Maybe it was because I never opened my eyes to the real things going on around me. Maybe it was because I never really paid attention.
I've always been protected. I've always been sheltered from this…fear.
It's winter now. It's cold. Just like he was. Soon…it'll be spring. It'll turn into spring. When it's warm. Like how he came out to be.
Winter was his favourite season. He once told me that life held a meaning for all of us. We had to find that meaning in another person.
To me, that person was him.
I found a meaning. To stay with him.
I realize now…I was foolish. I very got the chance tell him.
He was so kind. He protected, cared, loved, and befriended me.
The only one who did that much…was him. No…
No one's ever told me. No one's ever laughed at this…because it was a very…very…sad feeling.
I was always safe…from this. I thought this warm feeling would never go away. When he hold's me in his arms and says, "Don't cry Kagome. I love you."
It was all a long time ago. But it was still my fault.
I should have done something. I should have seen what was going on.
I should have done many things. But I never did…and now I can't.
I never got a chance…if only I knew.
He once wrote me a letter. It was scented with lavender.
Dear love,
You are the love I have longed for. I wish I never have to leave you.
Don't worry. I love you so much.
I'm not lying. How your hair blows in the wind. How your lips move. How your eyes sparkle.
How you say my name.
And I'll never leave you, love.
But he had lied. I slumped down to my knees and cried. I cried so hard.
I felt a pain tugging at my chest like I've never felt before.
He promised me…he said…! It was all a lie.
Because now…I sit…and cry…with flowers in hand…
On his grave.
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Not the original idea. I don't know what possesses me to write such stories right now. But I just feel like it.