What We Still Don't Know

by underLINED mine

"How", and "Why" are the things that Canada isn't sure that he wants to know as he listens to France tell about how and why they did what they had done. Meanwhile, England tries to deal with his part in it, and how he tries to fix it ends up creating a bigger mess. POV sequel to "Who I Still Am", though you can read this first. Second in the Regrow, Refind trilogy.

1. Prologue

The cold wind was filled with songs of birds as Matthew almost cried. How could everything change so much? Less than a week ago, on a day like this, he would've cuddled with his bear under tree, and fall asleep to the music of the birds. He wouldn't be worried that Lithuania would tell about what he barely knew while he was housesitting his brother, or that his brother might not recover. He especially wouldn't worry if his friends, former friends, whatever, were evil.

He would be calm and blissfully unaware how surreal reality could be. Shortly after, France arrived. He flashed a small, unsure smile, and extended his hand. Matthew commented on how he was late, and asked if he organized a rape for him. France apologized and asked him to please not be so sarcastic. Matthew said that he was serious.

France nervously chuckled and brought him to where they would talk, walking in front of him. Matthew noticed that it looked like the same room as before. His hand reached protectively to the inside of his pocket. A gun fell. France asked if he was going to be a paranoid shooter who killed everyone for no reason, and why did he bring a gun in the first place. Canada gave a cold glare and simply said that he wasn't a moron. "You know why" was unspoken, but heard. France gave another nervous chuckle. He hoped that it wouldn't be like this. So after he tried to say… something, and Matthew asked "How did it happen, and why did you do it?", he tell that those hopes were dashed.

"Well, you know the aftereffects of what happened-"

"No, I don't. Alfred has been asleep for the past couple of days. Did you drug him? Is that why you were able to do it?! If you couldn't have drugged him, would you still have tried to rape him?! Was that what it was, trying to feel powerful when you were weak?!" Matthew stood up, crying. "BECAUSE IF YOU KILLED AL, I-

"SHUT UP, SIT DOWN, NO ONE DIED!" France grabbed the gun from earlier and at threw it out the window. "CAN WE START NOW!?"

"Stop shouting", was all Canada said, a scrowl on his face. France held his face. He didn't know why he was doing this. "Look, it all started when-"