Sorry i've not put anything up for aaages. i've had coursework, exams etc. now i know im just making excuses but i'm kinda hectic at the minute. So this is gonna be like a sequel story thing. and i was just thinking, well Jamie's kinda completely out of it. Who knows how he feels? So here's chapter one in a part of his life after Wanda wakes up. Enjoy x

My heart was beating way too fast. Not normal. I dunno what I'd do if she didn't wake up. She was an angel, she had to wake up, she was the only one who I could now officially talk to without any sibling awkwardness. She was the only one that really understood me.

I saw her eyes flicker.

"She's waking up!!" I yelled happily. Then my world came crashing round as reality entered my brain. Ian's hand touched her face. I wanted to punch him. Shove him away from her and protect her. He had no righ….wait! What was I saying?! I didn't feel that way for WANDA. She was like my sister but not. She was like my best friend. Who I could share everything with. What was this? How could I feel this?

She looked round to him, love in her eyes. My heart was being crushed.

"Ian? Ian where am I?" Her voice dripped with liquid sugar. So beautiful. "Who am i?" She asked. She sounded so scared. I wanted to hug her. Kiss her. Reassure her. Whoa whoa whoa. Did I just say I wanted to kiss her? No way! If I felt like this for her I would get so hurt. I ca..its not poss…and here forth continues my sucky life. I hate my life. I vaguely heard Ian reassuring her while I was having this internal conversation. I suppose, now, she wasn't in my sister's body, I could feel this about her, she was wonderful, amazing, sweet, gentle, undescribingly different.

She was speaking now but I couldn't bring myself to say anything. Her tiny fragile hands hovered above her face. Ian was way too close her now. My fists clenched by my sides. Mel arrived then, speaking viciously. I couldn't hear her. I saw Mel hug her. She began to explain how they chose her body. I burst into life. This was probably the only time I was going to be able to talk to her and look into her shimmering gray eyes. I shoved past Mel to be right in front of her.

"Let me tell her! Let me tell her!" I said. My breath caught with her beauty and I shook myself so I could speak to her.

"Jamie?" She whispered. Shivers ran through my entire body when she said my name. She took my hand, squeezing it gently. An electric current ran through my body and I nervously smoothed back my hair before I began.

"Hey Wanda! This is way cool isn't it? You're smaller than me now!" It was the only thing I could think of to say without revealing my interest in her.

"But I'm still older!" She argued and bit her lip. "My birthday is in two weeks!" I frowned. I knew for a fact she was only sixteen. I had done my research on this body. I couldn't concentrate enough to correct her when she said she was eighteen. I felt a stiffening sensation in my jeans as she bit her lip. I touched her face, so soft, so flawless. My hand fit her face perfectly.

"They let me come on the raid to get you!" I said, softly.

She muttered, "I know. I remember…well Pet remembers seeing you there."

I heard how annoyed she sounded so defended myself quickly, "We tried not to scare her though! She's sorta fragile looking, you know? And nice, too," I blushed as I basically complimented her but nobody noticed. I hurriedly continued, "We picked her out together, but I got to decide! See, Mel said we had to get someone young-someone who had a bigger percentage of life as a soul or something. But not too young coz Mel said you didn't want to be a child," I didn't add how glad I was coz of that. That alone brought a blush to my cheeks.

"Then Jared liked this face, because he said no-one could ever dis…distrust it," I paused as she looked into my eyes and another prickle of shivers resounded through my body, " You don't look dangerous at all. You look the opposite of dangerous. Jared said anyone who sees you would naturally want to protect you, right Jared? But I got the finalsay because I was looking for someone who looked like you. And I thought this looks like you. Because she looks sorta angelic and you're good like that. You're real pretty. I knew you'd be pretty," I dropped my eyes as my blush deepened. Then I turned bitter. "Ian didn't come though, he just sat here with you-he said he didn't care what you looked like. He wouldn't let anyone else put a finger on you at all, not even me or Mel. But Doc let me watch this time. I don't know why you didn't let me watch before. It was way cool. They wouldn't let me help though. Ian wouldn't let anyone touch you but you." And he had no right to stop anyone else. Those words whispered through my head as he leaned in to whisper to her. I couldn't hear what he said but by her smile, I was jealous how I wasn't the one to make her smile. She still held my hand. I looked down at our entwined hands, wishing I could do more. I couldn't deny these feelings. I loved her.

DAMMIT! HOW COULD I ALLOW MYSELF TO BECOME VULNERABLE? It took ages for me to get over Mel leaving me with Jared and I just couldn't cope with any more depression in my life.

I couldn't take any more of this. I pulled my hand out of her hand. She didn't even notice. Ian was too busy kissing her. I pushed through the crowd, out the room. Nobody noticed me leave. Nobody noticed the tiny tear that escaped my eye.

Question for y'all: Panda bears or Polar bears?

:P can't decide.

So anyway, Like? Hate? No comment? Want me to continue? Tell all people!!!!

Peace out! x