I love... I love... I love you.

Those words so violently echo in my head, and never seem to stop, always repeating the same thing over and over again.

Anri... I love you.

Fingers slide into my hair, grasping down to the very roots, and my eyes close in hopes that it'll all stop when I open them again. But the fear rises within my chest with the sensation that I'll be found out where I'm hiding, and I won't be safe.

Let me love them for you...

Please, no...

I'll love them forever, and ever, for you.

I don't want to hurt anyone else.

I want to paint sweet roses for you, Anri...

My hands slip over my ears, and press firmly there in hope that it'll all stop, but I don't believe it would no matter how I do it. Saika continues to press on within my head as tears form on the rim of my eyes, and my heart is pounding ridiculously fast as I hear the others running around and searching for me. They're so close to finding me.

Anri... Anri... Anri...!

Despite it all I know I have this feeling I want to run again, but my body is frozen stiff by the painful realization Saika is trying to take control. If I open my eyes I know they'll be that sinister red, the color of fresh blood, and I can't bare to let that show.

I'm just a monster, and they'll scream it if they see me like that.

You're a beautiful monster.

I don't want to be called a monster again.

You know I'll still love you, forever... and ever. My sweet, Anri.

Shut up.

The footsteps, the voices, they've gotten closer and my eyes snap open as I slowly drop my hands from my ears. Listening carefully to everything, all the while my eyes are searching for an opening to run through, and when I spot one I can't feel my body respond.

It was like feeling the hands of a ghost slide around my body, the sensation of a hand sliding around my waist and one over my right shoulder to the middle of my chest was enough to scare me. I thought it was one of the people I had escaped from, but even though I looked down in search of the hands they weren't there but I could clearly feel them. And that's when the voice, the voice inside my head, felt like it was right next to my right ear.

Dear, dear, Anri…

The voice purred with what I had to guess was a smirk, I swallowed hard, Saika never felt so close as she did in this moment.

I'll take care of the little boys threatening our love.

I could feel every fiber of my being tighten in fear, more so than it had a moment ago, and I opened my mouth in hope to say no once more. But I couldn't.

I lost control, Saika won.

I became a monster.

But, in her eyes, I became a beautiful monster.