock became over sensitive and he was forced to pull out.

Panting, Sam looked down at Gabriel who was staring at him, his golden eyes tender while he tried to catch his own breath. Leaning forward again, Sam brought their mouths together, needing to kiss his lover while their bodies started to cool. Ignoring the sticky semen starting to glue their stomachs together, Sam held Gabriel close before the sound of a snap rang through the air and the cum was no longer against their stomachs. Once the thought passed his mind, Sam pulled back and shifted Gabriel who went willingly as he lifted Gabriel's legs again to look at his hole.

Surprisingly Sam could see the trail of his semen still inside the god. Laying down beside Gabriel, Sam tried to think of how to voice his question when Gabriel bet him to it. "Tonight is about you claiming me right? Reassuring me that you still want me… wouldn't be much of a point if I cleaned this all up, would there? Besides, I kind of like knowing that your cum is still inside me… at least for now."

Laughing, Sam nodded his head, nuzzling the side of Gabriel's neck while the god snapped again, and they were under the sheets, curled together. Keeping Gabriel tightly pressed against him, Sam smiled as Gabriel spoke again, his voice tender in a way that Sam knew was just for him.

"Sleep Sammy… I'm not done with you yet … sleep while you still can, baby."

Closing his eyes, Sam decided to take Gabriel's advise, he had no doubt that the god was going to follow through with his promise. He couldn't wait.

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