Just Let It Go, a twilight fanfic

Bella was there, inside her room, her chocolate brown eyes brimming with tears while looking out at the rain pouring outside her window, which seemed to match her sullen mood, when a song came on the radio…

never could imagine life without you
from the moment you walked into my world
never knew how long a loving flame would burn
but losing you has forced me to learn

Her thoughts went back to that day at the meadow, their meadow…

that we can't change the way we feel inside
and every try at love never turns out right
we both know its better if we just let it go

When Edward said, "You and I both know that our relationship wouldn't last, couldn't last. I think it's better if we go our separate ways and just… let it go."

so lets have
one last kiss
one last touch
one last tender moment between us
one last dance
to our first song
while pretending there's nothing wrong
lets lay here for a while and cherish every moment we're in denial

They stood there. Bella, her face saturated with confusion, hurt and pain, and wet from crying, with Edward holding her tightly to his chest, memorizing her sweet scent which he knew he will be missing dearly.

we both know

it's better if we just let it go

Then, after an endless moment, he painfully tore himself from a broken Bella, with her begging him to stay. He planted a parting kiss on her soft, warm lips and ran noiselessly through the forest, away from Bella.

Edward was in his new room, staring up at the ceiling, thinking about all his times in Forks, with Bella. The days they were together, laughing and happy, looking at each other's eyes and professing their undying love for each other, and the nights he would watch Bella sleeping serenely and smelling her floral smell. After leaving Bella, he once tried to go out and entertain himself, but ended up running away and willowing in loneliness after seeing some girl with the same build and brown hair as Bella. Suddenly, a song played on the radio he turned on so that nobody would disturb him…

every time I try to make a stand at all

I see your face again and I fall
in the middle of the night there's a scent of a rose
the smell of your perfume I suppose

His thoughts went back to that day at the meadow, their meadow…

but we can't change the way we feel inside
and every try at love never turns out right
we both know its better if we just let it go

When he said to Bella that it was better if they just let go of their relationship for the fact that they couldn't and shouldn't be together, believing that it would be better and safer for her.

They stood there. Edward holding Bella, savoring the last moments he could have her, memorizing her scent, the softness of her hair and the warmness of her skin with her crying and sobbing in his arms.

we both know

its better if we just let it go

Then, after an endless moment, he painfully tore himself from her, ignoring her pleas of him staying, and ran noiselessly through the forest, away from Bella, to an eternity of being alone.

Edward and Bella, replaying the same moment with their minds, listening to the same song with their ears, and feeling the same ache ang longing with their hearts, both wished that they were again in each other's arms, looking into each other's eyes, and listening to each other's "I love you…"

maybe if we met each other under a different sky
maybe then things would be much better between you and i
(we could hold)
we can always hold on to this one special thing we share
but it would be to much for us to bear

Bella, the onslaught of painful memories, dredging up the emotions she so desperately tried to push back in some part of her being to never come back again, being too much, threw herself onto her bed, going under her faded quilt and burying her face in a pillow and cried herself to sleep.

Edward, the onslaught of painful memories, dredging up the emotions he was trying to hide away from and be numb to, being too much, closed his eyes and tried to just concentrate on the darkness instead.

let it go

Two aching hearts, longing for each other and suffering because of distance… and a painful choice.