So Kurt's thoughts and his song is in Italics. Blaine's song is in Bold.
I don't own Glee... sadly. Nor the songs used: Take a Bow by Rihanna and Sorry by Buckcherry.
The last few weeks have been painfully slow yet really fast at the same time. Each moment Kurt's heart hurts just a little bit more. Eventually it's just a constant ache that felt would never ever leave.
Kurt tried to live like usual, and his years of masking his emotions came in good use. He worked daily, but kept to himself. He spent pretty much the rest of his time at home, either in the worn lounge chair by the window looking down into the streets, or curled in bed, trying to work out what happened. Blaine cheated on me. He had sex with another guy because I moved to New York and was too busy for him. Is it my fault? No, he told me to come here. I had to get a job to pay rent and for food. I don't think I can trust him anymore.
That's pretty much all Kurt has pulled out from his whirlwind of tangled thoughts. Right now Kurt is laying his chair, the now permanent glazed over eyes seemingly focused on his left hand, which is lying in his lap. After a few moments of pure silence there was a timid knock on the door. Kurt snapped into reality and looked at the door. He slowly got up and slid it open. The first thing he saw was a large teddy bear the size of a regular bed pillow. Then Kurt's eyes moved up and looked into the warm brown ones that he hasn't been able to stop thinking about.
"Hi, Kurt." Blaine gave the tiniest of smiles as his eyes showed of hope and pleading.
Kurt didn't speak. He just stood staring wide eyed at the man before him. So Blaine continued. "I really miss you Kurt. I can't even begin to tell you how sorry I am."
Blaine paused and took a breath. As he was about to start to speak again Kurt shook his head rapidly. "I-I can't do this right now. I'm sorry" He began to shut the door. Blaine spoke hurriedly. "Wait! Please don't! I- I-…" As Blaine fumbled for the right words to say Kurt continued to close the door muttering another quiet "Sorry" and the door thudded shut. Blaine stood there for a moment, unsure what to do now. He dropped he bear by the door and leaned his forehead against it. Tears already forming.
Kurt leaned against the door from the inside and took a deep breath. Tears already falling down his cheeks.
Oh, how about a round of applause
Yeah, standin' ovation
Oh oh yeah, yeah yeah yeah yeah
You look so dumb right now
Standing' outside my house
Trying' to apologize
You're so ugly when you cry
Please, just cut it out
Oh, I had a lot to say
Was thinkin' all my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same
'Cause everything inside
It never comes out right
And when I see you cry
It makes me want to die
Blaine pushed away from the door and went down the hall. He went down the stairs and left the building.
Kurt stepped away from the door and went to the living space. He looked out the window and saw Blaine walking quickly down the street. His hands were balled into tight fists and his head ducked down.
And don't tell me you're sorry 'cause you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertainin'
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow
Oh...
I want to believe he is sorry. But how can I trust him now? Is he truly sorry? Why else would he have come here?
Kurt sank to the floor and pulled his knees to his chest. He sat and watched Blaine's figure disappear in the crowd.
I'm sorry I'm bad
I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry 'bout all the things I said to you
And I know
I can't take it back
I love how you kiss
I love all your sounds
And, baby, the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say
I'm sorry
Blaine didn't know where to go. He's never been to New York except… well, last time. Kurt took him around. But he kept walking.
Oh, and the award for the best liar goes to you
For making me believe that you could be faithful to me
Let's hear your speech out
And don't tell me you're sorry 'cause you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught
Kurt stood and swiftly grabbed his keys and phone. He strode out of his apartment and headed out. He turned on the street Blaine went and kept going. Kurt didn't know where Blaine was, but he didn't care. He just continued walking.
This time I think I'm to blame
It's harder to get through the days
You get older and blame turns to shame
'Cause everything inside
It never comes out right
And when I see you cry
It makes me want to die
Blaine walked and walked until he finally looked up at his surroundings. Through his tear-blurred vision he recognized the place. It was where he and Kurt took a walk that night. Where both their hearts shattered.
Blaine choked back a sob and sat at a bench. He put his head in his hands and tried to maintain some composure.
How about a round of applause
A standin' ovation
But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
Now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertainin'
But it's over now (but it's over now)
Go on and take a bow
He didn't know when he started, but he eventually was running. He ran and scan the crowd for Blaine. Kurt hasn't done much exploring of the city yet, so he wasn't to sure of where he was, but the place looked familiar.
This time I think I'm to blame
It's harder to get through the days
You get older and blame turns to shame
'Cause everything inside
It never comes out right
And when I see you cry
It makes me want to die
Every single day
I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
It's never too late to make it right, oh yeah
Sorry
Blaine closed his eyes and breathed deeply. He stared at the ground and looked at where his tears left small dark circles on the pavement. A pair of shoes appeared in Blaine's line of vision. They stopped and pointed towards him. Blaine slowly looked up.
But it's over now.
I'm sorry.
I know lyrics are missing in both songs. I cut some out to make it work more smoothly.
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