Immoral Desires

Written by Kairi Kazumi or Kairi-chan

A/N: This time Fuji will be the protagonist of my first forbidden love story. Unlike my previous stories I have written so far is written in Fuji's POV instead the usual. Also a friend of mine told me the manga " Boku wa imouto ni koi suru" and thanks to her she gave me the idea and inspiration writing on this fic.

Summary: Fuji Syuusuke wants to tell her how much he loves her but he couldn't say it. Fate is too cruel for him as he can't accept the fact of their relationship.

SIN 1: TRAPPED EMOTIONS

I waited outside of the convenience store waiting for someone.

I could sense all eyes were staring at me- mostly girls I assume ogling me as if I'm their toy. I already knew they were ogling me like I'm their toy which I do not know why there are those kind of girls exist I mean I'm a human being not a display object to be stare.

"Sorry for waiting."

I turn my attention to that voice and greeted her with a smile.

My natural smile which I cannot show them to anyone except for her.

There stood of a young girl with small frame like a small child. Her pair of chocolate brown eyes is wide like an innocent child. Her long auburn hair is tied into two long braids behind her. She has this shyness to other people yet she also has this kindness that she could not refuse to leave others behind.

Her serene smile makes me feels the warm whenever I see them. That is what I treasure most with all my heart.

You may think she is a child but don't judge the book by its cover. She's only fifteen years-old despite her growth spurt may seem slow which depresses her much. I told her there is no need for her to worry her height what matter most is to enjoy the way she is before worrying it.

To be more honest I like her small height the way she is.

Others may think her hairstyle is childish but I don't think it's true. As I find it truly attractive and they suit her better than other girls. But one of the best traits of her is her kindness.

"Shall we go then?" I offer my hand to hers.

She looks at me innocently as she held my hand. I held her hand not letting her go as I show my concern that I might lose her.

The last time I lost her made me worried some and it almost took me hours to find her until she was located at the nearby park. Really I promised myself not to let that happen EVER again.

"They look cute together don't they?" one girl commented.

I was smiling proudly at their comments. Of course we look good together who wouldn't resist her shyness, her smile and her innocent.

While I was staring at her I take notice some men are looking at her. I look at her as she never had notice they are staring at her. I look at any men who dare to look at her with one glare making them shiver to their spine thus run away. I smirk in victory. That would teach them a lesson for staring her with those perverted looks. Looking at those men disgust me! I will never hand any of those men with those evil intent.

Even if one of them would court her they would have to go through me first! I will make sure I'll torture them painfully so they won't bother her again. Not when I'm around.

I've always watch her ever since when we were little. No one should come between us because our bonds are stronger and no one can ever understand it how we are so close to each other.

To me she's very precious like a gem to my heart. No she's more like a goddess than a precious gem..

"You look really happy." She said. "Is it because Yuuta-nii is coming home?"

I froze my steps. My smile turns upside down when she mention Yuuta and home. It actually pains me so much like I could feel someone so strong to rip my heart apart. She calls out my name worriedly at my sudden actions.

Quickly I regain my posture smiling at her like nothing happened. She still worries me which touches my heart completely. We walk all the way as soon we are in the neighborhood. This heavy feeling starts to weigh my chest. But soon it will be over. Thinking of it aches my heart as I still cannot accept the fact of our relationship.

"We're home." We greeted.

"Ara, welcome home. You're just in time." My big sister Yumiko greeted us

She let go of my hand first as she walks toward Yumiko-neesan to give the groceries she has brought. They are busily engaging their conversation as I was busily staring at the younger girl with a sad expression I have.

I clench my hand against my chest as I feel the same burning desire within me.

Kami-sama why are you so cruel to me?

Why do I have this insane and ugly feeling towards her?

Why? Why did I fall for her?

These questions continue to rise more making my heart aches for more.

Oh no! I need to get out here as fast as I could before that happen, I noted myself.

As I was about to head my room, I stopped my track when I felt a small tug on my sleeve. Before turning to that person who was tugging my sleeve I secretly pray, "Please not be her. Please not be her."

I turn my attention to that person hopefully it's Yumiko-neesan or Yuuta alas my prayers were in vain as my hope turns upside down when I see her.

Kami-sama can't you grant my wish?

Don't you know I'm suffering this pain?

Why can't you recognize this terrible situation I'm facing?

She stares at me with those look. Those look which I am weak against her.

"Syuu-niichan?"

Please don't look at me with those eyes. They make me so- vulnerable.

"I'm okay." I replied.

Before anything goes wrong I quickly retreat to my room and shut the door. I locked as well so no one else could enter as I leaned my back against the door and slumps down on the floor. My headache is getting too much when I thought of her. No matter how much I look at her my urges rise.

I want to tell her my feelings how much I love her. I want to kiss her delicate lips, hold her into my arms and do all those couple activities I ever dream of but…

"...But she's my younger sister… Sakuno." I utter bitterly.

Yes. I, Fuji Syuusuke, is in love to Sakuno- my little sister.

SIN 1 END

A/N: That's the beginning of Fuji's life. There will be more angst in his story.