Rose POV
I really didn't mind guarding Christian I mean spending time with him has been nice. We were two heart broken fools. He wouldn't even go any where near Lissa, so I only got to see her on my day off. I was sitting in my dorm room on the edge of my bed. I was supposed to be packing some clean clothes for my stay in Christian's dorm. I was staring at the latest letter from Dimitri. I read it over and over.
My Dearest Roza,
Do you want to play a game? You will be out on your own soon.
I know you won't put Lissa in danger by sticking around her.
I'm looking forward to you running. It will be a wonderful
game of cat and mouse.
Just remember that I will never stop looking for you.
I will always love you
Dimirti
How did he know I was planning on leaving as soon as school was out? He didn't count on my bring Lissa with me, but I had promised her I wouldn't leave with out her. I wouldn't leave her again. We hadn't talked about it since that night I came back but I wonder if she still wants to go. I had been waiting for two weeks for Adrian's letter on why I should date him. Instead he came to and told me he was starting to have feelings for Lissa. I wasn't mad because I really didn't like Adrian anymore then just a friend. He was more a brother then anything. He and Lissa weren't dating officially yet but they weren't far off. This is where I and Christian understood each other a lot. He still cared for her and against my better judgment I still cared for Damirti a lot. It was my first day back to guarding Christian. I got up and threw some clothes in my duffle bag and headed to my new dorm till graduation. I walked into with out knocking and threw my bag into the corner. I was pissed and on the verge of tears.
"Don't you knock what if I was naked?" Christian joked.
"Wouldn't be something I haven't seen fire boy." I laughed. I had seen him naked plenty of times when I got pulled into Lissa's head during there "privet time." "Thanks Rose." He said blushing a little. I sat on his bed "I got another letter" I said sheepishly. I told him every time I got one, which was once a week. "I'm sorry Rose I didn't know you got another one." He almost whispered. I sluggishly sat down on the bed next to him and started to cry. He pulled me into a hug. "It's going to be okay." He breathed into my ear. I sighed "I'm really going to miss you." I admitted. I was after graduation me and Lissa would be taking off. Christian didn't know we weren't going to court. As far as he knew I was missing him cause he decided not to go to court after him and Lissa broke up.
Christian POV
I loved holding her. I decided not to say anything to her since graduation was in two months. What good would it do me to tell her I was absolutely in love with her? I mean she was moving to court with Lissa and I was going off to Penn State. I hated to see her cry. My heart broke a little when she said she was going to miss me. "I'm going to miss you to." I said back to her. I remember the exact moment I realized I loved her.
…….Flashback……..
I walked into my room after dinner. Carrying a plate because I knew she was going to be hungry. "Hey I brought you some" I stopped talking as soon as I saw her. Sitting in my bed her knees curled up to her chest. She looked like she was trying to hold herself together, tears streaming down her face. I had never seen anyone look so amazing beautiful while they were so hurt. She was holding a note and a box and stake were thrown on the floor.
"What happened?" I ran over to her I had never felt like I had needed to protect someone more. I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her close to me. I was sure she would push me away but she didn't. She buried her face into my chest and cried harder. I let her cry stroking her hair lightly until she feel asleep. I gripped the note and read it carefully. Then pulled the covers over her and let her sleep.
…….End Flashback………
That was the night I realized I wanted to protect her. I also realized that it wouldn't happen. She would never let me, she would never feel the same for me and I could never ask her to give up what she would have to, to be with me. Which was a life with Lissa.