Hey guys, new story; multi chapter, I just came up with this idea today in class and had to get it down before I forgot about it... I am attempting to continue 'What If' as well but I'm just so damn busy all the time that I forget about it, I have started the next chapter though, so be on the lookout for it anytime between now and… well yeah. :) Tell me what you think of this and I'll continue it xxx

-Bel.

It was late September when he finally got the call, he was expecting it for weeks now, but the words that were spoken were not what he was hoping for. It was true. His suspicions were finally confirmed. And all he wanted to do was curl up in a ball in the corner, never leaving his room again. So he did, or at least he tried. He placed his phone on his bed side table and lay his head on his pillow, wishing her could wake up from this nightmare he called his life. Closing his eyes, he began to fall into a deep sleep, when he heard a quiet knock at his door.

"Nick," Jess. I can't face her, not now. "Nick, I know you're in there I can hear you breathing."

Finally he gave in, "Come in," he almost whispered, but she must have heard him because the handle on his door began to turn slowly. Opening the door, she stood in the doorway, arms crossed and a small smile on her face.

Taking in his position on the bed and the major turtle face he had on display, Jess saw that Nick was not in a good mood. "Bad day?" She asked. How does she do that? Nick thought. It's like she sees through me.

"They're all bad, Jess. I'm not really in the mood to talk right now." In realization that he wasn't going to open up to her, she stepped into the room and closed the door behind her.

"Nick, please talk to me, I'm not just your roommate anymore."

"I really don't want to right now, I just want to go to sleep, wake up, eat, sleep, work and live my life as I normally would." But I can't. Not now.

But Jess wouldn't give up, she walked to the side of his bed, took a seat next to him and reached for his hand. "Nick, I get that you don't want to talk, but- Hey please, at least look at me." She said, placing her free hand under his chin, forcing him to look at her. "Please, I wanna be here for you, I know waiting is hard but I'm gonna be with you no matter what." The look in her eyes was of pure love. And he knew that she was telling the truth.

Sighing, he pulled her into his embrace, loving the feel of her under his touch. I wish I could just lay like this forever. He thought to himself, but he couldn't. He'd have to go back home soon, he'd have to see his family, his ma, before… No. Stop. Everything's going to be ok. No one's going anywhere. And with that final thought, Nick placed a soft, loving kiss on the top of Jess' head, her body wrapped up in his arms and a big secret wracking his brain, Nick feel into his deep needed sleep.

The next morning the pale orange light from the early morning sun woke the couple from their embrace. Shifting in their sleep, Nick slowly opened his eyes and peered down at the small figure that lay in front of him, smiling at the little snores that she let out every now and then. Thinking to himself, How did I get her? How did I almost end this two years ago? Before a voice shook him from his thoughts.

"Stop staring." She said, eyes still closed, a smile forming at the corner of her mouth.

"I'm not staring, I'm just thinking." Nick replied, returning her smile with a huge grin caused by the sound of her sleepy voice.

Opening one eye to peek up at him, she asked – with caution, "What are you thinking about- wait better question, why are you thinking so early in the morning?" the sarcasm dripping from her voice.

"Life, you, and me, us."

"Good thoughts I hope."

"Most of them," he said, his mind drifting to the bad thoughts he had pushed away during his sleep, "I just wish things didn't have to change."

"Things may not have to ch-"

"She called." Nick interrupted her before she could finish her sentence.

Jess looked at him, all wide eyed and in shock, tears forming in her eyes. She knew what she was about to hear. Shaking her head, trying to remove the thoughts from her head. No. No, it can't be true.

"Its cancer, Jess." Nicks voice cracking at the use of the word, the tears now flowing freely from her eyes. "My mom has cancer."

Sorry for the short chapter! But there's the first secret of this multi chapter fan fic! Please review

-Bel. xxxx