It has been a long time since i've been writing fanfiction but Frozen was just asking for it. Yes I do pair Elsa and Anna (don't like it, don't read it!) and frankly i don't give a shit about them being sisters. Do not be mistaken though, I do not approve of real life incest! Drop a comment :) it will be appreciated.
The people still feared her; she could feel it in her bones. Yes they smiled, politely, but they would never take their eyes off of her. They gasped at her beautiful creations of ice but they stood far back when she was creating them. She heard their whispers, calling her the ice queen but no one had the guts to address her as such. They feared that, if they would piss her off, she would freeze Arendelle all over again. The thought of all this fear made her body tremble and without even realizing it she had clenched her fists tightly to her chest. Her frown was one of pain as she fought against the tingling sensation in her fingers. She had to learn to control her powers. Not only for her subjects but also for Anna, mainly for Anna. She had nearly killed her sister in an outburst of fear. She was so close to losing the only person in this kingdom that she truly cared about, which was the reason that she kept in hiding all those years to begin with. God, she was such a screw up. One day, she couldn't hold it in for one day. Yes she felt liberated after her outing but she had a high price to pay.
She saw it in her sister's eyes too. Not in the beginning. Anna had showered her with hugs on the most awkward times and Elsa had loved every single one of them. It wasn't until a few days later that she noticed the stares, the glances that her sister stole. Her face had turned various shades of red when Elsa had finally caught her doing so but not a single word was spoken. It just happened more frequent over time until Elsa finally couldn't take it anymore and locked herself away in her room. And here she was again, alone and terrified of hurting her baby sister. The walls already started glazing over and soft snowflakes fell out of nowhere on the, now, slippery floor. She had to learn to keep it in. Guess she wasn't free after all.
The distinguished tapping on the door alerted her about her sister's presence. Quickly the queen ran her fingers trough her hair and covered her hands with gloves. It took her a moment or two to thaw the room but Anna waited patiently. Good heavens, why would the red-head even put herself through all this trouble if she feared her that much? Did she feel obligated? If she did Elsa needed to change that and soon. She loved her sister but she had no intentions of forcing these visits on her just because the red-head thought her to be a lonely woman! She had dealt with loneliness for years to keep Anna safe, not to lock her up into solitary together with her. Her feelings made it tempting for her to simply yell at the door.
"Go away Anna…"
She had said the words so many times but her sister came back over and over again until she was forced to come out. Elsa knew she has hurt her sister over the years but she never thought about the impact it would have on herself. The pain she felt when she stood next to her sister at the coronation or the awkwardness at the dance after. Thankfully she had been able to break the ice, no pun intended, by telling her how beautiful she looked and in the few moments after she realized what she had been missing out on all those years before. Anna's face had lit up and it became painfully clear that Elsa had ruined her childhood by pushing her away. So to prevent a broken heart she did the most stupid thing ever, she pushed her away again. What else could she have done? It was the only thing she knew and the only thing that had worked up until then. But Anna didn't take it; she wouldn't accept it and well the rest was history. So from the moment her sister threw herself in front of Hans, Elsa had decided never to shut her sister out of her life again. Ever.
"Come in, Anna…"
Her voice sounded hoarse and for unknown reasons her palms begun to get sweaty. Her sister peeked her head around the door to make sure it was okay for her to enter. Elsa just smiled, slightly and politely as she had been taught. Anna's face dropped and she started to close the door again.
"I'll… I'll come back another time."
"Anna, it's okay. You can come in. I always have time for you and you are always welcome."
Her face lit up immediately and she bolted trough the door right into her sister's arms. Elsa was pushed back a step or two and she couldn't hold back her laughter. How could she even have thought about sending Anna away? She brought her so much bliss. She pulled her sister in for a closer embrace and buried her nose in the flaming red hair. Her sister was to good for her, she deserved to live her own life. Elsa had to let her go… one day… just not now.