Ok… second attempt at CC fanfiction; first time posting. This is just a short little ficlet in Rosette's POV.

Hope you like it!

Disclaimer: I own Chrno.

The above statement is false.

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Time to Live

By Automatic Flower

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I hate it when people say, "there's always next time."

Because for me, there may not be a next time. The moment I made that Contract with Chrno, my life was cut short. Decades and decades have been cut off of my life. A month ago, I doubted I was going to live until my thirtieth birthday. Now, forget thirty. I'm probably not even going to live until twenty.

My time is still ticking away. Tomorrow is not a promise.

So what can I do about it? I vowed to protect Joshua four years ago. And then he was ripped away from me by that twisted, vile, disgusting, son of a bitch Aion.

Lord, forgive me for my use of language.

I joined the Order, not for the sake of becoming a nun and devoting myself to God almighty for my whole life. No, I joined because it was my only chance out. I needed to learn. I needed to prepare myself. I needed to acquire the skills to track down my brother, hunt down Aion, and be able to blow the guts out of any other demon (or human… or any other force, I suppose) that would try to separate us again.

Like I've said before, many times: I have to do what I can; right now. There's no time to sit around, twiddling my thumbs and wait. Four years ago, I stopped 'doing nothing'. Now is all about doing everything I can at the earliest moment possible. Sure, it's tiring, and intimidating, and sometimes I just want to stop—but the fact that I might not even get up tomorrow morning is scarier.

Speaking of mornings—yes, it takes a while for me to get up. But frankly, it would take anyone a while to get up when they need to be out of bed, changed, and ready to throw their lives on the line at five thirty in the morning every single day. I'm not a morning person! Deal with it!

But I digress.

Honestly, it pisses me off so much when a person thinks they can keep me waiting for ages, because heaven knows I'm not going to sit around on my ass all day! People don't understand that I'm impatient because I have no time. Chrno knows that I absolutely cannot stand being idle.

And thank God for him… Chrno, I mean. He's probably been keeping me sane the past few years. When we first entered the Order, and I started training, it was Chrno who bandaged my wounds every night, it was Chrno who soothed me with kind words… he helped me through it. I have everything to owe to him, no matter what he says about the 'stupid Contract' and it being his fault that my life has been cut so short. And while it's true that I would like it if I were able to live longer too—I thank him, and the Contract, for opening my eyes and making me realize so many things. Because my life so short, I don't waste any time. If I want to do something, I'll do it. I have experienced so much in my life, especially in these four years. So I think it's bull when people say that only people who've lived a long time understand life, and have seen the world. Age has absolutely no hold on experience. Those who want to live, who are eager… they will. There's no time to lose, but so much to gain.

Live like there's no tomorrow, right? I love, I see, I feel, I breathe, I know, I cry, I smile, I laugh, I… I am.

My name is Rosette Christopher, and now is my time to live.