The sound of rain crashing against the tin roof f my mother's house filled the room. The air had a chill about it that made me wish I had on a sweater, but was strangely comforting, somehow. The house seemed so empty. I still hadn't become accustomed to the eerie silence that drenched the entire house. I sipped on the freshly brewed coffee that I'd made and stared out the bay window and watched the rain drip off the roof into puddles in the driveway. It was 4 a.m., and, again, I couldn't sleep. Mom passed away three months ago and I still had nightmares about it. I woke up, every night in a cold sweat, crying. I just wish Chad was here…
So Random! And Mackenzie Falls ended about 3 years ago, and most everyone from Condor Studios went their separate ways. Nico and Grady have their own comedy show similar to Jack Ass now. Tawni has her own fashion line and stars in blockbusters left and right. Zora… well no one really knows what happened to her. Rumors have it that she's working for MI6. But… who knows. Chad Dylan Cooper's career has sky rocketed since his days on the Falls. He is an A lister actor with a new movie out every other week it seems. He also just debuted his sophomore album, and his tour for next year sold out in a matter of minutes. Chad and my relationship hit the rocks when mom got diagnosed with breast cancer a few months after the final episode of So Random!. I had to fly back home to Wisconsin and he had to move for 6 months to Europe to begin filming his newest movie at the time. Things sort of just fell apart after that. He began calling less and less, and rumors were flying that he and his costar had an offset fling. A few days later, I called him up and broke up with him, just giving him a clean break. It's what I needed… it's what I thought I needed.
As mom's condition progressed, I figured out that I needed Chad more and more. But, as months turned into years, mom went into remission… until he cancer came back, more aggressive than ever. 3 surgeries and months of chemo therapy later, mom's body just couldn't take it anymore. The day she died, I broke down and called Chad. He was in Toronto filming the latest installment in his successful movie franchise, Last Man Standing. I told him what happened, and the only thing I heard him say was,
"Oh… Sonshine. I am so sorry…"
I broke down and hung up, and it's been three months since that day. Chad sent the most beautiful flowers to the funeral home the day she was buried, and he's called me several times since then… I just haven't had the heart to answer the phone.
As I watched it rain on another summer day in Wisconsin, I suddenly had to leave. I got up from my seat and rushed to the back bedroom. Hastily packing my belongings into my duffle bag, tears streamed down my face. I grabbed my jacket and keys, threw my stuff in my car, and sped off to Outagamie airport and booked the soonest flight to Los Angeles, California. I sat in the small, stiff airport chair and fiddled with my phone. I was contemplating what in the world I was doing.