You promised me friendship.
I knew you would forget, that shouldn't come as an overwhelming surprise. I really hate what I put you though, I knew I shouldn't have done what they asked me, no, told me, commanded me, to do. What I did was horrible, awful and unforgivable. But you forgave me. You were fully aware of everything I did to you, and yet you forgave me. You're too pure for hatred, arn't you?
I remember our promise everyday. I swore to remember, because I knew you wouldn't be able to. When I enter your mind, and painfully remove the links of your memory, which I already altered to benefit the Organization and myself. In that unconscious state of sleep, I wonder, do you dream? Are you able to pick up the links I ripped out once more and analyze them, trying to remember them yourself before they sink into the small amount of darkness in your untainted heart?
Even though I'm repairing you, I repair you at the expense of the memories I worked so hard to originally put them there. I repair you at the expense of myself. What I am to you.
What am I to you?
On the days that I mend your mutilated memories, I can't stop my tears. They stream down my face. On those days, not a single person on this world would suspect I don't have a heart. You have given me a false heart, and I suppose that heart doesn't belong to me. It's yours, and I'm giving it back.
I was so happy when you thought you remembered my name. Larxene was happy because it meant that you were forgetting your real life, but my happiness came from that fact that you were happy about me. But I ached, for the same reason that Larxene was happy. I was horrible, but I couldn't stop. That feeling of happiness you gave me was like a drug, I wanted to feel again. I was enjoying playing with your mind.
I don't know when it happened, maybe it was when I realized your overwhelming determination to succeed was only because of me, and I feared that that false determination would fail you. I showed you the truth, the truth you forgot, and didn't believe. You wanted to keep those false memories, until you finally realized what they were. And that's why you sleep in front of me right now. Why I vow to return you to the way you were before I affected you.
But I'll come back. I'll come back to you like I promised, and you will greet me as if you have never seen me before. Still showing the same smile you unconsciously use with dear friends and strangers alike. And I'll greet you back, giving no hint that you didn't steal my heart, but gave me one. And you know what Sora?
Maybe we will be friends for real.
-.Namine.-
AUTHORess NOTES:
First bit of Romance I have ever done.
First Kingdom Hearts fic I have ever done. Please review!
KTHXBAI!