CHAPTER ONE – SNUGGLING
(KAT'S POV)
The last case that we had was particularly hard. An eight year old coloured girl's case we reopened and it took us five long days to finally figure out what had happened and who had done it. The worse thing was that when Ronnie was little I use to live there, I knew the little girl, I knew her family and worst of all I also knew the man that thought it was ok to beat her to death.
The only thing I could think through the whole case was that it could have been Veronica and what would have happened if was here. I'm pretty sure the mother in me would take over the cop in me and go all GI Jane on his ass.
The first thing that I did when the case was finished is make sure that all the relevant paperwork was done and handed in to the boss then I headed straight home to spend some time with my baby. I pulled up in my drive way not bothering to use the garage and headed straight inside telling the baby sitter that she can go home.
I give her a big cuddle before we go into the kitchen and where the two of us cook dinner talking about her day at school and any other random things that has happened throughout the day or is due to happen to soon.
God how I wish Lilly was here. At first when all this started we were friends with benefits you know you go to each other when something's bothering you, when you're having a bad day and want to forget about or simply when you felt the need but we both knew it was a bad idea when we first started you never stay just friends in a friends with benefits relationship. I was right because know I want more than just sex, I want a relationship , I want to lie in bed after we've made love and snuggle or hold her hand and kiss her out in public but if this means I get to at least have some part of Lilly then happy for now to do this.
(LILLY'S POV)
It's 9:30 when I pull my car up in Kat's driveway and park behind her car in her drive way before cutting the engine and getting out locking the car behind making sure that I have my cell phone, gun and pager all on my belt and that I have my keys. I make my way over to her front door and knock before stepping back as not to be rude. The front door is flung open by Ronnie who is dressed in her pyjamas and is smiling.
"Hi Lilly. Mommy Lilly's here" Ronnie said taking my hand and dragging me inside to living room where Kat was just about to sit down and the movie that they were watching on pause.
Kat looks me with sad eyes as sit down next to her and giving her a known smile before sitting next to her and place my hand on her knee as she leans into me and rests her head on my shoulder.
"Hey V, how come Lilly gets to call you Ronnie but nobody else can?" Kat asked looking at Ronnie who was curled up next to me tucked under my arm ready to watch the film.
"Because Lilly's, Lilly" Ronnie replied making me smile and Kat roll her eyes.
"What are we watching?" I asked with a smile.
That's when I realised that I like this, that I want this sitting here with the both cuddled up next to me. I don't want to fuck with Kat I want to make love with her; I want to snuggle in bed after we have made love. I don't want to be called her fuck buddy i want to be called her girlfriend. I want to be able to kiss her public and hold her hand not in the facility of her or my bedroom.
"Rent the musical" Ronnie replies snuggling in further to me so close that her and her mother are almost touching they are snuggled that close to me.
By the time that the film has finished Ronnie is sound asleep against me. Kat tries to get up so that she can take her to bed but the way that it has worked out means that Kat can't move without me falling to the side which would wake up Ronnie. I scoop Ronnie up and indicate to Kat that I'll take her up to bed before turning around to face Kat.
"Meet me in your room" I said before giving her a smile and turning around and taking Ronnie to bed.
Tucking Ronnie in I make sure that she has her favourite stuffed rabbit that I bought her for her birthday a few years ago and most of the time when I am around here she has the rabbit with her. Pulling the covers up to her chin to make sure that she is cosy then standing I switch off the light sitting on her night stand then making my way to her bedroom door I shut the door before taking one last glance to make sure that she is okay then leaving but leaving her bedroom door ajar just in case she needs anything during the night.
I make my way down the hall and in to Kat's room to find her lying in her bed still wearing her work clothes so I shut the door behind me and begin to strip down to my underwear. Once I'm in my underwear walk over to Kat and start to undress her then once I have her pants off and shirt I climb in the bed behind her and roll her on to her side and slip in behind her so that we are lying in the spooning position with me as the big spoon and Kat as the little spoon. Wrapping my arms around her pulling her as close as humanly possible which she latches on to leaning into my touch.
"Speak and tell me what you're thinking" I whisper in her ear holding her tightly.
"Veronica's the same age as her" she replies in a whisper referring to her daughter.
"I know sweetie" I whisper back.
"What if something happens to here I don't think that I could handle that, I don't think the cop in me would win over the mother in me." She confesses quietly.
"Sweetie nothing is going to happen to her" I say trying to reassure here as she turns over in my arms so that she is facing me.
"Every time that I looked at a picture of that little girl all I could see was Veronica" she says with a slight break in her voice.
"Me too" I confess.
A confortable silence falls on us while I run my hand up and down her back as her breathing becomes heavier indicting that she has fallen asleep but u I lie and listen to her breathing for a little longer before I finally shut my eyes and fall into a deep sleep.
(KAT'S POV)
The next morning I wake up and roll over so that I can snuggle into Lilly to find her side of the bed empty and cold so I grab a pair of pyjama bottom and a pyjama top then slip them on before going to clean my teeth. Once my teeth are cleaned I head down the stairs quietly and make my way straight for the kitchen to see if veronica is up yet. When I reach the kitchen what I see nearly melts my heart into liquid.
Veronica is standing on a stool that I keep in the kitchen for when we are baking and Lilly is behind her wearing my rob while they whisk pancake mixture with the hum of the radio buzzing around the kitchen. So I lean against the door frame with my arms folded and watch the scene in front of me with the biggest smiles.
"Lilly?" Veronica says breaking their silence.
"Yes peanut?" Lilly says making me almost laugh at her nick name for my daughter but if anyone was to call her that then veronica would bit your head off before you know what hits you.
"Do you like my mommy?" she asks taking my completely by surprise. God this may not end very well.
"Of course I like your mommy she's my best friend" Lilly says adding something into the pancake mixture.
"Not like that like Arizona like Callie in Grey's Anatomy or how Bella likes Edward in Twilight" she says looking up at Lilly wanting her answer as they pour some of the mixture into the pan.
"Honestly yes I do, I have done for a while" Lilly says shocking me even more. You know how I said that I was surprised by Veronica even asking in the first place well this shocked me even more and if I was on my own where I knew for sure not to be disturbed then I would be doing the happy dance.
"Are they ready now?"
"Yes they are, so let's put them on the table and go wake mommy up" Lilly says helping Veronica off the stool.
"No need I am here" I say walking into which cause Lilly to blush like a strawberry,
"How much of that did you hear?" Lilly asked while Veronica sits down at the table.
"Enough" I respond walking over and giving her a kiss before taking the plate of pancakes over to the table.
After breakfast I get showered and changed while Lilly helps Veronica pick out matching clothes on since if she could she would have on every colour of the rainbow then Lilly has a shower and gets changed into clothes that she had in her trunk before we part with one last kiss then I drive Veronica to school and Lilly makes her way in the other directions.
When I walk in the others are laughing and by the looks of it badgering Lilly because she is blushing but has the biggest smile on her face like she just one the jackpot and the boys look very pleased with themselves.
"What have I missed?" I ask sitting down in my seat.
"Lilly's in love" Scotty said smiling.
"Oh yeah is that true Lil?" I ask smiling at her catching her eye.
"I might be yes" she replies smiling back at me with a slight smirk in it.
"Girl or boy?" Scotty asks.
"Girl" she responds.
I smile at her before grabbing one of the reports that I have yet to do and begin working with a smile ready for whatever the rest of the day has to throw at me. Today I feel like I'm walking on water even better I'm flying up high in the sky over the most beautiful place in the world.