The Words I Dread

I don't want to say it, the words that I dread

But I can't ignore it, the words that run through my head.

All the "I love you's" and all the lies

From your mistakes I'm the one that lays down and dies.

Every night I heard the words that you spoke

I wake up crying because it was all one joke.

I Don't want you to hear it, the words that I dread

If I ignore it, the words will tear me to shreads.

I pretended that you weren't there and It was just a dream

I lock it all away, hide it, hold back the scream

You claim you still love me, but I don't see that your there

If I died right now, no one would show up, no one would care

I don't want to think it, the words that I dread

I can't run from it, the words that run through my head.

At this moment, I won't lie, I want your arms around me

I want to look into those soft sad eyes and tell you what I see.

I bought all the lies and now I had to make you leave

That isn't what I wanted to do please believe.

I don't want to scream it, the words that I dread

I'm not going to run from it, the words that run through my head.

I miss your arms around me, that feeling that I get when I was with you

That feeling is long ways gone, with the black birds it flew

I won't lie that I still love you, I'm leting go, falling into water sinking down

It's so calm and peaceful, I can't hear your voice and how it sounds

Now you know it, the words I dread

You know it, the words that run through my head.