The ocean blue...
Author's note: This is my very first G Gundam fanfiction and no this isn't like after like the end of the show or anything…cause….um….I haven't seen all the episodes yet…I don't think I have to explain exactly when this takes place because if you read the first few sentences you'll know when! ^_^ Well really hope you like my story and please let me know if you people like it or not! Good or bad I want to know what you people think of it!
"Today was an other average day. At the moment Domon had been training very hard and is sometimes gone all day...and ever so often gone all day and night. He'd been so determined to become stronger now...so he is very harsh on himself. All because of a rusty sword? That's right. Ever since some mysterious man in a mask had given it to him after he had cut a tree clear in half with it, he's been trying to figure out how to do the same, for he believes that when he can he can also control the shining gundam's supermode. It's very boring here all alone all day, but it doesn't matter if he's here or not because he would never sit down and do something like just talk. If he was here he'd be...training. That's it. Oh I'm sorry! How rude I've been not to introduce myself. I'm Rain, Domon Kasshu's partner and childhood friend...if that matters, and if you are reading this then you've found my journal! Congratulations. You'll now be able to understand to an extent exactly how the mechanic of the Shining Gundam feels about all that's going on at the time or in your case in the past. I hope this doesn't depress you too much. Well, there isn't much to say today expect what I've already notifided you of so I think I'll quite writing for today." Rain wrote down in an sort of beat up notebook. She had decided to write a journal to keep herself busy when no work was needed on the Shining Gundam and Domon was off training. She walked outside of a tent she had set up to sleep in for the time being, and walked over to check on the Shining Gundam and to see if Domon had returned yet. The gundam was just fine, nothing needing to be worked on, no adjustments, nothing. And of course Domon was not back yet. "He'll probably be out training all night again. How does he expect to be able to train when he has had no sleep what so ever and nothing to eat in days? It's reticules. But I guess I'm just worrying myself over nothing. Even if he was tired and hungry he'd never listen to me and get some sleep and eat a little." she thought to herself. She went back inside the tent and cleaned up a few papers lying around and her old notebook. All the papers were picked up and put into order...all except one peace of blank paper she left out. She soon fell asleep and awoke from her nape much later that night. Of course Domon hadn't returned yet. The only reason she had woke up was because she had a very strange dream. A dream of being out on an endless, crystal blue, ocean. She had been on a boat searching for something. At first she didn't know what. Then it hit her. Where'd Domon? She searched the whole boat, and he was no where to be found, then she asked someone if they knew where he was and they answered with, "Why Rain, you know he's not on this boat! He's been lost on the ocean for a very long time now! Don't you remember? You were the one that wanted to go searching for him. Now I'm afraid we're lost as well." This had scared her very much and she immediately woke up. She looked around first for the clock to see what time it was. She looked around the tent till her eyes caught the glow of a small battery power clock she had toke with her. It read 12:03 a.m. Then she turned back again to a small travel sized dresser by her camping bed and there it lay...the blank sheet of paper. She turned on the light and sat up as and words suddenly came to her. She started to quickly write them down
" each tear drop into the ocean blue
each dieing of my soul was for you
now i don't know what is true
is this really love for you...
I do not understand this emptiness inside
.... but I know it hurts
the thought that my soul my may be lost kills me
but what hurts more is the though
of I might loss you in this ocean blue...
my soul lost out there searching for you...
I don't understand what is trueone minute you act as though
this love is true and you love me too
but then it changes again and you act as though we're hardly friends...
this must end...just remember though
even though it doesn't show.....
I'll search this ocean blue for
and eternity until I find you."
She started at the paper and didn't even realize her eyes were filled with tears as they ran down her cheeks and onto the paper. "Why...why did I even write this!? ....I can't keep this. At least not here. What...what if Domon finds this...What would he say? What would he do? I'll just hide it in my dresser...he'd never find it there...I wish in a strange why though...he would...it would feel nice to get this all out of the way...I mean can I really hide the way I feel forever...doughtful..." she thought. She then scribbled, "Signed: Rain" stuffed the paper into the top drawer in her dresser, turned off the light, and when back to sleep. Meanwhile...somewhere out in the middle of the jungle where Rain and Domon where staying for the time being, Domon lifted a rusty ninja sword, and ran towards a tree thrusting the sword into the tree with all his might but still only leaving a cut in the tree. "Why!? Why can't I just make this sword work!?" he said loudly more to himself to anyone or anything around the jungle, then looking down at a wrist watch he had on for the time being so he would not end up accidentally staying out training all night and leave Rain totally unwatched over for the entire night. Most of the time he would return very late at night and just sit and watch over Rain till daylight. It really wasn't the fact that he thought someone would try and harm her if he went to sleep. The, to him embarrassing, fact was that he seemed to enjoy just watching her sleep. Sometimes this did bother him though, for sometimes she would have such a sad expressions on her face, and in some rare cases would cry in her sleep. It hurt him to watch her in such pain and him there but not able to comfort her other than wake her from whatever horrible nightmare she may have been having. But it would be easer for Domon to comfort her in her sleep then when she was awake because an other for him embarrassing fact was he was falling in love with Rain but not even in a million years would admit this to her because he tried to deny it to himself, but didn't work. He had always thought, "If I told her how I felt about her she'd probably just laugh at me, because she'd think I was kidding or something." So he just tried to pretend he didn't care about her but he knew anyone who wasn't blind and death could tell he cared about her any time she was in trouble or anything. Then he finally realized he'd been sitting and staring at his watch for about five minutes now and still wasn't paying attention to what time it was. The clock read 4:06 (that's a.m.) "I should really be getting back I guess..." he thought. He finally got to the tent and quietly entered. Rain was already fast asleep and seemed she'd been asleep for a long while. She lay there asleep with a small smile on her face, which made Domon feel much better since the last week she had seemed really sad in her sleep and cried in her sleep a couple times that week. Since she seemed fine and he hadn't slept in a good solid two weeks he decided he'd sleep till he was woke up by Rain (which since she knew he hadn't slept in a long while so it would be late in the evening before she'd wake him but....and he knew but he was so tired he didn't care). Then at daybreak he woke up himself because of a very strange dream...no nightmare...he was on an island out in the middle of the sea and had no idea where he was...which these kind of dreams are pretty normal for people...but that wasn't what scared him...it was the fact that he had searched the whole island and he was...all alone...but if one person would have been there.....one person he wouldn't have been scared...but she wasn't....he then heard the distant calls of Rain's voice calling out "Domon!" He tried to yell back to her, yelling, "Rain! I'm right here Rain!" but she seemed to not hear him as her voice because very sad and desperate as though she'd never find him. Then he heard someone come up to her and say "I'm sorry but they just confirmed Domon Kasshu as being forever lost at sea...or dead. I'm sorry Miss Rain. I know how hard you looked for him." Then she sounded as though she completely broke down as he could hear her weep, then call out "DOMON!!! PLEASE HEAR ME" and he called out again "I'M RIGHT HERE! RAIN! I'M RIGHT...here?" he said then seeing he was no longer on the island but standing out on the ocean, then was dropped into the icy water. He floated there in the dream for a long time till he was so cold he couldn't stand it. The last words he muttered
out before something drug him under the water was "RA...IN!" Then he woke up. Suddenly and strangely felt like ...writing? Well...it was true so he pulled out a flashlight from his pocket so he wouldn't wake up Rain since in the tent it was still dark, and looked around for some paper and pencil. He finally found a piece of paper and pencil and just started to write.
" the cries across the ocean blue
every one just for you...
but how can this be true...
how could I love you...?
before I tried to hide my love for you
even know I now know this love is true
I've been left so cold and alone
but yet you were always there for me...
sometimes I wish I'd just set you free
then you could leave me be...
you'd think I'd be left free of your "trouble"
but then I'd only be truly...alone
before you had healed the wounds
that came all too soon...
stupid me...
all I wanted to is be free of you
too blind to see it was you
that was always there
through thick and thin
even when no one else would stand by my side
I'm lost out here...on this ocean blue
lost because I'm to blind to see this love is true ...and...only for you
so come find me please and set me free..."
He read it over and said to himself, "This is so stupid! It's ….so sappy…too bad George didn't write it or something….anyone but me…Rain would have liked it then….but I couldn't let her know I wrote it….I couldn't say…it's about…her…or anyone else for that matter…not that I can't lie but…if I said it was about some other girl or something…it might hurt her feelings or something…" he though to himself. "I'll just…throw it away! …but…oh I'll just stuff it in this top drawer in this dresser! Rain will never find it here…" he said to himself. He then stared down at it and done something he would later regret…he scribbled "Signed: Domon" on the paper then opened the drawer to stuff it in and noticed that another paper was there. He picked it put and stuffed his poem on the opposite side of where the other paper was and walked out of the tent as he heard Rain wake up. As she woke up her first intention was, "I have to get my poem and put it in my bag! I just know Domon'll end up finding it!" She jumped out of bed and slung open the top drawer and her first thought was "Oh no! It's gone!" when she saw the paper on the other side, grabbed it and opened it! It took her a couple seconds but then she whispered, "This…isn't my poem…but then…who's is it…?" She then sat on her bed and started to read. As Domon started to read the poem, he started to walk deep into the jungle. The poem was so beautiful….and he didn't even like poems…he kept walking and till he ran into a rock by a pond, perfect for sitting down on. He finally got to the end and read, "Signed: Rain" he paused for a minute to let the soak in… "Rain wrote this? It's…beautiful…but…is she talking about…me…? Could she had…written a poem like mine…but if her poem was in the top drawer of the dresser like mine…she's found it!" he said now standing up, and started to run back to the tent! "Why? Why did this have to happen! Why not later? Why today? Why not…next year!? Oh…it don't matter now…at least I'm not the only one humiliated here….Rain'll be just as embarrass…I think…I guess she was talking about us in her poem…" he thought as he ran…well really a million things at once were running through his head at he ran, but…I'm not going to bore you! He finally got out of the woods, still running just as fast. At this time Rain had just got finished reading Domon's poem and was in state of shock…she then snapped herself out of it for the thought that…Domon had her poem as well, and she ran out after it thinking, "Oh no! Why? Why in this world did fate have this happen? I hate how things always turn out for me…" As soon as she ran out of the tent she could see Domon but just kept running and Domon done the same, neither stopped running until they were dead in front of each other and they said at the same time, "Uh…here's your poem back." While reaching each other's poems to each other, with a blank look on both of their faces. Rain took her's back very happily but Domon just pushed the paper that he'd wrote his poem on away and said, "I don't want mine back, throw it away or burn it or rip it put or any other thing you can think of to destroy it…I was going to just throw it away anyways." He said walking away. "Domon…wait" she then said. "What?" he said turning around angrily. "Why do you want …..your poem thrown away….and if you're going to…at least tell me what it means…who it's about if anything…" she said. He the regained the same sad look he always had on his face and said, "I…don't know why I wrote it or who I wrote it about…" he said and then walked away. "There's no use in calling him back…that's the only answer I'll get out of him…for now." She thought and then whispered something. Domon stopped at the thought that he heard Rain's voice say "I'll search the ocean blue till I find you" but decided he was hearing things and went to train once again.