Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight but, lucky for us, brilliant Stephenie Meyer does! Oh, and I don't own the song Behind These Hazel Eyes by Kelly Clarkson.
Set during New Moon: What if Bella never jumped off that cliff, but Edward came back for her.
(Bella's POV)
Work was a bore, as always. I was getting into my truck after a long day of work. All I wanted to do now was go home and sleep a dreamless sleep.
I knew that wasn't going to happen. Ever since he left me…. It's been about five months now. I haven't had a peaceful, dreamless sleep in all those months.
I used to wish that he would come back. Now I know better than to get my hopes up. He doesn't love me, and he probably never has.
It never really made sense for him to love me anyways.
I was halfway to my house when a song came onto the radio. I turned it up.
Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I use to be so strong…
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right.
It used to feel so right. But now I know that he never loved me.
Unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong
Oh, things can go wrong, I thought. I was about to turn it off when I heard the next verse.
Now I can't breath,
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on.
Barely? I pulled my arm over my chest to hold my self together. I'm pretty much not hanging on anymore.
Here I am, once again.
I'm torn into pieces.
Can't deny it
Can't pretend.
Just thought you were the one.
He was the one. He is the one.
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Not that he would care…
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything.
Opened up, and let you in.
You made me feel alright for once in my life.
Now what's left of me is
What I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside.
I'm barely together on the outside… I started to cry at this thought.
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on…
I turned off the radio so fast that I was surprised that the knob didn't fall off. I was crying uncontrollably now. I tried speeding up, to get home faster, but my truck wasn't having it.
I kept taking deep breaths, I didn't help much but it was something to keep my mind off him.
How could he do this to me? How could he pretend that he loved me? A mere, innocent human?
Maybe, just maybe, he wasn't pretending in the beginning. But I know now that his feelings for me had died, just like my heart when he left.
I might not have his heart, but he will always hold mine.
I pulled into the driveway. Thankfully, Charlie was working double shifts today so he wouldn't be home until tomorrow night. He wouldn't have to see me like this.
I got inside and looked at the clock. It was 8:30. To early to go to bed. I decided to take a shower. Maybe, the heat can take the pain away.
Forever…
So?! How did you like it? Review please!! And if you have any ideas, please tell me about them… I'm kind of having a writers block right now. The next chapter is going to be in Eddie's POV!!