it feels
as though
i have spent a
thousand years
away from
your arms
.
and now that
i've returned
'home' seems like
the strangest word
to describe this place
full of
memories
happiness
sorrow
regret
.
i cannot imagine
what to say to you
i think
and reconsider
my words
a hundred times over
.
i end up saying nothing
.
all i can do
is whisper
my apologies
for causing you pain
for being so selfish
for being the despicable person i have become
.
i am sorry
for everything
i've ever done