A little HC before going to bed. I haven't uploaded in awhile due to 8th grade and homework sh*t. ): I am truly stressed out so I type random things such as this... Anyway, I hope you will enjoy my little HC. :)
Rage consumed me. How could she? After everything we'd been through... I grab a knife and throw it as hard as I can. It hits the tree with a satisfying THUNK and stays lodged in the bark, the end quivering. I've been here since first light, ever since waking up from a dream that Katniss was in my bed. As if. She hasn't tried to contact me in years. I'm out of knives, so I sit down on the ground and grab my kit. Needles. Long, sharp, pointy needles. I pick and poke at the skin on my palm with my needle, poking and pricking until it begins to bleed. I keep going until I have a steady trickle running down my palm and onto the ground. I watch as the blood maneuvers its way through old scar tissue, some raised and other just faint white lines.
I understand that she associates me with Prim's death, even though we both know I didn't directly do it. But to not call in fifteen years, to go about Panem happy and smiling and glowing with a round belly. I can't believe she let him touch her... and get her pregnant! After choking her! After nearly killing her! After joining the Careers, back in the 74th Hunger Games! Insanity! What if he were to hurt her or her... fetus? I refused to think the word child, because that thing growing inside her was half of him, and he was a monster in my eyes. But I had to admit... she looked so good in love. I wished that she only wanted me.
How can he take something that was mine away from me? I loved her. I close my eyes and remember Katniss' lips on mine, her smile as it lit up the woods, her holding my hand while I healed from the whipping. Her beautiful eyes, her soft hair... then, as a soft breeze picked up, the memory of her flew away, tantalizing and desirable. I could almost hear her say my name. But she had Peeta, and I... I had nothing but a scarred palm, bloody needles and a blade rendered useless by getting stuck in the tree.